Selos mode

the title speaks for itself, yup, i was consumed by the monster called jealousy. can't blame me though, it's second nature for me. i easily get jealous. but of course this does not concern everybody. the concerned casualties of my jealousy are or were my significant others or loved ones (the past, the present and of course the future to be exact).

jealous you say? i bet you're thinking right now, "why, what happened?" well, it may sound petty to some but for me, well, it's a big deal....

anyway, aishi and i were preparing to go to bed since we have to be up really early in the morning. me, being thursday the next day, i have to be in the office before 8. aishi had to be in the office really early to finish some paperwork. we were cuddling and joking and saying goodnight to kyle in my tummy when out of nowhere, his phone beeped a message. who would text him that late considering it's almost 2 in the morning...

actually i'm not the one to be the first one to grab and check his phone but on that night i didn't know what came over me and i checked the message the same time he did. lo and behold!! what did i see?? the message came from a certain girl named IRIS and the message read: "i'm home na. nyt. (insert smiley face)"

now don't tell me there shouldn't be anything to worry about, but, why would she text him that late when she wasn't with him the night? now tell me, wouldn't it rouse or tickle your suspicion or curiosity why this girl would do such a thing at an ungodly hour? i would understand if they were like out on a gimik-- actually no, i woulnd't understand either... she's his officemate, co-employee, they're not even close and why would this girl do such a thing? i mean, i would understand if she was like part of our barkada and we're all tight. we do text each other that we're all home. but this is different.

partly i'm jealous, partly i'm pissed off at this girl. isn't she aware that aishi is married already and has a family? what she did was really way off...

i truly believe aishi when he said he was the only one in the office last night doing some paperwork and his only company were the night guards in the office. now how come this girl would just text him like that? right? can't blame aishi though for being friendly but some girls really misinterpret his friendly demeanor. they think he's making a pass at them, which i assure them he's NOT.

i don't want to sound like i'm justifying myself here because i'm the wife but, that incident really ticked me off...


whew... oh well. at least i got it all out. come to think of it, it's not really jealousy, it's more of being pissed at one girl's behavior. *big grin*

My blog's new look

check it out!! can't believe that i was able to revamp by blog and make it look this good. hahaha

all it takes is a little perseverance and a lot of common sense... with some help from my fellow blogger, Zeus super thank you for helping me sort it out.

i just love the background of my blog!!!

next on the agenda, tag boards and some pictures...

*yey*

Jitters...

Delivery Jitters

as much as i want to condition myself that all will be well when i deliver this happy bundle of joy incubating inside my belly, i'm still fearful of the "what ifs". i've only got three months to go before kyle leaves my tummy and he would leave an empty void literally inside me. i've read in some books that the bond that the mother and the baby shares while he/she is inside the womb is a whole lot different with the bond when you're face to face with your own flesh and blood. there's this big difference that you're protecting someone so precious inside you, but once he/she is out into the world, the control diminishes or changes for that matter. you have to compete already with the environment that surrounds the both of you. honestly, i'm scared to let go of the feeling that there's a growing baby in my tummy. but of course, a baby can't grow inside forever...

on with the delivery jitters since i got sidetracked with the mommy emotion. yup. i'm scared, shitting out of my pants on how my delivery will go. i'm totally praying for a normal delivery. i would rather go through the agonizing pain down there and screaming my lungs out than having someone cut me up like lechon prepared for the feast. (yeah, i know, morbid). i would rather experience tha pain of feeling like something is being ripped apart, well that's true actually. but i would rather go through that pain since the healing process would ba normal compared with being cut up and having a permanent scar just above your pubes. i'm honestly scared of sharp objects...

another worry would be what happens after the delivery? here comes the never ending questions... will i carry kyle the proper way once the doctor hands him to me? will he latch on for his first feeding? will i get to see him open his eyes? will aish be there to see him for the first time as well? will my parents and in laws fight over who gets to see the baby first? what will my brothers feel when they see kyle? so many questions... not that many answers.

Kyle's baptism

it's never too early to start planning kyle's baptism. i want him baptized after a month after his birth. i still haven't started on planning this event. but for sure, we got the church already, we're going to have him baptised in Mary the Queen, the church just beside aishi's school. i just have to ask my friend Karlo how much he paid the church to have his son baptized. but my biggest worry is the after party. for sure we're going to hold it in aishi's house coz it can hold a lot of people. my only worry is how many people are we supposed to invite? and of course, the food.

Our 2006 Wedding Plans

i just don't know where to start... hahahahaha

it feels like all the money's going out and nothing is coming in!!! when will we have enough money to save up for our future and our sons' future? i'm not yet in my 30's or 40's and i'm stressed out like this!! i just want to scream at the top of my lungs!!

is this how a quarter-life crisis feels like?

Help! I want to revamp my blog!

is there anyone out there who can help me make my blog look good? i only know the basics in HTML, but this is really way out of my league and honestly i just don't know where to start.

* i want to change my blog's font colors but it seems, the option for that had been deleted from blogger. (ehem ehem to the blogger people out there)

* is there any easy way to post pictures? i've got so many photo album accounts that i find very tiring to create another one just to upload the same pictures...

*big sigh*

anybody out there... help?

Kylekyle kulit!

my baby boy is 25 weeks in my tummy today and he's one active kid! he tumbles and turns, kicks and punches. the only time that he's awfully quiet is when he's done feeding, if we're off to bed or if he hears his dada's voice checking up on him.

this baby is one tough cookie. when he kicks, he KICKS! i've got a little Bruce Lee growing inside me. haha.

but what i find funny and ticklish at the same time is when he changes his position. i would really feel how big he is already and where he's going to shift his position. one time he's going to stay on my left side, the next on my right, the next right smack in the middle of my belly. his movements feel like a little rollercoaster inside my belly.

the first time my dad saw kyle's movements inside my tummy he got freaked out. i mean i can't blame him. it's not everyday that you see someone's tummy rumble, make waves or bulge just like that. and his funny remark was "naku, baka alien na ang nasa loob nyan" of course, referring to the Aliens movie.. hahaha dada. =D

i'm super excited to be on my 7th month because that's the time aishi and i will go for another ultrasound to go check up on kyle and see who he looks like and if he's a healthy baby boy (and if the first ultrasound WAS right that he IS a BOY). we're also excited to start buying kyle's things after the ultrasound. aishi is in charge of buying the crib and stroller and it's up to me and mama to buy his clothes and diapers and other things (pillows, bib, bedsheets, pillow cases etc). we're also hoping that some of kyle's things would be given to him as presents if ever my friends would plan to push through with the baby shower. that would truly be a great help to us.

i'm just sooo overflowing with excitement in seeing my baby in 3 month's time. on april 22, i'm officialy 6 months to term and this would be the last month of enjoying my pregnant life. the last trimester is really crucial and i have to take extra care from then on. that's where premature labor can come in and i want to give birth to full term. and enjoy the 2 months leave that i get paid for. hahaha

on a bored wednesday...

i don't know what's wrong. is it the office environment or is it just me? this is one boring wednesday and it's not even lunch time. i guess this is one of those days where i can really feel being burned out from work...

why then do i feel burned out?
this is one of those days where i realize that my work is going nowhere and turning into a routine. this is a real pet peeve for me when it comes to work.. i want a work that would really keep me on my toes and really drain out all the juices of my brain. it's really hard when you have already saturated the industry and there's no movement with your contacts. as much as you try to convince them, you don't have any control on where things would go. there will be moments where everything is going well and running smooth and in a snap, a client backs out...just.like.that. and it's frustrating. plus the burden of your boss' expection. you can't help but feel pressured and sorry for yourself. you end up blaming yourself. the what ifs, the why didn't i, the i should've... but this is really beyond your control. and they cycle just goes on and on...

Which Little Prince Character Are you?

You are the little prince.

Saint Exupery's 'The Little Prince' Quiz.
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Milk Overdose

yesterday was one of the scariest days of my life... i really dread going to hospitals other than check ups. this was different.

i slept early monday night after eating Chowking's Halo-Halo and drinking my milk. woke up around 3am with severe tummy ache. tried to sleep it off thinking it was just gas. but then the pain didn't go away so i went to the bathroom to poo. and then everything went downhill from there. after that poo incident, the tummy aches didn't go away, plus it was coupled with the trips to the bathroom to poo. aishi was very worried already since i was going in and out of the bathroom more than 4 times already. sothe best thing to do was to wake up my mom already.

so we woke up my mom complained of this tummy ache and the next thing i know, we were going to the hospital already. i wasn't aware that experiencing lbm while pregnant would be really dangerous for the baby. i wan't allowed to push the poo out because it might induce labor.

so we stayed in the hospital for about an hour or so (i wasn't actually counting the hours, i just really wanted to go home and sleep everything off) we were allowed to go home already. good thing by mid afternoon, i was feeling ok.

one lesson learned: never drink too much milk... what could be healthy could be lethal to you tummy as well. hehe

*giggle*

HAPPY EASTER!!

happy easter to whoever reads my blog! hehe

hope you guys had an EGG-citing easter (boy, that was really cheesy...)

a lazy wednesday

i was supposed to go to work today being the last working day before the observance of the holy week. but then, surprise! surprise! i didn't. actually i planned not to go to work since it would be a really unproductive day and money would just be wasted.. but i didn't expect it to come true.

i woke up around 4am i think with my left leg cramping up and i have to wake up aishi to help me ease the pain. after 5mins of massages from aishi, i felt better and went back to sleep. but woke up again and this time my right leg was cramping up. this is too much for me. and there i decided not to go to work...

and i just slept the whole day away...
chillaxing day

my baby kyle's first picture

check out http://yagie.multiply.com to check out my baby kyle's first picture.
just tamad to post his pics here... *giggle*

just let me rant

minsan talaga mahirap kaagaw sa oras ang barkada, lalo na pag matagal na ang pinagsamahan. minsan din, mahirap timbangin ang sarili mo sa kabarkada ng kabiyak mo. may mga ibang pagkakataon na ang kaagaw mo ay yung hindi pa barkada. pawang kailala o kalaro lang dyan sa may kanto nila.

oo alam ko, hindi dahilan ang pagbubuntis ko sa paghingi ko ng atensyon. lumaki na ako ng ganito, pero minsan, mahahalata mo naman at nanaisin na makuha ang oras niya. na kayong dalawa lang. walang gulo. walang sagabal.sa totoo lang, may mga oras at mga pagkakataon na mas napapahalagahan ang barkada at mga bisyo kaysa sa sitwasyon na kinalalagyan namin. hindi pa kami kasal alam ko ganito na, pero minsan ang hirap pa rin tanggapin na sa isang sutsot lang ng barkada na gumimik, game na agad. may pera man o wala. tapos sa huli sino ang makikinig ng mga hinaing at reklamo pagkatapos ng gimik? alam ko mali pero mahirap nang iwasan ang selos kung naka harap ka na sa ganun na sitwasyon...

nakausap ko ang bestfriend ko, pinaalam ko sa kanya ang nararamdaman ko. sabi ko sa kanya, minsan lang naman ako humingi ng konting pansin at atensyon na gaya ng nakukuha ng barkada nya. kahit na araw araw na kami magkasama sa iisang bahay. iba pa rin yung masasabi mo na kasama mo nga talaga siya. tama nga ang hinala ko na nung kinausap ko siya nung gabing iyon eh yun nga ang sinabi.. mag kasama naman tayo araw-araw ah... ganun ba talaga sa iba? makasama mo na ng araw-araw ok na?

nasan na ang mga panahon na kahit na kasama mo na siya eh, hinahanap-hanap mo pa rin siya? nasan na ang mga pagkakataon na mawala lang siya sa paningin mo eh sobra sobra ka nang nagaalala kahit nang alam mong nandun lang siya sa kabilang kwarto?hindi naman kita pinagbabawal sa mga gusto mo pero mas kailangan kita ngayon. mas gusto ko na lagi kitang kasama. sabihin na ng iba na mali na ang ginagawa ko, na paghihigpit na ito pero, para sa akin, ito lang ang kailangan ko ngayon para masabi na kumpleto ang araw at gabi ko. awayin mo man ako mamya at magkasagutan tayo. kahit paano, masaya na rin ako dahil kasama kita at alam ko pag ikaw ay inabot ko, mahahawakan kita at makakatabi sa pagtulog ko...

Very Very Great News!!!

Just came back from the hospital to have an ultrasound. i needed the ultrasound for my sss reimbursement. i wasn't prepared for what happened next...

as of today, march 9, 2005, my hubby and i saw for the first time our baby in real ultrasound time (hehe) *blush* and the best part was... we are going to have a baby BOY!!! truly a dream and wish come true for me and aishi.

the first grandchild for my parents. first great grandchild for my lola honey. first boy grandchild in pitoy's side of the family after 2 girls.

whoopee!!! i feel truly and really happy.
GOD really listens to wishes... We're going to name our baby boy: KYLE ANTHONY Y. HUNG got a nice ring to it huh?

*happy big smile*

I just want to complain today...

i just had the worst week ever... considering it's just thursday. i feel so neglected by aishi this week. i only get to see him when i leave in the morning for work and he's fast asleep... let me rewind to the week that was...

Monday: basketball with the URC boys after work. went home past 12 am. and i'm fast asleep already and in dreamland.
Tuesday: meeting aka inuman sessions with the promoted URC top account boys in marikina. went home past 12, or was it 1 am? as usual... i'm in dreamland already...
Wednesday: had more or less 2 hours "quality time" together because he had to accompany me for an ultrasound. but that was in the afternoon. basketball game again with the URC boys. met up with ceejay to meet his new "girl". went home around 1am. again, i'm already in REM...
Thursday: i bet the same thing would happen again. and on Firday and Saturday.

and i'm damn sure this involves alcohol consumption... *sigh*

now, who wouldn't complain of not seeing your husband for almost a week? i think it is justifiable to feel bad and neglected afeter all these? i wanted more quality time than sleeping beside each other every night. it's a given fact, we're married, we're supposed to sleep beside each other. i just want to spend more time with him after work and i see him at home. he even told me not to wait up for him since he is arriving home late. i tried to wait for him. but with the condition that i am in, i need to sleep early...

i can't connect with my husband anymore... i wanted him to spend more time with me and our baby boy. but it seems he spends more time with his friends and officemates than with us. i may sound selfish, but that's the reality for me right now. that's how i see our situation. the impression that i get from him is that he just uses our house as a place of rest. he goes home late, changes into house clothes, sleep, wake up, take a bath then leave for work again, then go home late. it's turning into a cycle already and i'm getting tired of it.

i want to talk to him but how can i? we don't get to see each other awake. this is definitely one bad week for me really. the only consolation that i have to brighten my week is knowing that i'm going to have a baby boy... but i'm not 100% happy because i don't have a husband present to share the happiness with... i'm even paranoid that he shared his own happiness with those friends and officemates of his... *sad face*

i want my aishi bear back... ='(

Monday Rush Hour and the Art of Patience

This was posted from my old blog dated Sept. 27, 2004. Funny how the MRT can be a source of blog thoughts... hehehe

i wake up at 6:00 am my usual time on a monday. i've been accustomed to wake up at this time and leave at around 7:00. with a few 5 mins more before really getting up from bed and taking a bath. i was aware that if i leave at 7, i'll be in the office around 7:30 - i was wrong. i arrived in the offcie at around 8:12. it took me an hour from my house to the office even if i take ride a jeep and the mrt with an estimated travel time of 30 to 45 mins only with traffic. i was really dead wrong.

i arrived in the station under 15 mins of travel time in the jeep. i was thinking i could ride the next train that would arrive. i hadn't reached the entrace of the north bound side of the station when i was surprised with the swarm, literally a swarm of people lining up to purchase their tickets. this is the first time i saw a large crowd snake it's way around the station to buy tickets. it's hard to tell where the line ends. this was much worse than the incubus concert.

by far, this was the worst monday of my life. i could never fathom the crowd that was struggling with me to go to their destinations. the pushing, the shoving, the cursing. i know everbody's rushing to go to work, but we can't do anything about it. there are more people than there are trains here in metro manila. i'm just thankful that i don't ride the lrt. now that's a different story. the "natives" there are much mcuh worse. at least those i ride on the mrt are far more civilized.

this is where i learned patience and strategy. i just have to have the patience to wait for a train that's much more spacious than the first train that passed us by. struggling to get you're whole body inside would be useless since it's already packed. i hoped the next train would be the train that i was looking for. but then, another sardine can on wheels. i prayed to god that the next train would be for me, since almost 3/4 of the people that was with me on the platform had squished themselves in the last 2 trains. i hope this would be my turn.thank god he listens.. i finally rode the train with little effort to squish my tiny frame into the door. there was even more legroom to move. i could even feel the aircon of the train that i'm in.

i was feeling really triumphant for being patient even if it would mean leaving the office much later than ususal. i would rather leave the office much later than force myself to come early looking like i was caught in the middle of a riot with my hair in tangles, my face all sweaty, my clothes all crumpled. in short, looking like i was done for the day and on my way home. got off the train, and continued with the long walk to my office. thank god that ordeal is over.

because tomorrow is another day...

Proud to be a WOMAN

I am woman.
I am proud of my strengths and weaknesses.
I am tough yet soft
I am emotional. I sometimes think with my heart.
But thst makes me more human.
I am not sorry for the wrong decisions I've made.
These decisions made me.
I have no regrets.
I am strong.
I am my own person.
I am a WOMAN
I am me.

HAPPY WOMEN'S DAY TO ALL KICK ASS WOMEN!!
Celebrate who you are!

Bicol trip!

Posted pics from our bicol trip last Feb. 24-28, 2005
http://yagie.multiply.com/photos/album/12
check it out!

Bicol!!

10 hour drive going there...
7 hours asleep in the car
*teehee*
jaw dropping view of mount mayon...
an hour and a half boat ride to an awesome island...
our very own for the weekend
great food. comfy sleeping arrangements...
one "injured" whale shark... or was it two?? *teary eyed*
12 hour drive back to smoggy real world we call manila...

one happy sunburnt yagie...
*big grin*
am definitely coming back for more of bicol! woohoo!
holy week here i come...

First Blog...

fuck it!! first blog and it got erased... so much for typing a reaaallly long blog and this is what i get. a blank white thingy. and i have to start all over again.

so much for all the effort... next time na lang if i feel like typing again what was supposedly my first blog ever.
ha ha for me

Thoughts while riding the MRT this morning

why is it that some people really stare at other people like they wouldn't be noticed?

why so? you may ask then... well let me explain. take my case for example, i'm 4 months pregnant but it's not that obvious yet so i still enjoy wearing my normal clothes it's just that they're a bit tighter on the waist. i find it really funny that there are some people that i catch looking at my tummy in a funny mocking way. it's like they're saying inside their heads: "lakas naman ng loob ng babaeng to, nde pa nagsuot ng mas maluwag na damit eh may tiyan naman..."
i just find it really funny... i'm sometimes tempted to approach them and tell it straight to their face. "I'm PREGNANT! You dimwit!" wahahahaha

gosh... that was one praning morning.... *hahaha*