I just want to complain today...

i just had the worst week ever... considering it's just thursday. i feel so neglected by aishi this week. i only get to see him when i leave in the morning for work and he's fast asleep... let me rewind to the week that was...

Monday: basketball with the URC boys after work. went home past 12 am. and i'm fast asleep already and in dreamland.
Tuesday: meeting aka inuman sessions with the promoted URC top account boys in marikina. went home past 12, or was it 1 am? as usual... i'm in dreamland already...
Wednesday: had more or less 2 hours "quality time" together because he had to accompany me for an ultrasound. but that was in the afternoon. basketball game again with the URC boys. met up with ceejay to meet his new "girl". went home around 1am. again, i'm already in REM...
Thursday: i bet the same thing would happen again. and on Firday and Saturday.

and i'm damn sure this involves alcohol consumption... *sigh*

now, who wouldn't complain of not seeing your husband for almost a week? i think it is justifiable to feel bad and neglected afeter all these? i wanted more quality time than sleeping beside each other every night. it's a given fact, we're married, we're supposed to sleep beside each other. i just want to spend more time with him after work and i see him at home. he even told me not to wait up for him since he is arriving home late. i tried to wait for him. but with the condition that i am in, i need to sleep early...

i can't connect with my husband anymore... i wanted him to spend more time with me and our baby boy. but it seems he spends more time with his friends and officemates than with us. i may sound selfish, but that's the reality for me right now. that's how i see our situation. the impression that i get from him is that he just uses our house as a place of rest. he goes home late, changes into house clothes, sleep, wake up, take a bath then leave for work again, then go home late. it's turning into a cycle already and i'm getting tired of it.

i want to talk to him but how can i? we don't get to see each other awake. this is definitely one bad week for me really. the only consolation that i have to brighten my week is knowing that i'm going to have a baby boy... but i'm not 100% happy because i don't have a husband present to share the happiness with... i'm even paranoid that he shared his own happiness with those friends and officemates of his... *sad face*

i want my aishi bear back... ='(