changed the look of my blog. got tired of the old template. and i feel so damn proud of myself coz i edited the codes without the help of any techie person.
the power of cut and paste!! teehee!
feel free to comment on the look of my blog.
cheers!
^_^
this is just so weird. i'm back at work and it feels like it's the first day of work. technically it is after being on leave for 2 months. but then it's different since a lot of things have changed since i have been gone. i can't relate to some of the jokes and stories. it's seems i have to befriend the people again to solidify the friendship and closeness that we once had when i was gone.
i find that really hard since i have this notion in my head that even if i hibernate for a long time, when i come back things would be the same the way i left it. but then, reality -wise, it's not. i have to adjust and not expect them to adjust for me. i was the one who "left" them for two months.
but really, i don't know where to start. i feel lost. alone and lonely at the same time. i've been so accustomed to the comforts and company that i had at home that being back here at work was a real shock to me. it felt like being doused with ice cold water. a big slap in the face for that.
right now being my first day at work, i don't know where to start. i'm groping in the dark. i don't know how to start my work. i don't know where to begin again. i don't know how to push through with my accounts. i can't monitor how they are moving since right now, someone's still handling my accounts and i'm not yet updated. i've been bored out of my wits for the last 7 hours. i've checked my email, my friendster, my multiply, surfed all the sites that i know, chatted with some people and i still have 2 hours to go before i leave the office.
part of me also wants to go home now and stay with my baby. part of me is thinking of quitting my job and being a full time mom to kyle. i want to spend each and every moment with him and see him grow up. when the time comes, i can go back to the corporate world. part of me also misses the times where i can go out every night and stay out late. things are different now, i can't stay out late as i used to, i can't go to every gimmicks as i used to. i have a son waiting for me to be home and spend time with. now, i have to choose the gimmicks that i go to. gimmicks will not be the same as it used to. i think, i can only go out if there would be a special occasion to attend.
i'm really stuck in the middle now. is it to go left or right? white or black? up or down?
meet the source of all our happiness.. Kyle Xavier Yago Hung!
fresh from the nursery into my arms. ^_^
a month old sleeping baby piglet ^_^ cuteness!!!
for more pics of kyle, visit http://yagie.multiply.com
three names you go by:
1. Haze
2. Yags
3. Yagie
three screen names you have had:
1. yagie17
2. yagiedoodles
3. nookie_nips
three physical things you like about yourself:
1. pimple free skin
2. Eyes
3. my boobs (advantages of being pregnant)
three physical things you don't like about yourself:
1. feet
2. height
3. my forehead
three parts of your heritage:
1. Filipino
2. Spanish
3. Chinese
three things that scare you:
1. the dark
2. flying cockroaches
3. heights
three of your everyday essentials:
1. Cell phone
2. planner
3. Wallet
three of your favorite musical artists:
1. incubus
2. the beatles
3. goo goo dolls
three of your favorite songs:
1. goodnight girl - wet wet wet
2. foolish heart - steve perry
3. any incubus song
three things you want in a relationship:
1. love
2. communication
3. trust
three physical things about the opposite sex that appeals to you:
1. eyes
2. lips
3. height
three of your favorite hobbies:
1. Reading books
2. Surfing the net
3. Playing bejeweled
three careers you're considering/you've considered:
1. dentist
2. writer
3. events coordinator
three places you want to go on vacation:
1. Palawan / boracay
2. London
3. Paris
three kid's names you like:
1. Kyle Xavier
2. Isha / Aisha
3. Mckenzie
three things you want to do before you die:
1. go around the world
2. go bungee jumping
3. ride a rollercoaster
three ways that you are stereotypically a boy:
1. I cuss like a sailor
2. I love billiards
3. I love to play with boy's toys
three ways that you are stereotypically a girl:
1. I am such a crybaby
2. I don't like yucky things
3. I can be kikay if i want to
three celeb crushes:
1. Michael J Fox
2. Michael J Fox
3. Michael J Fox
What are 5 things you enjoy doing when there's no one around you?
1. Writing
2. Watching TV
3. Reading
4. Sleeping
5. Eating
Name 5 things that lower your stress/blood pressure/anxiety level?
1. Playing with kyle
2. Billiards
3. 1 stick of cigarette
4. Coffee
5. Good books
after recovering from a two month hibernation aka my maternity leave, i'm finally back to join the corporate world and face the work that i left behind which piled up immensely. as if the "work" that i did being mommy to kyle isn't tiring... hehe hey, you don't hear me complaining here.
it just feels weird now. i'm back in my old chair, my old pc, my old office, but everything seems new. it feels like i'm the new employee here. after two months, things have changed here in the office. it's time to adjust and catch up...
but honestly, i would rather talk about kyle and how he's grown to be such an adorable little boy.
but that would be a different entry altogether. :)
starbucks in december....
ever stared at the sky
surrounded by the explosion of the stars
mixed with your sigh
there,
i learned to touch you
i gave up forever to touch you
and so the song goes
that moment,
i learned to love you
i know you'd be mine
the night never wanted it to end
our moment began
and continued with
the flight of a single star
8/12/2004 3:41pm
i just heard iris play on one of my officemate's speakers and i remembered that december at starbucks with my aishi. how did it happen? i was hearing mass earlier and remembered that i left my wallet with aishi. dying to see him, i texted him that i need my wallet since i don't have any money that day. (take note, nde pa kami nun) the wallet thing was just a way to see him since i was with my parents and they could pay for whatever expense...
anyway, he agreed to bring my wallet to glorietta. i told him to meet me at starbucks (nde pa cya jologs nun). i told him to accompany me na rin since i was going to watch the fireworks display around 8pm. we ordered coffee and got to talk. we were talking about the googoo dolls and how much we love the song iris. the movie city of angels which up to now he never got to finish. then the topic shifted to falling stars. i told him i never saw a shooting star this early in the evening. he assured me i'll see one even if we have to stay longer at starbucks.
after all the conversations and the firework display, we wished to hear iris play either in the speakers of starbucks or in the speakers below... and wishing and waiting to see a shooting star. at that time i asked god for a sign that if he played iris and at the same time i see a shooting star, aishi is the one for me (baduy, pero sweet).
god was really good... after talking about it (iris and the shooting star), iris was played although i'm not sure from what speakers. we just stared at each other and laughed about having a "sixth sense". at the same time, we were just looking up and hoping to see a shooting star, well wouldn't you know it?! there was! and iris was playing...
and you know the rest of the story... :)
After sex and the city, the guide and in depth look into the lives of 4 single Manhattan women now comes the secret and not so secret lives of 4 married/ex married women in Wisteria Lane.
I totally got hooked on Desperate Housewives. (mad props to Charm for the DVD copies of the whole series).
Of course i got to know more about each episode by reading the transcripts per episode. But then, watching the episode itself is the best!
If you wanna check out the transcripts, here's the URL: http://desperatehousewives.ahaava.com/episodes.htm
Get tangled in the intrigue and mystery that envelopes these 4 women...
"everybody has s dirty little secret in Wisteria Lane..."
baby kyle
he's all cramped up in my tummy now. although my tummy isn't that low yet as some books would say. well i still have 3 more weeks to go really. it's up to kyle when he wants to come out. it's just that i need him to "inform" me earlier. and i'm hoping he chooses to come out into the world preferrably at night at i'm at home. but then, you can't control the universe and the forces that be...
it's really hard sometimes to move and find a good spot since i'm really uncomfortable with my body now. my joints ache (manas), my back aches if i sit too long watching tv, i have to change positions sitting, lying down or reclining. every movement feels like kyle's there. well, he is. i feel bad for him cos i know he's uncomfortable as much as i am. imaging being in a fetal position 24/7. try stuffing yourself inside a box the whole day... that's how a baby must feel at 8 months going on 9. can't blame him if he's desperate to come out. i would do the same thing.
but of course i'm excited and scared at the same time. excited coz i'm going to have a baby. scared because i'm terrified of needles, and pain in general. nobody said childbirth was easy. nobody said that expelling a 7 pound human being out of something that can stretch up to 10cm only would be a walk in the park? not a pretty picture huh? i'm also worrying about going for a pain less or pain free delivery.
saturday adventure?
aishi and i planned something this saturday. hopefully this time we could actually avail of that 4d ultrasound thing since i was able to get a written request from my OB yesterday during my check up. after that, aishi said we have this thing at carlo's house. i think a little get together with the bros and sis. i haven't seen them for quite a while. they're one of those great people in my life (of course i have my toxic nips) who were there for me and aishi when we need them. truly rare people who touched our lives.
that thursday check up-why i love/hate my OB
went to my OB yesterday for a weekly check up. was there around 730, had dinner already and was just patiently waiting for my turn. i was listed as the 20th patient to be checked. but did i mention that almost all the patients were there except the doctor? our OB was famous for her reasonable check up fee. for new patients, coming for your first consultation, you are required to pay P50 for that first check up. after that, the succeeding check ups would be free already. the next time you have to pay your OB would be when you give birth. with an OB asking for a PF of around P4k, what more could you ask? you struck gold!
ah.. i'd say stop celebrating and cheering. there will always be a dark side of the moon. the downside with having her as my OB... long and i mean long waiting hours for your check up.
it was actually last night when i exerienced waiting really long for her to arrive. usually when we arrive for check ups, i just have to wait 1-11/2 hours. last night was really different and tiring. as i've said we arrived 730. i was checked around 10:30 or almost 11. yup. i waited that long for her... call me the ultimate martyr for my OB. i just realized that after all these months, this only happened now when i;m due in a few weeks' time. we even met up with one soon to be mom who's due on the day itself! we were dreading and praying hard that she won't give birth anytime coz that would mean we have to wait.
the reason why our OB was usually late for check ups is because she still goes around the hospital checking up on her patients, tending those who were rushed about to give birth any minute. that's how demanding ang popular she is. try calling one day before the day you want to be checked and you'll be surprised that you're at the bottom 30 of the list. i even encountered being in the high 60's of the list. that was on a saturday and i was like 2 months pregnant. i think. of course i knew the tactics. schedule my check ups on a weekday and call a week before. for sure i'm gonna be in the high 10's of the list. and always was. haha
but of course, that's the only complaint i have with my OB, other than that, she's really accomodating and would be glad to answer all my questions no matter how tired she looks already. you would have this high respect for her cos you'll know she knows her job by heart. truly a veteran in childbirth. and did i mention she was also my mom's OB when she gave birth to my younger brothers.
dada ko: pat! ang dumi dumi ng sando mo! umakyat ka nga dun at magpalit
pat (my youngest bro): oo
dada ko: teka naligo ka na ba?
pat: hmmm..
dada ko: ano?
pat: kailangan pa ba yun?
uuuhhh... *kamot ulo*
nde ko alam kung matatawa ako o maasar dun sa sinabi nya...
Happy Mondays!!!
36 weeks... gosh... 4 more weeks to go and i'm carrying this baby to term already.
current state: feeling a bit tired. i'm having pains in my back and in the lower part of my legs. kyle's a bit hyper now. my belly ached a while ago but i doubt if i'm in labor. i don't feel any contractions. i just feel like i have an upset stomach. still assessing what's up with my tummy and back right now.
tummy a bit stiff. hardens for like 5-10 seconds then relaxes again. at the same time my back would ache. tried changing positions to somehow ease the pain on my back. the pillow that i have with me does not help at all. it has been 15 minutes already and the pain is still here... still doubting if this is the real thing. it's too early.
thinking of calling my mom to ask. but i have to wait for aishi to call me first so that he would know what i'm feeling right now. don't want to raise panic and worry here among my officemates. i would really prefer if i would go into labor if aishi and i are both at home.
still monitoring my back pains and tummy aches.
think i have to rest for a while...
next update to follow by tom. =D
Yey!! It's my dada's Birthday today! And he's 53! Will post his picture so that you'll see that he does NOT look like a 50+ year old guy...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADA!!
no need to buy you a present, we've only got a month or so left before you get to see your first grandson. that would be the best present for you. i think. hehehe
It was never a big deal for me if I reach the 1 year mark working day in and day out. I never gave so much of a thought that staying in a company for a year would be a big deal. I mean I have experienced staying more than a year in my previous job. I stayed a year and 8 months to be exact before I told myself that enough is enough and I'm am not going anywhere with the job that I have. At the age of 22, I felt i hit the wall face first and I'm going nowhere. I had reached a dead end street. A dead end job. I really could not imagine my self slaving year after year taking in calls from cardholders and giving in to all their whims and outrageous requests just because they are the customer. This is where I realized that the saying, "the customer is always right" does not apply at all. One has to draw the line somewhere. And I did. I said enough is enough and I got sick hearing the same profanity from different people everyday and bearing the faults of the other departments and lying to the customer that everything will be alright, when you know it won't.
Thank God i got out early and found a better job. And today I mark my first year working in this company. I enjoyed the job with a few hiccups on the way. Which was partly my fault since I admit to being a procrastinator when I really feel like not working. But once I start, I try to finish the job before i leave for home. One way or the other, I'm glad I get to use the things I learned in College. I'm glad i got to meet new people and establish strong friendships with a few chosen ones. I'm glad i get to manage to live still within my means.
Things that I learned the whole three years that I have been working:
* Admit if it is really your fault. Honesty doesn't hurt at all, it actually earns you respect.
* The boss is not always right. Argue with the boss if you have to, but in a calm tone. He is still the one responsible for your salary.
* There will always be an officemate who wants to compete with you or treats you as a threat. Don't get affected. Take it as a challenge to excel more.
* Always be on your toes when it comes to personal or even work issues. You don't know who your enemy is. being to open can hurt you.
* Never Ever bring your personal issues to work. You'll never get anything done and everything gets affected.
* What happens in the office, stays in the office. And that thing is called WORK. Once you get home, think of your family, yourself. Establish "ME" time at home. It's more relaxing.
* Treat your contacts and clients as friends, you'll never know they might hold the right key to the right door to your future.
* You can't avoid "petiks", just make sure your officemates see you working from time to time. Keep yourself busy sometimes.
* There will always be office gossip. It's ok to talk about it but fabricating or inventing stories about someone which is really not true is below the belt.
* Still on the office gossip note, not being paranoid here or anything but, you are also being talked about and just live with that fact. People always need something to talk about as a past time.
Well so far that's what I learned working and everyday I pick up nuggets of wisdom and lessons from people who have stayed longer than me. So far, I'm still enjoying the perks of my work but I do admit there are times that I feel I should move up and explore more since I still have the time in the world to veture into something that would really make me stay longer. I do hope that in the future I find that job that would make me stay longer, more than 10 years i suppose. Or I hope that job finds me soon. But for now, I'll stay here and in the days that i feel frustrated and tired, then I shall look for that job.
*Happy Anniv to me!! YEHEY!! * ^_^
Spent last Sunday with the two best men in my life...
My Dada
and of course
My Aishi Bear!!
i spent the whole weekend at my mother-in-law's place and had the chance to spend some time with my new family. i was also able to spend more time with the new addition to the family. (of course, kyle would be the newest come july) a little baby girl named tanya sophia, nicknamed pia by aishi's grandma. but we all call her "shobe" chinese for little sister. kyle would be called "shoti" chinese for little brother.
my mother in law was gracious enough to give me a liitle responsibility to take care of this yummy smelling bundle of joy to our family. if she's busy taking care of shobe's older sister maan, i look after her making sure when she pees, her diaper gets changed asap. i just love watching her sleep or if she's awake stare at her and talk to her. it's never too early to talk to a newborn baby. it helps establish a bond between the two of you even though this baby did not come from me. i believe there would be a certain level of comfort for the baby once he/she gets to hear your voice at an early age. that's what i plan to do with kyle. actually i've been doing it ever since. i just ask aishi to particiapte more since kyle hears my voice everyday 24/7. it would be better for him to recognize our voice before he comes out.
i just could not understand some people who could not stand seeing babies. i think that babies are the most adorable creatures in the world before they mature into full grown human beings. at such a young age, they already know how to get your affection and manipulate you in their own sweet little way. i just love their powerdery cologne-y scent even if they've just peed or pooped. especially babies who are not yet fed solid food. their poo smells like milk. hehehe
i really just can't wait for my baby kyle to come into this world. 1 more month of waiting.. it's true what they say in the books, during the last trimester of a woman, the more she gets impatient with the arrival of the baby into the family. well in my case it's not only me that's impatient. it's my whole family!! from my dad to my deadpan youngest brother...
i'm officially 33 weeks pregnant, translation: almost 8 months on the way. by the 37th week onwards, well, i could deliver this child anyday, any minute. that makes it 4 more weeks... and i'm getting impatient. aishi's getting impatient. my parents are super excited.
i've been having really vivid dreams about kyle. how he looks like. i dreamt about him with a very round face, rosy chubby cheeks, pointy nose, and cherry red lips. in short, i dreamt him to look like a really cutie pie baby boy.
i'm still working right now. actually i can still manage the workload, it's just that i avoid the client calls and client visits. i just do my work and follow ups through the phone. i'm actually hoping to continue to work until i can't anymore. but then i wouldn't want to be caught in labor here in the office. dyahe naman sa mga officemates di ba? we were actually talking about that over lunch with my good friends, what if nag labor ako dito sa office sino ang bubuhat sa akin? sino ang magdadala sa akin sa hospital? off the bat, naisip ko agad na si jay ang bubuhat sa akin since he's one hell of a big guy and for sure kakayanin naman nya ang weight ko di ba? or the next alternative naman would either be albert or lazslo. hehe and the designated person to drive me daw to the hospital eh ang dakila naming boss (COO) na si kevin. hahaha since practical naman if you think about it kasi his car is the one that is parked nearest sa office. actually, sa basement ng aming building. so si kevin talaga ang best option namin in case that happens.
but then, i would still prefer na sa house ako abutin ng labor pains and this would happen at night. tipong habang masaya kaming nanonood ng telenovela sa channel 2. hahaha i could just imagine my mom, na super natataranta kasabay ni aishi. tapos kaming dalawa ng dada ko eh cool lang. haha ang weird siguro tignan nun. i just wish na si aishi ang mag drive ng car at nde si dada kasi super bagal nito mag drive at baka sa car pa ako managanak ng di oras kahit na ang lourdes eh more or less mga 20-30 mins away lang sa bahay namin.
ngayon ko lang naisip na i have to prepare my bag for the hospital na and i hope i won't forget to include kyle's things din. baka umuwi ng hubad ang anak ko habang ang nanay eh maayos na nakabihis pauwi. hehe ang sama namang thought yun.
credit given to Kanto girl and her blog. just reposting a really nice story. visit her blog na rin http://clickmomukhamo.com/kantogirlblues/
WHEN LOVE MET MADNESS
(forwarded email)
This ain’t Neil Gaiman, but it made me chuckle.
=====================================
A long time ago, before the world was created and
humans set foot on it for the first time, virtues
and vices wandered bored, not knowing what to do.
One day, they were all gathered and bored more than
ever when Ingenious had an idea: Why don’t we play
hide and seek? And all of them liked the idea, and
immediately the mad Madness shouted: I want to
count, I want to count and since no one else was
crazy to seek for Madness, Madness leaned on a tree
and started to count, 1, 2, 3. And as Madness
counted, the vices and virtues went hiding.
Tenderness hung on the horn of the moon; Treason in
a pile of garbage; Fondness curled up between the
clouds; Lie said he would hide under a stone but he
lied and hid at the bottom of the lake; Passion went
to the center of the earth; Avarice entered a sack
that he ended up breaking….
And Madness continued to count, 79,80, 81,82. All
the vices and virtues were already hidden by then,
except for Love, whom as undecided as he is, did not
know where to hide. And this should not surprise us
because we all know how difficult it is to hide
Love.
And Madness was already at 95, 96,97.and just at the
moment when she arrived at hundred, Love jumped into
a rosebush and there he hid out. And Madness shouted
“I’m coming! I’m coming!” and as she turned, the
first one she saw was Laziness, thrown to her feet
because he didn’t have any energy to hide.
Then she saw Tenderness in the horn of the Moon, and
Lie at the bottom of the lake, and Passion in the
center of the earth… Discovering them one by one,
finding all of them but one. Madness was getting
desperate, unable to find the last missing one,
until Envy, envious for having been discovered,
whispered to Madness: “You are lacking Love, and he
is hiding in the rosebush.”
And Madness took a wooden pitchfork, and stabbed at
the rosebush, and stabbed and stabbed, till a heartbreaking
shout made her stop.
And, after the shout, Love came out covering his
face with his hands, and from between his fingers
run two threads of blood, out of his eyes.
Madness anxious to find Love had took out Love’s
eyes with the pitchfork. What have I done?, what
have I done? - she shouted. I have left you blind!
How can I repair it? And Love answered, you can’t
restore my eyes. But if you want to do something
for me, you could be my guide.
From that day on, Love is blind and is always
accompanied by Madness.
*** so true...
you left one humid night
your sweat left traces of you
in the pillow that we shared
that sent shivers down my spine
it felt like a thousand caresses
your fingertips tracing every part
you know where i am
what sparks me
you wrap me in intoxication
i could feel your breath
the sound of your sleep
a tender whisper in my ears
it seems you never left at all
you still linger
in every corner of our world
but then
i know
you'll be back
yagiedoodles
6/14/05
yehey office
thinking about my aishi while he's a million miles away down south...
yes!! my muse is still with me. i just have to wake her up to spark some inspiration in my poetic soul.
i had the weirdest experience last night.
i was able to sleep around 10pm last night. but then aish called me up around 11:30 i think because he forgot to get his credit card form me. so i waited for him to get to my house so that i could give his card already and return to sleep.. i can't even remember what i said, or if i said anything when i gave aish his card.
anyway, on with the story...
i finally made it to my bed to finally catch some sleep. around 10-15 mins into my sleep, i felt that it seems there was someone or something poking my bed. poking not the sides of my bed but it felt like it was poking my bed as if it's floating above me. i just ignored it and just slept. i don't want to scare myself that time coz i really need to sleep.
another experience...
i woke up around 3am, which had been routine for me the past 4 days already. i would either wake up 5 mins before 3 or 10 mins after 3. but anyway, i checked my phone's clock and sure enough it was 3:10 am. so i returned to my usual sleeping position where i wrap myself in my blanket form head to toe and facing my wall. (don't worry, i can breathe properly) as i was about to drift off to sleep i heard my floorboards creaking, as if there was someone walking inside my room. my floorboards are really noisy whenever someone enters my room. i could sometimes even hear it when i'm downstairs. but the sound was very quiet like that "person" was tiptoeing around my room. but the sound was really distinct. but still, i just ignored it and continued to sleep.
i don't really know if i had a ghostly experience. but i think i shold stop reading ghost stories for now. it's getting in my head already....
* aishi and i loooove this song so much*
THE DAY YOU SAID GOONIGHT by HALE.
Take me as you are
Push me off the road
the sadness,
i need this time to be with you
im freezing in the sun
im burnig in the rain
the silence;
im screaming, calling out your name
and i do reside in your light
put out the fire with me and find
yeah you'll lose the side of the circles
that's what i'll do if we say goodbye
CHORUS:
To be is all i gotta be
and all that i see
and all that i need is time
to me the life you gave me
the day you said goodnight
The calmness in your face
that i see through the night
the warmth of your life is pressing unto us
you didn't ask me why
i never would have known oblivion is falling down
and i do reside in your light
put out the fire with me and find
yeah you'll lose the side of the circles
that's what i'll do the day you said goodnight
(REPEAT CHORUS)
if you could only know me like your prayers at night
Then everything between me and you will be alright
(REPEAT CHORUS)
she's already taken
she's already taken
she's already taken me
she's already taken
she's already taken
she's already taken me
the day you said goodnight.
