with my love for fireworks... there couldn't be a better time and moment to watch the world pyro olympics. as luck would have it, we were given complimentary tickets to watch the event and we'll be watching it on our first year wedding anniversary! i can't wait watch it with aishi.
i'll try to bring a camera and capture all those spectacular fireworks!!!
i'm not bragging or anything but, this just makes my day. after a long time of wishing to be a proud owner of this brand, it finally came true!! i couldn't find the blue one which i got. this is the only image available. =D
i'm surely going to have a great christmas!
we also bought kyle new shoes from nike, his first shoe ever! and he sure has big feet for a 5 month old! he got a 6c (whatever that means) sized shoe.
will post his picture wearing his new shoes soon!
^_^
last sunday at mcdo the fort. brought kyle to the party.
you wake up on a cold thursday morning. take a bath. get ready for work. play with your son. be intoxicated with his laughter. you get ready to leave the house with your husband. five minutes into the ride not far from your house, exactly in the corner of your street around 5 or so men in yellow. seems to be waiting for something. the street was bare with the usual flurry and rush of jeepneys, cabs and private vehicles. for some strange reason, the once busy street seemed lonely. it looked like a setting for a cowboy shootout.
so taking it as something unusual but won't affect you at all. you and your hubby
bravely travelled this bare stip of asphalt. but lo and behold, these men in yellow,
suddenly block your way. one man slowly approaches your vehicle in a sly and silent menacing way. you are still calm inside your vehicle. thinking nothing was wrong.
but then there was. apparently, the reason why this man in yellow approached our vehicle was that my hubby was not wearing his seatbelt. and the way that he mentioned
it was like we were the last people on earth who do not wear seatbelts.
we tried to point out that we just left our house and we were about to wear our seatbelts. but our reasoning fell on deaf ears.
it was so obvious that they were just waiting for their next prey with the way
that they stood right there in the corner of our street. and another thing that bothered me was that this incident only happened today. never in my existence in our area that there would be men in yellow at that time of the day and it wasn't even 8am yet! another thing that pissed me off is that our street may be bursting with traffic but it's not really a main road.
i would understand that they would do their job everyday on the same spot but
this was the first time! so hubby has no choice but to surrender his license and get
his ticket. (this only happens in makati and you wouldn't imagine the fine that he
has to pay just to get his license back)
what some men in uniform would do just to earn money. and on innocent motorists
at that!. why don't they apprehend those jeepney drives that DO NOT have
and NEVER used their seatbelts! it's obvious that some of them have those seatbelt but only use them as props or as an arm rest while they're driving? isn't it more dangerous for them? why can't they apprehend them? they're the ones that break the rules day in and day out but they still get away
from it.
this is really pissing me off and it sure did ruin a supposedly great thursday... how am i going to work properly if i'm this pissed?
I would like to make a confession...
i am a die hard harry potter fan. the books and the movie.
i was able (finally) to watch the movie with my hubby and our best friends last thursday at greenbelt 3. it's really fun to watch good movies with good friends, makes the whole movie watching experience better.
i'm not going to delve into the whole movie review kind of thing because it's going to be a one big biased movie review. so what's the point right?
so anyway, as i said it was a fun experience with good friends and my hubby who, by the way, never read the book, but watched all the movies. funny thing was, i arranged him to be seated next to cj so that if he ever gets confused on what's happening and if he ever asks, i'm sure cj would be more than glad to explain it to him. at first, he was asking cj and cj was explaining and providing a little background to the new characters in the movie. but as the movie progressed, aishi was asking me already! but nonetheless, i was able to answer his questions. in between the movie, there was this funny bit in the movie where there was this kid who laughed out loud after everybody had finished laughing, which resulted in colby and i laughing harder and louder. i had a feeling that we were the ones who laughed the loudest. cute kid! whoever he/she is. after the movie ended, i saw that aishi enjoyed himself. but convincing him to read the book still ended in vain... unless the book had pictures, for sure he'll read it. hehe sorry aishi!
on a side note, before the movie started, there are previews right? and there's this absolutely funny cartoon that i'm dying to watch again with my good friends. i forgot the title but it sure did involve a lot of penguins! aishi and i sure had a lot of laughs watching the preview. one laugh trip movie to look forward to!! (if someone would depict on what would penguins look like if they're high, then this is it! )
*** i have a feeling the actor who played cedric looks a bit gay to me.
*** i never imagined cho chang to have a very different and weird accent. i never heard someone with a british/scottish/irish accent say "sorry" so much for dialogues huh? actually it sounded like "sourrey". you get the picture...
*** everybody looked sooo grown up!
*** miranda richardson played a good rita skeeter, sad though they didn't include in the movie how they turned her into a bug/insect. i still imagine her as queen mab in merlin though... such a great acttress! bravo!!
*** rey fiennes (sp) played a great lord voldemort. bald and noseless and all,he still looks hot hot hot! hehe but he sure did scare me...
*** can't wait for the next movie!!!
My name is: haze
I may seem: mataray at first, but once you get to know me, you're in for a fun ride!
People who know me think: that i'm their second mommy
If you knew me you’d probably: spend the whole day with me drinking coffee, reading a good book and sharing some ciggies
Sometimes I feel: like i need to get out
My days are pretty: and extremely fun when i'm with kyle
Yesterday: i spent quality time with my grandma
In the morning I: have a hard time waking up early
I like to sleep: with my 4 pillows and covered by my blanket
If I could be doing anything right now I would be: playing with kyle the whole day and making him laugh out loud
Money: i need more money! hehe
One thing I don’t have that I wish I did is: an ipod nano!!
One thing I have that I wish I didn’t is: procrastinating
All you need is: love (cheesy pero totoo di ba?)
All I need is: more time with my family
If I had one wish it would be: a better high paying job and a good business
Love is: kyle and my aishi
If I could see one person right now it would be: my lola darling
Something I want but I don’t really need is: more shoes, bags and clothes
I live for: everyday being with kyle
I am afraid of: the dark and losing my loved ones
It makes me angry when: people don't come on time
I dream about: a good and comfortable life for my family
I daydream about: anything and everything
i was bored one day here in the office and decided to experiment on some of the pictures that i have of aishi and kyle. and here is the result...
had this as my ym avatar for more than two weeks. hehe
funny and endearing at the same time.
i love my boys.. =D
i texted my bestfriend a while ago about some pressing issues on what is going on in my life now. right now, she's the only one i could trust. she's the only one that understands and gives the perspective that i need. in this ever turbulent world that i am in, she's my anchor. she was always there. even if we don't see each other on a regualar basis and she's just 4 floors down. i know she's there.
i know when i am with her. i am myself and she accepts who i am. i don't need to pretend that i am a different person so that she could accept me. she knows when's the right time to listen and when to share what she feels. hell, we're actually on the same boat.
i told her that i felt like a ghost. i felt like that lone leaf flying away in the breeze, no one notices it until they look at it closely. i feel microscopic. unnoticed. not that i am craving attention, now that is different. how am i going to put it nicely yet mysterious so as not to step on anyones feelings? it's just that the feeling of being left out is so overwhelming. it feels like the one typecasted as a nobody still gets attention because everybody knows that he/she is a nobody. i'm way beyond that. i'm like a nobody's nobody. ask the nobody and he/she wouldn't know that i exist. i don't belong.
how would you feel if everybody's planning this grand shebang and planning it infront of your face and wouldn't even have the decency to even acknowledge you. tp put it more bluntly, dinadaandaanan lang ako. i have ears too you know. i was gifted with the sense of hearing just like everybody else. sometimes people can be proud that having their noses all up in the air, they can't see where they are going and who they are stepping on. what pride does to the normal human being... baffling really.
i really don't want to vent out tonight when i know that aishi is up there in baguio and there's no one to come home to and receive a nice warm hug that says "it's gonna be alright" and i'm sure my son senses that his mommy is not having the best time of her life either...
aishi come home na... i miss you so much...
and there you go, 100 things about me... whew! that was a lot to think about! if you want to do a 100 things about you go ahead! have fun!
this would definitely be the review...
"A scary, strange, and hallucinogenic road-trip story wrapped around a deep examination of the spirit."
yeah, that would be damn cool... describes a bit of what's going on in my life now...
some road trip, and i don't know the destination and where the road will end.
tsch.
Posting a journal entry made by CJ. To all the single people out there, i'm sure you can relate to this. For more interesting entries, visit his zorpia site http://www.zorpia.com/cajut
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posted: nov. 9, 2005
I've been single for a while now and I'm just beginning to appreciate the nice things about not having "that special someone." And after more than 5 years in and out of different relationships here are my top ten things I like about being single.
10) "License to look" – Finally free to blatantly mentally undress any girl who passes my way without guilt, remorse or someone pinching my side and throwing a fit. And girls, don't be offended. It's just looking.
9) "B-movie madness" – I don't care if it stars Steven Segal and DMX. Once in awhile I want to watch stupid movies and enjoy nothing but insanely impossible action stunts of absurdly green humor.
8) "The fastest way around a mall is a straight line" – No more side trips to look at the cutsie puppies at the window. No more sitting at the infamous "guys sofa" in girlie boutiques. No more trying on stuff you ain’t gonna buy anyway. It's just go in, buy it, get out!
7) "The TV remote is not a two player device" – Soap operas can go down the drain and the lifestyle channel can croak! Finally shameless patronage of WWE and The Manshow. And I can enjoy my favorite NBA game without explaining the rules 90% of the time.
6) "Why is my cell phone bill so small?" - no more 20 minute arguments over the cell. No more peeking whenever I get a text message. And more importantly, no more explaining the fact: "Just because I didn't text you doesn't mean I don't love you!"
5) "My brain can only remember so details" - Anniversaries, Monthsaries, her friends birthdays, anniversaries and monthasires. Place we first met, place we first kissed, place where I proposed, place where she wants to get married. Favorite color, favorite song, favorite food, favorite church, favorite movie, favorite aunt. Shoe size, cup size, dress size, serving size….my head hurts…no longer.
4) "My only monthly visitor is my insurance agent." – I can finally have my own mood swings and tantrums. PMS no longer constitutes a reason to be bitched upon. And when a girl tells me "I have." I immediately think of drugs.
3) "Movie sideshow appreciation" – I can finally snicker at other couples trying to make out in movie house, because I’m not doing it myself. Its fun really, especially if you catch the guy with his zipper open after the movie or the girls blouse not buttoned up properly.
2) "Who are you with? What time are you going home?" – I already have one mother. Don't need another one breathing down my neck every time I go out without her. No more "reporting to commander" coz I’ve gone AWOL.
1) "Thou shalt not bear false witness against thy girlfriend." – I'm a better Christian now. Don't have to lie to questions like: "Am I fat?" "Do you like my hair?" "What do you think about Orlando Bloom?" "Does this dress make me look cheap?" "When do you want to get married?" "Am I the love of your life?"
So there. I'm sure any girl who reads this can easily make their own version of the girls single top ten things. But this is my personalized list. To y'all couples. Enjoy it. But rest assured that the single life isn't that bad either.
try as you might to ignore it and think that everything would be better in a blink of an eye, it's hard when there's this big grey elephant in the middle of the room. i guess for you moving on from what happened yesterday was easy as taking a piss.
it's not for me. i was the one who got hurt.
you can't expect me to say everything is ok when i know it's not. i need time to recover and figure out what happened. let the others say it was just a practical joke.
i don't see anyone laughing. i don't feel like laughing.
i've shed so much tears yesterday. some poeple might have seen me. but i don't care. i was in my own little world. i was left vulnerable and alone. for that brief moment i was alone. it reached to the very core of my being.
i could not describe the pain and the hurt i felt when i saw it. in an instant it felt like the whole world came crashing down on me and no one was there to save me. it was as if they were only watching me drown and sink slowly to the bottom.
i've been telling myself that i know it wasn't your fault but it's hard to erase the fact that i was the one who got hurt from a not so innocent prank. this has happened before but i let those incidents pass. but why is it now when you were not the one to blame, i got hurt the more?
i'm not blaming you for being too kind and friendly with everybody else. but you should know that you can't treat everybody equally with your friendliness. i've warned you so many times, some people can and will misinterpret your kindness and friendliness differently from the way you treat them.
i apologize if i've been cold towards you today, but just give me time to heal and sort things out on my own and i'll assure you everything would be better soon. but i can't promise it will be the same just like before in the following weeks. i've learned to keep my guard up and protect myself from being hurt again.
i just hope you do your share...
umagang umaga eto ang mababasa ko... sana mamatay na ang mga malalanding tao sa mundo...
long story.
will post why soon..
thank god for my bestfriend, her hugs and good ol coffeee... i feel a bit better today.
will make kwento what happened once i get to iron things out by tonight.
this is just so exciting!! this would be the third year i'm going to collect those precious stickers from starbucks to get the much awaited 2006 planner. before any of you would jump to the conclusion that i'm willing to spend around 3k+ worth of coffee just to get a planner that i can also get from the nearest bookstore... well it's beyond that.
getting this planner is more than just drinking coffee and spending a hundred pesos more than the 3 in one kind. it's more than that. aside from waiting all year to get this planner, i also get to make someone's christmas happy. it's not all about the material possession after the completion of the 21 stickers/coffee purchases, it's about bringing joy to someone this christmas. if i had more money to spend i would also buy that great big mug from starbucks, it's also part of their charity thing for christmas.
i still have 17 sticker to go... but i'm sure before december ends, i'm going to have that planner!! hehehehe
coffee=planner=good ol christmas cheer!
it works!
last saturday, aishi and i spent the weekend at my in-laws (his parents)in mandaluyong with our baby boy kyle. we went there so that kyle would spend some quality time with his grandparents and cousins. and hopefully for aishi and me to relax, more empahsis on me relaxing. hehehe
so anyway, out of the blue, aishi asked me if i would be interested to have a massage somewhere near their place. (there was this semi posh spa/massage place in shaw, which up to now i can't remember the name but once i see it, i know that's the place). i agreed knowing this would be a new experience for me.
never in my life did i experience getting a massage, except of course the one i got from a "hilot" after i gave birth. i was a bit hesitant in getting a massage because for one, i'm a very ticklish person.
so i braced myself for this experience and prepared for the "worst" hehehe.
i was proven wrong. in the hour that aishi and i were having our massage, (we were in a couple's room) i was in massage heaven!! the experience was soooo good it was indescribeable!! truly amazing! the oils that were used on my body was truly divine! minty and refreshing. one hour was truly bitin! this is just a body massage, what more if it would include those facials and scrubs! i might opt not to leave that place!
after the session... my back felt lighter, the tension at the base of my neck gone and i feel rejuvenated! and the whole experience made me really sleepy. actully during the session, i've been dozing on and off.
i'm sure going back to that place for more massages!! maybe this would be a monthly thing for me and aishi. and a great bonding experience even if we weren;t talking the whole time coz we were enjoying it. hahaha
i'm sooo addicted and hooked on getting a massage. it's better than a foot spa! hahaha
*mad props also to my "masahista". she's really great with her hands and i forgot to mention that she's pregnant! whoa! ang galing nya talaga! that's why i left a hefty amount of tip for her for all the efforts. she really deserves it. :)
i have to start planning when i'm coming back for that massage, maybe i'll get a facial too ^_^
another monday has come and gone. tried to do some work today but its been crap the whole day since i can't access my public folder here in the office which contains all the stuff i need to get the work done.
feeling a bit crappy this morning because i started to have a coughing fit and my right nostril is running a waterfall of clear "sipon". pardon to those with queasy stomachs.
then in the afternoon, felt a lot worse. cough's gone worse and the nose has turned into a very wild flowing river. and it sucks bigtime.
tried to coax hubby into taking me home and skip his basketball game but it seems the game is much more important that what i'm feeling now. at first tried to send some hints (yeah yeah i'm a girl eh) in the hopes that he'll get the point. but then went for the direct approach. but still got a no. told him that i asked my dad to bring me home (and still waiting for his reply up to now) still hoping that he'll pity me and offer to pass by for me in the office and take me home. but then still got a no in return. poor me.
as if i'm going to get that needed rest to fully recover when i get home but i have a 3 month old son waiting for me to take care of him and put him to sleep... as if i get the enough help from him when i take care of our baby. he's just the usual playmate for him. he's never done the yucky, tiring and upsetting part of raising this baby. i've been through it all and i think i deserve a much needed break just beacuse i'm sick. i believe this is just a little favor to ask from him.
monday sucks bigtime and worse, i'm sick on a monday...
oh gosh... i just realized something today. i have this growing obession to collect these dangling earrings.
oh my gulay...
before it was shoes and bags on the top of my list, now they're the second next to these earrings..
og gosh talaga...
pakshet!! pakshet ka talaga!! wala ka talagang manners, ni mag thank you nde ka marunong. pasalamat ka at bingay ko pa yan sa iyo. kung tinopak siguro ako, ako na lang ang gagawa nun. sarap ng buhay ng pa-easy easy lang noh? maranasan mo sana ang hirap sa susunod. leche. tandaan mo nde ikaw ang dumaan sa hirap na yan. kahit nga appreciation wala ako narinig sa iyo... kahit sana nung inoffer ko sa iyo out of courtesy eh sana tinanong mo kung ok lang di ba. but no. buong puso mo itong kinuha na walang pasalamat.
isa ka pa. kung magngitngait ka kala mo kung sino kang anghel na napaka perpekto. pare-pareho lang tayong nangagago. sabihin na nating nasa diskarte ito. pero leche, tama ba naman na maghugas ka ng kamay mo na parang ako lang ang may kasalanan. mas malala ka pa nga eh. sa totoo lang nde na nakakatuwa ito. ilang beses na rin ako nagapologize pero para namang wala lang sa iyo. ganun pa rin ang treatment. isa lang akong kasangkapan dito. napapansin pag kailangan. kung ganun kaya rin ang gawin ko sa inyo/iyo? para alam nyo kung ano ang feeling. nde porket may kaya ang pamilya mo eh ganun na lang ang tingin mo. tapos sasabi sabi ka na simple kang tao, eh ano tong ginagawa mo? ehemplo ba yan ng isang simpleng tao?
hay naku, nakakasira talaga ng araw. eto nanaman. sira na ang monday ko, pano pa ang mga susunod na araw tong linggo??
buti na lang at makakauwi ako ng mas maaga ngayon... para nde na kita makita. nde ako makatrabaho ng maayos sa iyo eh. kelan ka kaya magbabago? pag may apo na ako?
3 months old na ang baby boy bututy ko today!! super happy ako kasi he's developing really fast na! he can already grab some of his toys, with a liitle help from mommy or daddy of course. and he can already focus on things that you show him and obvious na he's really captivated with it. minsan pa nga, nakikita namin na nanonood na rin cya ng tv pag carry namin siya ng nakaharap. sinabihan ko na nga ang yaya nya na since gising naman siya pag mornings, manood sila ng cartoons na eductaional. like yung sa nickelodeon, yung nick jr ata. yung may blues clues, bear in the big blue house (super love ko yung bear na yun!) and of course ang sesame street!
excited na ako umuwi mamaya kasi i'm going to pass by posium later para ibili si kyle ng new toy nya. kasi every month, binibilhan ko cya ng new toy, para bang birthday gift sa kanya and reward na rin for being a good boy. hehehe
kahit paano, happy na ako na nagiging ok na si kyle. babalik na lang kami this saturday sa doctor nya for another check up kasi nde pa rin nawawala ang ubo nya pero unlike the past weeks, eh malala talaga. ngayon ang worry ko na lang eh yung phlegm na nde pa rin nawala. yun na lang kasi ang reason kung bakit may ubo pa ang anak ko. other than that eh, healthy, happy and matakaw pa rin si bututy ko. ^_^
sana 530 na para mabili ko na ang gift nya!! i'm sure super happy nanaman yun when he sees his new toy! iba talaga pag bata, kita mo ang ganuine appreciation nila sa mga bagay. sana ganun din ang ibang mga adults noh?
*what a week and it's just Tuesday! *
after finishing all my work today much earlier than i expected, i decided to blog hop. hoping to find inspiration to get on with my own blog entry for the day. but then i was too lazy. but then i thought for a while that i had to... kasi wala lang haha
2nd day of the week and i am not having the time of my life. monday was not a good start but i'd rather keep it to myself than to talk about it here. it's too personal to share it here. i'm not 100% into my work today, and i think for the week. monday was a bad start and for sure the rest of the week would too..
tomorrow's wednesday, i'm running out of excuses and reasons to avoid coming to work late. but i have to do this because i have to take kyle to the doctor and have him checked by his pedia for his cough and colds. i guess this time, i'm coming to work late. it's really hard to juggle work and a sick child and in the process you risk of jeopardizing one. and for sume i am not going to risk my son's health. he's my priority now and everything would have to take a backseat. when you lose a job or anything material, that can be replaced in time or immediately. but losing a child, that would be irreplaceable even if you have the gift to bear children over and over again. i can't even find the words on how to describe it. the closest i could think of is like having this really priceless antique that is really so rare that no replica can be made in any attempt whatsoever. actually my son is more precious than anything else material or immaterial in this world. losing would be like losing 99% of my life..
*3 sticks of cigarettes and a lousy weather*
went down fo a bit of a smoke with a friend and we got to talk, not excatly some issues but if ever it gets to reach some people, it could turn out to be one. which we both hope would not since it could create some gaps or distance between people concerned. i guess the best thing we could do is to just get on with our lives and continue with what we are doing and just hope for the best that things would turn out ok. it's hard to jump into conclusions with issues such as these that are still to vague to even understand. basically it all boils down to one thing that's really important in any relationship: communication. nothing else and nothing but.
finally i can breathe deeply... slight.
medyo ok na c kyle. nde na ganun ka grabe ang ubo at sipon nya unlike the past two days. laking tulong talaga ang nebulizer. nakakatulog na ng mahimbing c kyle. nde na cya ganun ka-fussy. kagabi kasi wala cyang gana uminom ng milk nya kahit yung juice nya nde man lang nya natikman.
pero kanina when i made my usual check up on him sa house. ok na cya. normal na ang intake nya sa milk nya. in short eh balik-takaw na cya uli hahaha. and i'm really happy. =D
tomorrow, check up nya uli, hopefully, ok na cya pag tinignan ng pedia nya. nde naman cya fussy pag pinapainom ng gamot. sulit nga actually. at least kampante kami ni aishi na nde nasasayang ang gamot nya. in a way parang alam nya na dapat uminom ng gamot para gumaling na cya.
come to think of it, kyle's really mature for a 2 month old kid. kasi he's super talkative na. very interactive. para bang pag kinausap mo, he can understand what you're saying. tapos when you talk to him he does not look you in the eyes pero sa mouth mo. as if he's trying to copy how you mouth the words to him. bet ko talaga na he'll start to speak at walk at an early age. before he turns one. super excited na talaga ako when that happens!!!
*sa mga nagpray for kyle, super thank you!! ^_^
the title explains it all...
kahit na i have been prepared for the road ahead on being a mom, iba pa rin yung mararanasan mo talaga. masaya maging mommy kasi ma-experience mo ang mga milestones ng anak mo. right now, sobrang enjoy ko ang mga moments namin ni kyle. lalo na when he wakes up, dun siya sobrang daldal and maingay. medyo mag whimper lang siya ng konti pag gising kasi nagugutom pero pag nabusog na eh, tadtad na kami ni aishi ng mga ngiti nya at mga tahimik na tawa. at two months sobrang responsive na siya compared sa cousin nya na 4 months old. sobrang proud talaga ako sa kanya.
isa pang nakakaaliw kay kyle eh at two months old eh nde siya fussy. alam nya kung kelan siya iinom na ng milk at kung kelan siya mag poopoo. aba pati oras ng pagtulog sunod yan kaya kahit paano eh nakakarelax kami sa bahay. ang technique lang naman dyan kasi eh, pagkapanganak pa lang eh i-establish na agad ang schedule ng bata, gawing routine na ito para iwas gulo. kasi nakikita ko sa ibang mga babies at mga parents nila eh pareho silang naghuhulaan kung anong oras kakain etc. si kyle kasi masunurin sa schedule nya. pati pag iyak nun, depende sa gusto. alam ko kung iyak ng gutom, basa, bored, antok o kung may nararamdaman. motherly instinct kumbaga.
pero siyempre, may downside pa rin. tulad ngayon, may sakit si kyle. may ubo at sipon. nung una (last week ata) mild lang ang ubo at sipon nya. ok naman siya. normal pa rin ang routines nya. pero ngayon, after ng binyag nya, naging worse ang ubo at sipon niya. dahil din kasi sa panahon. init-lamig. eh ang bata pa naman nde ganun kaagad na makaka-cope sa drastic weather changes. kaya ayun, may sakit.
dinala ko na siya kanina sa hospital para ma check ng pedia nya. ang sama na kasi ng ubo nya. as in pag ubo nya eh dinig mo ang lutong ng phlegm sa lungs nya. halata rin naman na hirap na rin ang anak ko sa pag ubo. tapos sinamahan pa ang umaagos na sipon. eh ang batang yun pag natulog eh sanay na nakadapa. kaya pag matutulog na cya, kumakalat ang sipon niya dun sa pillow nya. ayaw naman nya na matulog ng nakatihaya. kaya up to now eh pinaninindigan nya na matulog ng nakadapa.
pag naririnig ko cya na umuubo at sumisinghot, lagi ko sinasabi sa kanya na "kyle, kay mommy na lang ang sakit mo. ayaw kitang nahihirapan eh.." kung minsan titingin siya sa akin na nakakaawa. para bang sinasabi nya na "kung pwede lang mommy.." pero nakikita ko rin sa mga mata nya na pinipilit nya na kayanin yung sakit nya. nde naman cya mahirap painumin ng gamot kasi walang nasasayang na gamot sa kanya.
ang sakit lang talaga sa puso na makita ko na may sakit ang anak ko. para bang lahat na ginawa mo pero bakit parang walang nangyayari? feeling ko parang lahat ng ginawa ko para nde cya magkasakit eh nauwi lang sa wala kasi eto ang anak ko, may sakit. kung pwede lang na wag muna magwork at bumalik na lang ako sa work pag 100% na magaling na ang baby ko. kulang ang 24 hours para tutukan ang anak ko at alagaan ng mabuti.
sana matapos na to. at sana gumaling na si kyle...
*kung sino man ang nagbabasa nito, please pray naman for his speedy recovery..
finally uploaded all his pics (click on the title to view his album)
add him na rin sa friendster: bututuy_kyle@yahoo.com
in just a week, kyle aka baby boy bututuy to his daddy, had gained 1 pound!!
from 2 saturdays ago he weighed 12 pounds and this saturday's check up he's now weighing at 13 pounds!!
for a two month old baby, he sure is a heavy one. all the more for me to call him my little piglet. all pink and cuddly and overflowing with cuteness
^_^
i was supposed to document the last months of my pregnancy until the delivery but i never got to do so since i was really busy and lazy at the same time. but the opportunity came to finally write about it since our email server is busted and i can't do proper work without my email.
so anyway, on with the story...
first week of july
i was still in the office preparing my turnover report and making follow ups with my clients. i still had the energy to go to work since i was sure that i would give birth right on my due date which was on the 29th. i was being brought and fetched by aishi everyday. i was strictly prohibited to commute on my own. but there were unavoidable circumstances that i had to since if aishi had to leave for an out of town thing or he would be coming home late. good thing i have an office mate who lives near our place.
july 12
i was taking one day at a time at work since i had 2 false alarms already. but i was still confident that i would give birth end of july. i already filed my maternity leave as advised by my mom. left work the usual time and went on with the usual routines when i get home. come around 12 midnight, i started to have pains in my lower back and i was waking up to pee. this happened every hour or so. aishi was getting worried but i told him i was ok.
july 13 around 1030am
aishi was still at home with me. i was online chatting with my office mates. called my mom to tell her that i was having pains in my lower back earlier and i was peeing often. she told me that i "might" be in labor. she told me to check everytime i pee if i "showed" already, meaning if i had some pinkish mucous-y discharge. the moment that i felt like peeing, i checked, and there it was, a bloody show. i told aishi that i'm in labor already. called up my mom again. we waited for her to come home before we left for the hospital.
12:30 pm same day
i was already admitted into the hospital. i was being checked for the time being by the attending OB since at that time my OB was attending another delivery. the doctor was amazed at me coz i was really realxed and chatting with them. i was even asked if i was feeling the contractions, i had to say yes even if i really wasn't hehe.
1:30 pm
after an internal exam by my ob to check how far i was dilated, i was then transferred into the labor room. around 15 mins into chatting with the nurses and the interns, i felt that my water bag burst. beleive me when i say that when the water bag bursts, it DOES NOT feel like you just peed. it felt like all the fluids inside me came rushing out. so don't beleive those movies where a girl says her water bag broke and the water comes our trickling... the water RUSHES out!! after that surprising revelation, the pains began. from there i felt the pain. every contraction felt like i was being ripped apart. i had to squeeze one of the attending intern's hand to help ease the pain. i even remembered asking for my mommy and the doctor told me "nde na pwede mommy mo, mommy ka na rin noh" now, i find that really funny.
around 2-2:30 pm
after another IE, i was then transferred into the delivery room. this is it. the moment of truth. i was prepped, shaved down there, and i was asked to push...
i was creaming like hell (think typical pinoy movie where a woman is giving birth, ganun) and after 2-3 pushes...
i woke up in the recovery room around 5pm. hehehe
i totally forgot what happened. i think i passed out from all the pushing and from the delivery of kyle. but i was happy everything was over.
in the delivery room, i was also with another patient. she was there before me. but was already being prepped for a CS delivery. tigas kasi ng ulo ayaw mag push, nagalit tuloy si OB. after 10 mins or so in the recovry room, the same girl i was with was just being wheeled into the room. yan kasi ang kulit eh...
and from all that exciting roller coaster ride into the delivery room, i was able to see my baby boy.
and the bisitas came rushing in... hehehe
It was a dreary October night when i met you. You were surprisingly different from the angels that i knew. somehow, in the few minutes that i met you i knew you were different. you were something special. there was this distinct aura in you that i knew would be very hard to miss. i knew we were meant to be together. the minutes passed into hours and you still enchant me with your presence. you were this warm blanket that enveloped me with undeniable comfort. i knew you were sent to me.
time stood still between us. the world around us seems to pass by in a fast blur. it was just me and you. in a blink of an eye, you came.
you caught me unaware. i was a different person before i met you. i thought tangible things are the only entities that existed. i didn't believe in things beyond comprehension co-exists with things that are. i never beleived in instances where the moment you meet that person, everything would totally change. i never knew life would be so much better. it's truly a blessing you came that fateful night. even in the storm, you were my sunshine. you were the sunrise of my life.
you brought out something in me that i didn't know i had. it was like someone opened a secret door. with you. i'm stripped of all the impurities and malice. you reached into the deepest parts of my existence. you filled an empty void.
you were that needle in the haystack.
but then, in a blink of an eye, you were gone. my world came crashing down on me. it was like being in my own funeral.it was like being stuck all alone in the rain. i was left shivering. alone and lonely. i then realized that i could not exist without you. you were the one who completed my soul. you were my sheild. i never realized that being with you was like holding fine sand in my hands. slowly you were slipping away...
i forgot to count the days since you left. i slowly watch the days turn into night over and over again. my heart was bursting with questions i know would never be answered. it makes me feel like i'm a tree slowling losing all my leaves. you took something special from me like a thief in the night. you were there one moment and gone the next even before i could reach out and touch you. even before i could say how happy you've made me.
you were gone. you were gone. vanished. erased from my life maybe forever. everytime i wake up, i always see the sunset. i'm wishing to see the sunset again... wishing to see you.
if you could hear me now, i'm trying to be happy. trying to live my life again, coping without you. but i know this would be a very long journey. you were part of me and now i lost you. there would never be anything the same as you even if they come by the thousands. you were rare. you were special.
was it my fault that i let you go?
maybe in the next lifetime i'll see you again. and from there, we can start over and this time, there's no letting go.
you are my angel and forever will be...
changed the look of my blog. got tired of the old template. and i feel so damn proud of myself coz i edited the codes without the help of any techie person.
the power of cut and paste!! teehee!
feel free to comment on the look of my blog.
cheers!
^_^
this is just so weird. i'm back at work and it feels like it's the first day of work. technically it is after being on leave for 2 months. but then it's different since a lot of things have changed since i have been gone. i can't relate to some of the jokes and stories. it's seems i have to befriend the people again to solidify the friendship and closeness that we once had when i was gone.
i find that really hard since i have this notion in my head that even if i hibernate for a long time, when i come back things would be the same the way i left it. but then, reality -wise, it's not. i have to adjust and not expect them to adjust for me. i was the one who "left" them for two months.
but really, i don't know where to start. i feel lost. alone and lonely at the same time. i've been so accustomed to the comforts and company that i had at home that being back here at work was a real shock to me. it felt like being doused with ice cold water. a big slap in the face for that.
right now being my first day at work, i don't know where to start. i'm groping in the dark. i don't know how to start my work. i don't know where to begin again. i don't know how to push through with my accounts. i can't monitor how they are moving since right now, someone's still handling my accounts and i'm not yet updated. i've been bored out of my wits for the last 7 hours. i've checked my email, my friendster, my multiply, surfed all the sites that i know, chatted with some people and i still have 2 hours to go before i leave the office.
part of me also wants to go home now and stay with my baby. part of me is thinking of quitting my job and being a full time mom to kyle. i want to spend each and every moment with him and see him grow up. when the time comes, i can go back to the corporate world. part of me also misses the times where i can go out every night and stay out late. things are different now, i can't stay out late as i used to, i can't go to every gimmicks as i used to. i have a son waiting for me to be home and spend time with. now, i have to choose the gimmicks that i go to. gimmicks will not be the same as it used to. i think, i can only go out if there would be a special occasion to attend.
i'm really stuck in the middle now. is it to go left or right? white or black? up or down?
meet the source of all our happiness.. Kyle Xavier Yago Hung!
fresh from the nursery into my arms. ^_^
a month old sleeping baby piglet ^_^ cuteness!!!
for more pics of kyle, visit http://yagie.multiply.com
three names you go by:
1. Haze
2. Yags
3. Yagie
three screen names you have had:
1. yagie17
2. yagiedoodles
3. nookie_nips
three physical things you like about yourself:
1. pimple free skin
2. Eyes
3. my boobs (advantages of being pregnant)
three physical things you don't like about yourself:
1. feet
2. height
3. my forehead
three parts of your heritage:
1. Filipino
2. Spanish
3. Chinese
three things that scare you:
1. the dark
2. flying cockroaches
3. heights
three of your everyday essentials:
1. Cell phone
2. planner
3. Wallet
three of your favorite musical artists:
1. incubus
2. the beatles
3. goo goo dolls
three of your favorite songs:
1. goodnight girl - wet wet wet
2. foolish heart - steve perry
3. any incubus song
three things you want in a relationship:
1. love
2. communication
3. trust
three physical things about the opposite sex that appeals to you:
1. eyes
2. lips
3. height
three of your favorite hobbies:
1. Reading books
2. Surfing the net
3. Playing bejeweled
three careers you're considering/you've considered:
1. dentist
2. writer
3. events coordinator
three places you want to go on vacation:
1. Palawan / boracay
2. London
3. Paris
three kid's names you like:
1. Kyle Xavier
2. Isha / Aisha
3. Mckenzie
three things you want to do before you die:
1. go around the world
2. go bungee jumping
3. ride a rollercoaster
three ways that you are stereotypically a boy:
1. I cuss like a sailor
2. I love billiards
3. I love to play with boy's toys
three ways that you are stereotypically a girl:
1. I am such a crybaby
2. I don't like yucky things
3. I can be kikay if i want to
three celeb crushes:
1. Michael J Fox
2. Michael J Fox
3. Michael J Fox
What are 5 things you enjoy doing when there's no one around you?
1. Writing
2. Watching TV
3. Reading
4. Sleeping
5. Eating
Name 5 things that lower your stress/blood pressure/anxiety level?
1. Playing with kyle
2. Billiards
3. 1 stick of cigarette
4. Coffee
5. Good books
after recovering from a two month hibernation aka my maternity leave, i'm finally back to join the corporate world and face the work that i left behind which piled up immensely. as if the "work" that i did being mommy to kyle isn't tiring... hehe hey, you don't hear me complaining here.
it just feels weird now. i'm back in my old chair, my old pc, my old office, but everything seems new. it feels like i'm the new employee here. after two months, things have changed here in the office. it's time to adjust and catch up...
but honestly, i would rather talk about kyle and how he's grown to be such an adorable little boy.
but that would be a different entry altogether. :)
starbucks in december....
ever stared at the sky
surrounded by the explosion of the stars
mixed with your sigh
there,
i learned to touch you
i gave up forever to touch you
and so the song goes
that moment,
i learned to love you
i know you'd be mine
the night never wanted it to end
our moment began
and continued with
the flight of a single star
8/12/2004 3:41pm
i just heard iris play on one of my officemate's speakers and i remembered that december at starbucks with my aishi. how did it happen? i was hearing mass earlier and remembered that i left my wallet with aishi. dying to see him, i texted him that i need my wallet since i don't have any money that day. (take note, nde pa kami nun) the wallet thing was just a way to see him since i was with my parents and they could pay for whatever expense...
anyway, he agreed to bring my wallet to glorietta. i told him to meet me at starbucks (nde pa cya jologs nun). i told him to accompany me na rin since i was going to watch the fireworks display around 8pm. we ordered coffee and got to talk. we were talking about the googoo dolls and how much we love the song iris. the movie city of angels which up to now he never got to finish. then the topic shifted to falling stars. i told him i never saw a shooting star this early in the evening. he assured me i'll see one even if we have to stay longer at starbucks.
after all the conversations and the firework display, we wished to hear iris play either in the speakers of starbucks or in the speakers below... and wishing and waiting to see a shooting star. at that time i asked god for a sign that if he played iris and at the same time i see a shooting star, aishi is the one for me (baduy, pero sweet).
god was really good... after talking about it (iris and the shooting star), iris was played although i'm not sure from what speakers. we just stared at each other and laughed about having a "sixth sense". at the same time, we were just looking up and hoping to see a shooting star, well wouldn't you know it?! there was! and iris was playing...
and you know the rest of the story... :)
After sex and the city, the guide and in depth look into the lives of 4 single Manhattan women now comes the secret and not so secret lives of 4 married/ex married women in Wisteria Lane.
I totally got hooked on Desperate Housewives. (mad props to Charm for the DVD copies of the whole series).
Of course i got to know more about each episode by reading the transcripts per episode. But then, watching the episode itself is the best!
If you wanna check out the transcripts, here's the URL: http://desperatehousewives.ahaava.com/episodes.htm
Get tangled in the intrigue and mystery that envelopes these 4 women...
"everybody has s dirty little secret in Wisteria Lane..."
baby kyle
he's all cramped up in my tummy now. although my tummy isn't that low yet as some books would say. well i still have 3 more weeks to go really. it's up to kyle when he wants to come out. it's just that i need him to "inform" me earlier. and i'm hoping he chooses to come out into the world preferrably at night at i'm at home. but then, you can't control the universe and the forces that be...
it's really hard sometimes to move and find a good spot since i'm really uncomfortable with my body now. my joints ache (manas), my back aches if i sit too long watching tv, i have to change positions sitting, lying down or reclining. every movement feels like kyle's there. well, he is. i feel bad for him cos i know he's uncomfortable as much as i am. imaging being in a fetal position 24/7. try stuffing yourself inside a box the whole day... that's how a baby must feel at 8 months going on 9. can't blame him if he's desperate to come out. i would do the same thing.
but of course i'm excited and scared at the same time. excited coz i'm going to have a baby. scared because i'm terrified of needles, and pain in general. nobody said childbirth was easy. nobody said that expelling a 7 pound human being out of something that can stretch up to 10cm only would be a walk in the park? not a pretty picture huh? i'm also worrying about going for a pain less or pain free delivery.
saturday adventure?
aishi and i planned something this saturday. hopefully this time we could actually avail of that 4d ultrasound thing since i was able to get a written request from my OB yesterday during my check up. after that, aishi said we have this thing at carlo's house. i think a little get together with the bros and sis. i haven't seen them for quite a while. they're one of those great people in my life (of course i have my toxic nips) who were there for me and aishi when we need them. truly rare people who touched our lives.
that thursday check up-why i love/hate my OB
went to my OB yesterday for a weekly check up. was there around 730, had dinner already and was just patiently waiting for my turn. i was listed as the 20th patient to be checked. but did i mention that almost all the patients were there except the doctor? our OB was famous for her reasonable check up fee. for new patients, coming for your first consultation, you are required to pay P50 for that first check up. after that, the succeeding check ups would be free already. the next time you have to pay your OB would be when you give birth. with an OB asking for a PF of around P4k, what more could you ask? you struck gold!
ah.. i'd say stop celebrating and cheering. there will always be a dark side of the moon. the downside with having her as my OB... long and i mean long waiting hours for your check up.
it was actually last night when i exerienced waiting really long for her to arrive. usually when we arrive for check ups, i just have to wait 1-11/2 hours. last night was really different and tiring. as i've said we arrived 730. i was checked around 10:30 or almost 11. yup. i waited that long for her... call me the ultimate martyr for my OB. i just realized that after all these months, this only happened now when i;m due in a few weeks' time. we even met up with one soon to be mom who's due on the day itself! we were dreading and praying hard that she won't give birth anytime coz that would mean we have to wait.
the reason why our OB was usually late for check ups is because she still goes around the hospital checking up on her patients, tending those who were rushed about to give birth any minute. that's how demanding ang popular she is. try calling one day before the day you want to be checked and you'll be surprised that you're at the bottom 30 of the list. i even encountered being in the high 60's of the list. that was on a saturday and i was like 2 months pregnant. i think. of course i knew the tactics. schedule my check ups on a weekday and call a week before. for sure i'm gonna be in the high 10's of the list. and always was. haha
but of course, that's the only complaint i have with my OB, other than that, she's really accomodating and would be glad to answer all my questions no matter how tired she looks already. you would have this high respect for her cos you'll know she knows her job by heart. truly a veteran in childbirth. and did i mention she was also my mom's OB when she gave birth to my younger brothers.
dada ko: pat! ang dumi dumi ng sando mo! umakyat ka nga dun at magpalit
pat (my youngest bro): oo
dada ko: teka naligo ka na ba?
pat: hmmm..
dada ko: ano?
pat: kailangan pa ba yun?
uuuhhh... *kamot ulo*
nde ko alam kung matatawa ako o maasar dun sa sinabi nya...
Happy Mondays!!!
36 weeks... gosh... 4 more weeks to go and i'm carrying this baby to term already.
current state: feeling a bit tired. i'm having pains in my back and in the lower part of my legs. kyle's a bit hyper now. my belly ached a while ago but i doubt if i'm in labor. i don't feel any contractions. i just feel like i have an upset stomach. still assessing what's up with my tummy and back right now.
tummy a bit stiff. hardens for like 5-10 seconds then relaxes again. at the same time my back would ache. tried changing positions to somehow ease the pain on my back. the pillow that i have with me does not help at all. it has been 15 minutes already and the pain is still here... still doubting if this is the real thing. it's too early.
thinking of calling my mom to ask. but i have to wait for aishi to call me first so that he would know what i'm feeling right now. don't want to raise panic and worry here among my officemates. i would really prefer if i would go into labor if aishi and i are both at home.
still monitoring my back pains and tummy aches.
think i have to rest for a while...
next update to follow by tom. =D
Yey!! It's my dada's Birthday today! And he's 53! Will post his picture so that you'll see that he does NOT look like a 50+ year old guy...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADA!!
no need to buy you a present, we've only got a month or so left before you get to see your first grandson. that would be the best present for you. i think. hehehe
It was never a big deal for me if I reach the 1 year mark working day in and day out. I never gave so much of a thought that staying in a company for a year would be a big deal. I mean I have experienced staying more than a year in my previous job. I stayed a year and 8 months to be exact before I told myself that enough is enough and I'm am not going anywhere with the job that I have. At the age of 22, I felt i hit the wall face first and I'm going nowhere. I had reached a dead end street. A dead end job. I really could not imagine my self slaving year after year taking in calls from cardholders and giving in to all their whims and outrageous requests just because they are the customer. This is where I realized that the saying, "the customer is always right" does not apply at all. One has to draw the line somewhere. And I did. I said enough is enough and I got sick hearing the same profanity from different people everyday and bearing the faults of the other departments and lying to the customer that everything will be alright, when you know it won't.
Thank God i got out early and found a better job. And today I mark my first year working in this company. I enjoyed the job with a few hiccups on the way. Which was partly my fault since I admit to being a procrastinator when I really feel like not working. But once I start, I try to finish the job before i leave for home. One way or the other, I'm glad I get to use the things I learned in College. I'm glad i got to meet new people and establish strong friendships with a few chosen ones. I'm glad i get to manage to live still within my means.
Things that I learned the whole three years that I have been working:
* Admit if it is really your fault. Honesty doesn't hurt at all, it actually earns you respect.
* The boss is not always right. Argue with the boss if you have to, but in a calm tone. He is still the one responsible for your salary.
* There will always be an officemate who wants to compete with you or treats you as a threat. Don't get affected. Take it as a challenge to excel more.
* Always be on your toes when it comes to personal or even work issues. You don't know who your enemy is. being to open can hurt you.
* Never Ever bring your personal issues to work. You'll never get anything done and everything gets affected.
* What happens in the office, stays in the office. And that thing is called WORK. Once you get home, think of your family, yourself. Establish "ME" time at home. It's more relaxing.
* Treat your contacts and clients as friends, you'll never know they might hold the right key to the right door to your future.
* You can't avoid "petiks", just make sure your officemates see you working from time to time. Keep yourself busy sometimes.
* There will always be office gossip. It's ok to talk about it but fabricating or inventing stories about someone which is really not true is below the belt.
* Still on the office gossip note, not being paranoid here or anything but, you are also being talked about and just live with that fact. People always need something to talk about as a past time.
Well so far that's what I learned working and everyday I pick up nuggets of wisdom and lessons from people who have stayed longer than me. So far, I'm still enjoying the perks of my work but I do admit there are times that I feel I should move up and explore more since I still have the time in the world to veture into something that would really make me stay longer. I do hope that in the future I find that job that would make me stay longer, more than 10 years i suppose. Or I hope that job finds me soon. But for now, I'll stay here and in the days that i feel frustrated and tired, then I shall look for that job.
*Happy Anniv to me!! YEHEY!! * ^_^
Spent last Sunday with the two best men in my life...
My Dada
and of course
My Aishi Bear!!
i spent the whole weekend at my mother-in-law's place and had the chance to spend some time with my new family. i was also able to spend more time with the new addition to the family. (of course, kyle would be the newest come july) a little baby girl named tanya sophia, nicknamed pia by aishi's grandma. but we all call her "shobe" chinese for little sister. kyle would be called "shoti" chinese for little brother.
my mother in law was gracious enough to give me a liitle responsibility to take care of this yummy smelling bundle of joy to our family. if she's busy taking care of shobe's older sister maan, i look after her making sure when she pees, her diaper gets changed asap. i just love watching her sleep or if she's awake stare at her and talk to her. it's never too early to talk to a newborn baby. it helps establish a bond between the two of you even though this baby did not come from me. i believe there would be a certain level of comfort for the baby once he/she gets to hear your voice at an early age. that's what i plan to do with kyle. actually i've been doing it ever since. i just ask aishi to particiapte more since kyle hears my voice everyday 24/7. it would be better for him to recognize our voice before he comes out.
i just could not understand some people who could not stand seeing babies. i think that babies are the most adorable creatures in the world before they mature into full grown human beings. at such a young age, they already know how to get your affection and manipulate you in their own sweet little way. i just love their powerdery cologne-y scent even if they've just peed or pooped. especially babies who are not yet fed solid food. their poo smells like milk. hehehe
i really just can't wait for my baby kyle to come into this world. 1 more month of waiting.. it's true what they say in the books, during the last trimester of a woman, the more she gets impatient with the arrival of the baby into the family. well in my case it's not only me that's impatient. it's my whole family!! from my dad to my deadpan youngest brother...
i'm officially 33 weeks pregnant, translation: almost 8 months on the way. by the 37th week onwards, well, i could deliver this child anyday, any minute. that makes it 4 more weeks... and i'm getting impatient. aishi's getting impatient. my parents are super excited.
i've been having really vivid dreams about kyle. how he looks like. i dreamt about him with a very round face, rosy chubby cheeks, pointy nose, and cherry red lips. in short, i dreamt him to look like a really cutie pie baby boy.
i'm still working right now. actually i can still manage the workload, it's just that i avoid the client calls and client visits. i just do my work and follow ups through the phone. i'm actually hoping to continue to work until i can't anymore. but then i wouldn't want to be caught in labor here in the office. dyahe naman sa mga officemates di ba? we were actually talking about that over lunch with my good friends, what if nag labor ako dito sa office sino ang bubuhat sa akin? sino ang magdadala sa akin sa hospital? off the bat, naisip ko agad na si jay ang bubuhat sa akin since he's one hell of a big guy and for sure kakayanin naman nya ang weight ko di ba? or the next alternative naman would either be albert or lazslo. hehe and the designated person to drive me daw to the hospital eh ang dakila naming boss (COO) na si kevin. hahaha since practical naman if you think about it kasi his car is the one that is parked nearest sa office. actually, sa basement ng aming building. so si kevin talaga ang best option namin in case that happens.
but then, i would still prefer na sa house ako abutin ng labor pains and this would happen at night. tipong habang masaya kaming nanonood ng telenovela sa channel 2. hahaha i could just imagine my mom, na super natataranta kasabay ni aishi. tapos kaming dalawa ng dada ko eh cool lang. haha ang weird siguro tignan nun. i just wish na si aishi ang mag drive ng car at nde si dada kasi super bagal nito mag drive at baka sa car pa ako managanak ng di oras kahit na ang lourdes eh more or less mga 20-30 mins away lang sa bahay namin.
ngayon ko lang naisip na i have to prepare my bag for the hospital na and i hope i won't forget to include kyle's things din. baka umuwi ng hubad ang anak ko habang ang nanay eh maayos na nakabihis pauwi. hehe ang sama namang thought yun.
credit given to Kanto girl and her blog. just reposting a really nice story. visit her blog na rin http://clickmomukhamo.com/kantogirlblues/
WHEN LOVE MET MADNESS
(forwarded email)
This ain’t Neil Gaiman, but it made me chuckle.
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A long time ago, before the world was created and
humans set foot on it for the first time, virtues
and vices wandered bored, not knowing what to do.
One day, they were all gathered and bored more than
ever when Ingenious had an idea: Why don’t we play
hide and seek? And all of them liked the idea, and
immediately the mad Madness shouted: I want to
count, I want to count and since no one else was
crazy to seek for Madness, Madness leaned on a tree
and started to count, 1, 2, 3. And as Madness
counted, the vices and virtues went hiding.
Tenderness hung on the horn of the moon; Treason in
a pile of garbage; Fondness curled up between the
clouds; Lie said he would hide under a stone but he
lied and hid at the bottom of the lake; Passion went
to the center of the earth; Avarice entered a sack
that he ended up breaking….
And Madness continued to count, 79,80, 81,82. All
the vices and virtues were already hidden by then,
except for Love, whom as undecided as he is, did not
know where to hide. And this should not surprise us
because we all know how difficult it is to hide
Love.
And Madness was already at 95, 96,97.and just at the
moment when she arrived at hundred, Love jumped into
a rosebush and there he hid out. And Madness shouted
“I’m coming! I’m coming!” and as she turned, the
first one she saw was Laziness, thrown to her feet
because he didn’t have any energy to hide.
Then she saw Tenderness in the horn of the Moon, and
Lie at the bottom of the lake, and Passion in the
center of the earth… Discovering them one by one,
finding all of them but one. Madness was getting
desperate, unable to find the last missing one,
until Envy, envious for having been discovered,
whispered to Madness: “You are lacking Love, and he
is hiding in the rosebush.”
And Madness took a wooden pitchfork, and stabbed at
the rosebush, and stabbed and stabbed, till a heartbreaking
shout made her stop.
And, after the shout, Love came out covering his
face with his hands, and from between his fingers
run two threads of blood, out of his eyes.
Madness anxious to find Love had took out Love’s
eyes with the pitchfork. What have I done?, what
have I done? - she shouted. I have left you blind!
How can I repair it? And Love answered, you can’t
restore my eyes. But if you want to do something
for me, you could be my guide.
From that day on, Love is blind and is always
accompanied by Madness.
*** so true...
you left one humid night
your sweat left traces of you
in the pillow that we shared
that sent shivers down my spine
it felt like a thousand caresses
your fingertips tracing every part
you know where i am
what sparks me
you wrap me in intoxication
i could feel your breath
the sound of your sleep
a tender whisper in my ears
it seems you never left at all
you still linger
in every corner of our world
but then
i know
you'll be back
yagiedoodles
6/14/05
yehey office
thinking about my aishi while he's a million miles away down south...
yes!! my muse is still with me. i just have to wake her up to spark some inspiration in my poetic soul.
i had the weirdest experience last night.
i was able to sleep around 10pm last night. but then aish called me up around 11:30 i think because he forgot to get his credit card form me. so i waited for him to get to my house so that i could give his card already and return to sleep.. i can't even remember what i said, or if i said anything when i gave aish his card.
anyway, on with the story...
i finally made it to my bed to finally catch some sleep. around 10-15 mins into my sleep, i felt that it seems there was someone or something poking my bed. poking not the sides of my bed but it felt like it was poking my bed as if it's floating above me. i just ignored it and just slept. i don't want to scare myself that time coz i really need to sleep.
another experience...
i woke up around 3am, which had been routine for me the past 4 days already. i would either wake up 5 mins before 3 or 10 mins after 3. but anyway, i checked my phone's clock and sure enough it was 3:10 am. so i returned to my usual sleeping position where i wrap myself in my blanket form head to toe and facing my wall. (don't worry, i can breathe properly) as i was about to drift off to sleep i heard my floorboards creaking, as if there was someone walking inside my room. my floorboards are really noisy whenever someone enters my room. i could sometimes even hear it when i'm downstairs. but the sound was very quiet like that "person" was tiptoeing around my room. but the sound was really distinct. but still, i just ignored it and continued to sleep.
i don't really know if i had a ghostly experience. but i think i shold stop reading ghost stories for now. it's getting in my head already....
* aishi and i loooove this song so much*
THE DAY YOU SAID GOONIGHT by HALE.
Take me as you are
Push me off the road
the sadness,
i need this time to be with you
im freezing in the sun
im burnig in the rain
the silence;
im screaming, calling out your name
and i do reside in your light
put out the fire with me and find
yeah you'll lose the side of the circles
that's what i'll do if we say goodbye
CHORUS:
To be is all i gotta be
and all that i see
and all that i need is time
to me the life you gave me
the day you said goodnight
The calmness in your face
that i see through the night
the warmth of your life is pressing unto us
you didn't ask me why
i never would have known oblivion is falling down
and i do reside in your light
put out the fire with me and find
yeah you'll lose the side of the circles
that's what i'll do the day you said goodnight
(REPEAT CHORUS)
if you could only know me like your prayers at night
Then everything between me and you will be alright
(REPEAT CHORUS)
she's already taken
she's already taken
she's already taken me
she's already taken
she's already taken
she's already taken me
the day you said goodnight.
i was supposed to go to that free ultrasound thing in asian hospital in filinvest... but lo and behold!! it didn't push through. :( aishi and i were super excited and all. actually it was my mom who suggested it but forgot to inform us that this thing is only a "sampling". meaning this free ultrasound won't last forever. and sounds too good to be true. i mean, who would give free 4d ultrasounds in a posh hospital right?
so anyway, aishi and i just asked to be listed so that we would be informed ASAP if ever this sampling would resume. this free ultrasound would be a really big help in managing our expenses since kyle's birth is only 2 months away!!!
so for now we'll just wait and see..
Going to the hospital tomorrow to have that posh 4D ultrasound everybody's raving about... and i'm gonna get for free!!! My mom tipped me that Asian Hospital is giving free 4D ultrasounds until friday. So i'm gonna grab that opportunity and see how and what my baby looks like!!
Here's kyle's first picture by the way... 
The next time, you'll see my baby boy in a much better view. :)
and of course, getting that ultrasound would really confirm that i'm gonna have a baby boy!!
it's been almost 2 weeks since i had this effing colds and cough.. i'm not allowed to drink any medicines since i'm pregnant and all. so i'm stuck in drinking water and good 'ol juice.
and wouldn't it be a better timing for my colds when it starts to rain. yup, summer's officialy over and the rainy season's here. no more sticky sleepless nights with me and aishi fighting over the electric fan or worse, the whole family sleeping over my parents bedroom. (hey, they've got the air conditioning man!)
yup, i'm sick, with a stuffy nose, blah sense of smell and taste, coughing like a dog and the weather's not cooperating. oh and add this as a bonus, i'm 7 months pregnant and in a really delicate situation since these months until the 9th, i could give birth.... but still i'm praying that my baby would be born to full term.
yeah... when it really rains... it really pours... isn't life grand??
pffft...
Finally i was able to get a good night's sleep. My aishi is home safe and sound, fresh from CEBU.
I finally had him all to myself again. i got to sleep beside him again and smell him. Snuggle and giggle ourselves silly. and kyle being happy in my tummy cos he can hear his dada again!!
Happy happy joy joy!!!
Can't wait to go home and snuggle with my aishi again until we fall asleep...
Yey!! it's time to celebrate! after missing my aishi for almost 3 days, i'm finally going to see him, smell him, go gaga over him...
i know it's not a big deal to other people that you don't get to see your significant other for just three days, but for me, it feels like he was gone for a year. what other people would feel when they miss someone so special in their lives be it 5 years, a decade or even a whole lifetime is just the same as mine even if its just 3 days...
indeed, i'm a sucker for missing people too much and you should be one lucky person if you get to experience how much i miss the person. and it's indescribable... you'll just feel it...
when we were little, we always wanted things for ourselves. we wanted things that would benefit us, things that would make us happy, things that would enrich our lives. i was one of those. i confess that i have been a bit selfish in my own ways to get what i want. i confess that i have used a few tricks and tactics to let things and situations be in my favor.
i thought the things that i wanted would still remain the same until i grow old. but now, things and situations have changed and the things that i wanted for myself have been shadowed by something more powerful than i ever thought i could want more in my life... and never thought i would covet...
i have been blessed with a child of my own growing inside me as i type this. in 2 month's time, he will be part of the world i came to know. he would form his own ideas, needs, wants, desires. he too would want things for his own. i would not stop him from doing that. i know he has to go through that. but then, things are different from my perspective as well as his dad's.
the things that we wanted for ourselves are now the things that we want for him. the material things that we wished we had when we were little,are now the things we want him to enjoy. when i get to see him enjoy and appreciate the things that we gave, it seems as if we were able to enjoy the things we wanted before.
my mindset has changed. in the span of almost 7 months. things have changed. i have changed. my husband has changed. people around me has changed. whether for the better or worse... i have changed physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually. i've grown to become a more mature person. i've grown to appreciate the things my parents handle life. i'm actually on the other side of the cliff now. i'm seeing the perspective my parents have been seeing ever since i came into this world. this is only the beginning but i already understand what it feels like to be a parent and care for the one thing that really matters to you.
i just hope that in the future, my son and future children if God will permit me to have would be able to see the things i see now and i hope that we would meet on the other side and appreciate each other...
another post from the other blog. this entry was created by my good friend CJ. and all the credit goes to him, just sharing this good entry to anyone who wants to read it. ^_^
JEEPNEY TOP 10s
TOP TEN AMAZING HUMAN FEATS INSIDE A JEEPNEY
· Sabit
o Whether at the back on the top or from the side, basta makasakay, yan ang pinoy.
· Hair drying
o Early morning ritual of thousands of beautiful Filipina women. Go get into the jeep, wet hair and all and let the wonderfully clean metropolitan air dry your hair into a pretty fluff.
· Handlebar naps
o Hold the rail, lean your head on it and snooze away. Advanced sleepers can do it sitting completely still with mouth open without holding the handlebar. Incredible, given how a Jeenpey ride goes.
· Street etiquette
o Jeepney drivers are always polite and courteous to their kind, even in the middle of the road. They'd stop smack center of the road and make pabarya to a fellow driver in need in the middle of rush hour. Bait nila no?
· Shoe shiners
o These kids get in to the jeep and start shining shoes for a few coins. Kahit naka tsinelas, pupunasan.
· Now you see it. Now you don't
o Whether it be a necklace, a wallet or a cap, jeepney rides are riddled with enterprising youths always willing to ease the burden of unsuspecting passengers who don’t know how to hide their valuables.
· Count and drive.
o The ultimate sign of Filipino hand eye coordination. Drive with one hand and one eye, get the fare and give proper change with the other. It’s like driving and using a calculator at the same time. The really good drivers can do it with a lighted cigarette hanging from their lips.
· Carinosong ‘bayad po’
o Filipinos being friendly and warm tend to extend their affection even with simple mattes like passing on the fare. It’s that extra care when a girl passes on money a male passenger who warmly welcomes it with an extended touch. Men who practice these acts of kindness read too much Tik Tik, Remate and Maximo.
· Compact driving position
o Spare tire to the left, steering wheel that hits your knees and chest and pedals that are two feet from your waist. No wonder they have such bad driving. And some people even need extra back support. So stop complaining about your compact cars.
· Magic vision
o “Isa pa sa kanan. Isa pa sa kaliwa.” Jeepney drivers and barkers have a third eye. They can see space even if all of the passenger can’t. And the driver won’t get going until passengers acknowledge that there is space for one more.
TOP TEN JEEPNEY ACCESSORIES
Kabayo hood ornament
Comes in packs of three, or five. Each with its own spring suspension. Plastic ribbons sold separately.
Gantsilyo
Neon green red or hot pink basta “God bless this trip.” Ang nakasulat.
Family tree
Wives, sons, daughters, cousins nephews, uncles fathers mothers. With all the classic Filipino names.
Good morning towel
how would they smell without them
Jeepney barker
they are very good at repeating the words written on the side of the jeepnies
Speedometer / fuel gauge
Never really works, but gives the driver the illusion that he is driving something that has an engine.
Para bell
Consider it a privilege to ride with those jeepnies that have that string and bell that you just have to pullinstead of sreaming "para ho"
Super bumper
The reason why kahit anong banga mo sa jeepney, parang ikaw pa rin ang mas nasiraan.
Radio
with sounds so loud, the driver can’t hear you say para, but can hear you say bayad po.
Basta driver. Sweet lover sticker
With matching sexy babe, right under the God bless our trip gantsilyo
TOP TEN WORST THINGS THAT CAN HAPPEN IN A JEEPNEY
-Sitting on gum
-Spittle from passing busses.
-Wet hair flicking on your face. parang gusto mong magbaon ng hair dryer
sumabit ang di dapat sumabit. Belt buckles, wallet chains, backpack straps...
-Maniyak elbow in your ribs technique. The male deftly rubs his elbow against the woments rib cage. i really don't get why some men do this. siguro di sila tinatabihan ng babae anyhere else.
-Conversing with the driver kung babae, “hi miss” yung abot. Kung lalaki, he’ll amaze you wit his depth of knowledge about Filipino politics.
-masandalan ng tao.
-Swerte sana kung mganda o guwapo, pero never pa nangyari sakin yun.
-Walang barya Just show your 500 peso bill and they actually might have pity on you and let you go for free.
-Mauntog ang ulo pag labas
-Yung mahilig mag grand entrance sa binabababaan,
-Seeing your ex in the car behind the jeepney. And you're riding nearst to the door. and mayaman yung date niya. and...okay this is getting too personal.
** thanks ceej for the top 10's!!-- well written dude!
