so so day...

*what a week and it's just Tuesday! *
after finishing all my work today much earlier than i expected, i decided to blog hop. hoping to find inspiration to get on with my own blog entry for the day. but then i was too lazy. but then i thought for a while that i had to... kasi wala lang haha

2nd day of the week and i am not having the time of my life. monday was not a good start but i'd rather keep it to myself than to talk about it here. it's too personal to share it here. i'm not 100% into my work today, and i think for the week. monday was a bad start and for sure the rest of the week would too..

tomorrow's wednesday, i'm running out of excuses and reasons to avoid coming to work late. but i have to do this because i have to take kyle to the doctor and have him checked by his pedia for his cough and colds. i guess this time, i'm coming to work late. it's really hard to juggle work and a sick child and in the process you risk of jeopardizing one. and for sume i am not going to risk my son's health. he's my priority now and everything would have to take a backseat. when you lose a job or anything material, that can be replaced in time or immediately. but losing a child, that would be irreplaceable even if you have the gift to bear children over and over again. i can't even find the words on how to describe it. the closest i could think of is like having this really priceless antique that is really so rare that no replica can be made in any attempt whatsoever. actually my son is more precious than anything else material or immaterial in this world. losing would be like losing 99% of my life..

*3 sticks of cigarettes and a lousy weather*
went down fo a bit of a smoke with a friend and we got to talk, not excatly some issues but if ever it gets to reach some people, it could turn out to be one. which we both hope would not since it could create some gaps or distance between people concerned. i guess the best thing we could do is to just get on with our lives and continue with what we are doing and just hope for the best that things would turn out ok. it's hard to jump into conclusions with issues such as these that are still to vague to even understand. basically it all boils down to one thing that's really important in any relationship: communication. nothing else and nothing but.