i wish...

someone will give me this as a present... i'd love to have all three books. :)

dear lord, i hope someone hears my prayer to have all three postsecret books... it would make me a happy girl again. i miss having books to read... i promise to take care of it and pass it on to my kids and their kids. amen :)

i'm sick...

that's all i could post for today.

i hate having colds... :(

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and i just realized that i have blogged about having colds since 2005! hahaha

am i a cough and colds magnet or what? poor me... :P

motherhood...

in times where i feel bummed out and just depressed, one look at these little precious treasures makes my day sunny again. sometimes it's just hard to imagine that these boys are mine. do i really deserve such perfect angels? am i worthy of taking care of them? i'm scared of failing and not being able to nurture them as what a good mother should.

but then, what defines a good mother? is she the one who is with the kids 24/7 watching every move of her offspring? then it would be unfair for a mom like me who slaves day in and day out to find the means to provide for my kids along with my hubby to be called such. would i be called an unfit mother? then how come i was blessed with two wonderful kids if i fall under that category? is motherhood defined as being the one stuck at home doing all the chores at the same time raising the kids to be grown civilized adults?

enough with the senti trip. this is not what this entry is about. i am a good mother. period. ask my kids!!

anyway, i'm just happy that i was blessed with such good kids who i believe understand that i have to be away everyday. but i do make up for all the lost time during the day when they were at their peak. i still make sure that i get to tuck them in no matter how tired or even hungry i am. my kids always comes first, then hubby, then my parents and sibs, then me. sometimes i think that's unfair (considering my libran qualities) but then weighing things down, as long as it's for the best for the people i love, i'm willing to sacrifice. there would be other ME times along the way. but sometimes i choose to spend my me time with the kids and hubby. :)

and speaking of sacrifices, i've done a lot for these kids. when i was single, i was having the grandest time buying anything i want from the salary i was earning that time. it didn't matter if i won't have enough money to save. i was buying books, food, clothes, shoes, bags anything that caught my retail fancy. i was a queen in my own little world with all the luxuries around me. when the kids came, i stopped cold turkey. it was like quitting an addicting habit (which it was, and it is) and surprisingly, it felt good and liberating. and in all seriousness, i never missed it. once or twice in a blue moon, when money permits, i indulge a bit but majority of the things i spend still goes to the kids. when before i could buy 3 pairs of shoes and a cute top, i just buy the one i could use the longest then buy more for the kids. i learned to not be selfish.

amazing how the kids can change something in you that you didn't know you had. and they made you better and stronger in the process.

how cheesy can i get? haha

same goes for hubby. a lot has changed from him too. he learned to handle his temper and be more, say, carefree like his kids and not take life too seriously that it can take over his life. he learned to be a child again. we learned to be children again. we look at things with a child's perspective and curiosity sometimes, because, the simplest things in life are really the best, and well, the simplest really.

am i making sense here at all? am i still within the topic?

and yeah, motherhood is hard but with the kids around, it just gets better. *wink* right mothers?

i'm not in the mood to blog. someone has been misinterpreting everything i say and do and jumping to a lot of conclusions. and hell i'm not doing anything at all to that person. why does that person have to ruin my day?

i've done and said everything even assuring that everything's all good. but then this person thinks otherwise. well, hell to you too. keep on thinking that. i've lost all my patience with you. mas praning ka pa sa babae mag isip.

people have told you there was nothing to make you think that but then you still stuck to your pride and believed in whatever you dirty paranoid little mind could think of.

you're not going to ruin my day anymore.

i've been civil and curt with you. but then nothing comes through that thick-ass mind you have. go wallow in your own self pity. don't drag me down. you're insignificant to me. we're not even friends. we're not even close.

just let me do my own stuff and i'll continue to not mind you at all.

go hide under a rock or fly with your clouds. whatever!

my little boy turns two

a letter to my little boy kyle on his 2nd birthday...

kuya kyle,

maybe in the future when you're all grown up you get to stumble into mommy's blog and get to read my thoughts and what-nots. i'm hoping you do get to read this too.

my dear boy, how time flies, you just turned two and how much you have grown before my eyes. before ou were this little infant dependent on me for your needs. your frail little hands and feet, your curious eyes. your smiles and coos. and now, you have learned to assert yourself. one way or the other you have learned to fight for what you want. you now know how to tell mommy and dada what you want. you're slowly learning to express what you feel. your little triumphs and failures make me so proud of what you have become. although you are becoming a bit hard headed when you're on one of your moods, you still know how to make things better.

i'm proud that you are happy learning things at your own pace with mommy and dada watching you. i'm proud of how you're treating your little brother with all the love and care your little self could do. your being protective of keon to a fault shows that when the two of you are older, you're surely have his back no matter what. at such a young age, you sure do possess a mature mind albeit your babble and kyle-speak.

i remember the day when i first saw you in the nursery when the nurse handed you to me. you were fast asleep and full from your feeding. upon placing you in my arms, you slowly opened your eyes and from there i knew you were mine and me to you. with your open eyes, i felt that you knew me. there was this look of content from you and the tears of joy just flowed. at that moment i didn't want to leave your side. i wanted to hold you and keep you safe. your warmth and smell was comforting. i knew everything will be alright.

taking you home was even joyous. people were fawning over you and how good looking you were. i never felt so proud. you were never the fussy baby. you knew when to feed and not cause a scene. you understood that we all needed rest. you were happy as long as you slept on my chest and hear my heartbeat.

the months rolled on and we were getting to know each other. you were quite the happy and smart baby. at three months you knew how to roll over on your own. by the 6th you were sitting on your own and crawling. and a day after your first birthday, you were walking with confidence. you were starting to express how you felt through your own words. everyday was fun learning with you. you were more fascinated with cars and other toys than the alphabet and numbers. i never forced you to learn them, i knew in time you would. i nurtured your love of toys and books. bedtime was your favorite, mommy gets to read you any book you wanted until you get tired and asked to be scratched on your head. you eventually got tired of sleeping on my chest and opted to sleep and cuddle beside me or dada while hugging your dutdut pillow which you do until now.

my little boy, everyday you make me proud from the little things you do. those moments when you just run to me and hug me makes my heart melt and even when i'm having a bad day, you make everything right. i hope that when yougrown up to be a fine young man, you won't get tired of doing this. there are a lot of things i still have to teach you but we're going to take it one day at a time. there's no need for us to rush. you never liked being rushed, you like doing things at your own pace.

kuya kyle, always remember that no matter what you have dada and mommy to run to in times of trouble and triumph. you are our home. no matter the circumstance never hesitate to reach out to us and talk to us. right or wrong, happy or sad we are always here and your brother. always remember that your family will be there for you and the first one you should run to in times of need. we will be there without question. without judgement.

kuya kyle, you're just two and we have a long road ahead of us. and i'm looking forward to all the experiences we'll go through. always remember that mommy, dada and keon are behind you 100%. i'm so proud of you kyle for what you have become. you make motherhood the best role i've ever had.

i love you tutuy bear!

~mommy

mommy and dada are sick

as mentioned before, keon and kyle were sick a few weeks before. kyle with the usual tonsilitis, and keon, we're suspecting teething but at the same time having the usual cough and colds due to the erratic weather.

the kids are fine now, fever-free. happy and lively as usual. but they're sleeping in my parent's room so that they won't get sick again.

except now that mommy and dada are the ones sick and with high fevers. aishi still has fever since friday night until last night at 39 degrees. poor aishi, he was literally living in our bed the whole weekend. i was taking care of the boys plus aishi. unfortunately, i too am sick but still here at work. my fever still hasn't gone out yet but i'm really feeling weak and tired. plus the fact that my little red fairy has visited me. what timing!! i'm just waiting for the fever to come out so that i can get over it. it's so hard to work, take care of the kids and your hubby when at the same time, you're nursing a fever too.

now i'm thinking of sending over the kids to my inlaws first just to lessen the chances of them not getting sick. after all, i think we were the ones who caught the bug from them. hehehe

i'm not sure if i can still go to work tomorrow. we'll see tonight. i'll just ym my boss tomorrow if i can't make it.

i really hate getting sick... boo!

ask mommy haze #1

question from mommy daiz: Would you tell us how you and Aishi got together? For us newer readers. =)

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hi mommy daiz! actually i mentioned this in my previous entries about how aishi and i got together. you may read the post here:when yagie met pitoy

a bit of a background, we were officemates before and at that time were committed to other people. but as fate plays it, well, those relationships ended and well, brought us together (cheesy!! haha). of course, we started out as friends and yosi mates. and from there, well... you know what happened :)

for aishi...

my muse went into hibernation and finally she woke up... time to work sistah!

one

i wanted to be the most poetic one
that can bring you to your knees
hug your heart with my words
and see you smile like it was the first time

i wanted to be the perfect one
that can be evrything you wanted
give you everything you need
be with you day and night

i wanted to be the happiest one
when i'm with you, when i'm without
but then a few tears had to be shed
fights have to be won and lost

i wanted to be the one
the one you ran to
the one you hugged at night
the one to light up your face
the one you see forever with

why ask for theses
why do i want to be the one

when all the while i was...

7/20/07
2:22 pm

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i just had the moment to write and just grabbed the chance. and voila! yep, i still got the skills to write.. hehehe at least i don't write angsty poetry anymore like when i was in highschool...

ask me a question..

i'm running out of things to say/blog about so, i thought why not ask you dear readers - if i do have one, to ask me some questions that i can blog about or whatever. :)

i'm just bored.

let's go! :)

(wag naman sana masyadong serious na tanong ha? hehehe )

i know someone like this...

Since light travels faster than sound, people appear bright until you hear them speak.

seriously i do. what a know it all... just because you use those big words you see in books doesn't equate to you having a higher IQ. it would even be great if you understand half of what you're saying and know what they mean when you use them. sometimes, it's easier to express what you want to say in tagalog especially if it's just an informal conversation... don't make your nose bleed too much or even tire your brain...

last post before i head on home...

was bloghopping and of all things, i saw one where this girl has a bf that looks like hubby...







when he was in highschool... promise!!

ple!! you should see this!! freaky to the next level. haven't shown it to aishi yet. he'll go bonkers too i bet!

we found goodnight moon!

yey for us!! it was in my parent's room all along!! hidden under my mom's stacks and stacks of magazines!

hooray!!

tonight will be a good night for kyle and keon :)

kyle's 2nd birthday and the pedia visit

finally had the time to spare to detail what happened last week. it was quite busy but fun at the same time. :)

[kyle's 2nd birthday and that dreadful fever]
i took the day off from work to buy the food we were going to prepare that night. we opted not to have a grand celebration since it's kyle's 2nd birthday. there weren't any kids yet to invite so the grand celebration would be held when kyle turns 5 or 7. anyway, after sending the kids over to my in laws since they prepared food for kyle and his other cousins, i got to work.

went to puregold to buy the usual things for the kids. diapers, powder, soap, etc. went home and well, napped for an hour after lunch. after the lovely nap, went back to puregold again to buy the ingredients this time with aishi. (oh my poor poor credit card... you were used well) aishi and i planned to cook carbonara for the family. i actually planned to prepare this dish but knowing my culinary and kitchen skills, well i asked aishi to take over. he's a better cook than i am. and the result was fabulous! yummy and uber amazing! so after the pasta was cooked, he headed over my in laws to pick up the kids and buy kyle his cake and chicken from jollibee! kyle loves their chicken by the way, especially the skin. hehe

after picking kyle and keon, i noticed that kyle was a bit quiet and well, not his usual self. i asked his yaya to give kyle to me and there i knew he was running a fever. i thought it was the usual "lagnat laki". i was cheering kyle up and asked him to sing with me twinkle twinkle, which he did. but he was still not 100% kyle. once home, i checked his temp and he was running a 38 degree fever. i told him he has to drink his medicine so that he'll fell better and so that he can blow his candle better. he was quite the cooperative boy!

so, we showed him his cake with a candle and we sang him happy birthday. even before we took his picture he blew the candle already which we lit again, then he blew it again, we lit it again... until we were able to capture the moment. all the while keon was happily watching his big brother. of course that little boy was all smiles.

after dinner, we put kyle to sleep so that he could rest. around 2am or so, i checked kyle again and his temp and this time he was running a 39 degree fever. i rubbed him down with a cold wet cloth to help keep the fever down. and gave him another dose of paracetamol, amidst his cries and protests. i told aishi i'llbring kyle to his pedia that morning.

[the pedia visit]

and so we went to his pedia. i asked my dad to drive us there since aishi had work on a saturday. it was only mommy and kyle going to the doctor. i asked his yaya to stay home and assist keon's yaya. so anyway, while we were waiting for our turn, kyle asked for his milk. he was halfway done with his milk when he gave it to me. i guess he was just thirsty that time. after handing his bottle to me. he gave a loud burp and then vmoitted all the milk he drank. good thing there was no one in front of us or else they would get wet with kyle's vomit. i had no choice but to clean it up. i used up a whole roll of tissue, i was making sure to clean everything up. part of me was embarrased for what happened and part of me was happy since no one complained for what happened. for sure the mothers and the fathers there, know the feeling when that happened. i mean we're in the clinic for check ups! :)

so after the clean up and telling kyle that it was ok since he was sick, imagine the look on his face after seeing his throw up on the floor. we were finally called by his doctor. at that moment he became quite fussy and clingy to me. i thought everything was going smoothly, when the doctor tried to check kyle's throat(they were suspecting tonsilitis) kyle started flailing and crying. there was this instance where there were already three of us holding him down when he still managed to kick the doctor. i immediately said sorry since his pedia was quite old, he was my pedia too. (hehe). after the struggle and crying, it was confirmed that kyle did have tonsilitis. and as a peace offering to kyle, his pedia gave him 2 lollipops, which kyle happily accepted with matching hikbi. he immediately ate the lollipop but i told him he can't finish it since it would make his throat hurt. he was a good boy. after a few tastes, he gave it to me by putting it in my mouth. hahaha imagine kyle and i going down the stairs, mommy with a lollipop and little boy along with her. hahaha

and so that marks kyle's 2nd birthday. :)

drowning in alcohol... by ple

this is just a taste of what we did when we celebrated kyle's birthday last saturday with good friends. kerol!! how i wish you were there para mas happy ang chika!! hehehe for more stories, hop on over to ple's blog :)

as ple posted our uber funny pics ( iwas thinking about posting it here but she did it in her blog so, here it is then)...

camera + jr lapad + coke + marlboro lights/winston lights + alcohol flowing in our veins = crazy pictures

how would you feel?

and see this as a search result in google?

search results say: Philippine Securities and Exchange Commission - This site may harm your computer

seriously, what would they think of us now??? even wow philippines have the same result...

in good and in bad....

i'm just happy to have the wonderful girls in my life since highschool. though we don't get to see each other that often, but the moment we do, it seems like yesterday. minus miming the cat and our usual tambayan at school. :)

my girls... toxic nips! yeah!

and of course one of the few sources of my strength and for sure will be there until we're old and wrinkly but still goddesses! naks!

ple and plee. just don't ask how we got to call ourselves that. blame mtv. :P

another moday post...

not in the mood to post yet. the internet connection here in the office sucks so posting a lot and even uploading some pics and vids in multiply would be worthless.

anyway, a little summary for now:

> kyle's 2nd birthday last friday
> kyle having a very high fever on his birthday
> kyle's check up last saturday and him throwing up in the doctor's office
> watching harry potter last sunday - my review
> finally going to the dentist after so long!! my poor teeth!!

oh well... later then! and hopefully the internet connection gets better.

i'm off to lunch!

campaign for real beauty

when this website was first launched, i jumped at the opportunity because they were giving away free t-shirts made by kate torralba. i mean how easy can that get? submit a story and you get a free shirt! amazing!

so i did sumbit my story, which by the way is 100% true. no BS.

and after a few weeks, i got a package! i got my shirt!! the funny thing is, i got another package with another shirt! hey i didn't object. i got two free shirts!

if you haven't shared your story yet, do so. and not only get a shirt (dunno if they still give away though but you also get to inspire a lot of people- especially young girls) but get your story published and read by everyone, maybe your story would inspire someone or even boost someone's self-esteem! this is one TVC that i agree to. show your true and beautiful colors! nobody's prefect and it's ok! :)

go to the site and search my name to read my story :)

letting off steam in tagalog...

alam mo, kung ayaw mo mamansin o kung ayaw mo lang ako kasama ngayon bakit hindi mo na lang sabihin sa harap ko kaysa naman pa-irap irap ka dyan na parang grade 1 student. ano naman ang maidudulot nun? madali naman akong kausap, kung ayaw mo akong kasama kahit for today eh di wag. hindi lang naman ikaw ang kasama ko dito ah. ako sinimulan ko ang araw ko ng maayos at masaya ang gising ko kahit na masama ang gising ng anak ko. buti pa yung anak ko eh pinaalam niya sa akin na masama ang gising niya at ayaw niya ng may nangugulo sa kanya.

pucha pambabastos na yung ginawa mo eh. ang drama mo naman kasi masyado. feeling mo naman eh aamuhin ka at susuyuin. hindi na uso yan teng! wala nang gumagawa nun. asa ka pa!

hay nako. after nito keber keber na. kung maarte ka pa rin. bahala ka na sa buhay mo. may mga iba naman dyan na madali mong mauuto.

hindi ako isa dun.

whew. ok na ako. :) back to blogging in english. naks!

coolness!

You Will Be a Cool Parent

You seem to naturally know a lot about parenting, and you know what kids need. You can tell when it's time to let kids off the hook, and when it's time to lay down the law. While your parenting is modern and hip, it's not over the top. You know that there's nothing cool about a parent who acts like a teenager... or a drill sergeant!

Would You Be a Cool Parent?

i sure hope so i'll be one. it would be nice to hear my kids calling me cool infront of their friends. :)
~!~

Your 1996 Theme Song Is: Ironic by Alanis Morisette

It's like rain on your wedding day It's a free ride when you've already paid It's the good advice that you just didn't take Who would've thought ... it figures

What's Your 1996 Theme Song?

well said. ;) ahlaveet!!
~!~

You Are Big Bird

Talented, smart, and friendly... you're also one of the sanest people around. You are usually feeling: Happy. From riding a unicycle to writing poetry, you have plenty of hobbies to keep you busy. You are famous for: Being a friend to everyone. Even the grumpiest person gets along with you. How you life your life: Joyfully. "Super. Duper. Flooper."

The Sesame Street Personality Quiz

:D
~!~

In a Past Life...

You Were: A Gentle Executor of Sacrifices. Where You Lived: West Africa. How You Died: In Childbirth.

Who Were You In a Past Life?

WTF???
~!~

You Are Straight

There's not much queer about you. So let's just say you're straight... but not narrow.

What's Your Sexual Orientation?

sabi na nga ba may inner dingga ako eh! staright but not narrow o!

~!~

You Are 88% A Child of the 80s

There's hardly a moment of the 80s that you missed out on. Was there ever a better decade? As if!

Are You a Child of an 80s?

enough said! the 80's was cool!!
~!~

You Inner Gender is Female

You're sensitive, caring, and willing to connect with anyone who's open to you. You make friends easily, and you enjoy all sorts of conversations. You understand most people you meet - better than they understand themselves. You're totally a woman... or at the very least, your soul is female.

What's Your Inner Gender?

hehehe
~!~
promise last na po ito. hehe

You Are 47% Vain

You're a little vain, but more than anything you have a healthy amount of confidence. Thinking the world of yourself is great. Just don't think less of those who aren't as pretty as you!

How Vain Are You?

amen!!

07.07.07

a very delayed post...

some people consider this a very lucky date. hey even mayor sanchez was head over heels with this number.

not me. i just don't find the number seven that appealing or lucky even. it's just a personal choice.

was watching last night's entertainment news with aishi - our guilty pleasure together and it was amazing to see how many people tied the knot on that day. hindi lang si eva longoria at tony parker! (not only eva longoria and tony parker). there were a lot and every imaginable way to get married.

anyway, back to the number 7. yeah. i don't fancy that number much. i don't find it a very lucky number. i find it stiff and well, just there. hehe labo!

but this thing happens like once in a blue moon? but every year for every month. catch my drift? like last year, when the omen was launched, 06.06.06, you get the picture.

what i'm looking forward to is 08.08.08 now that's a luck number. for me and some of the chinese people. i wouldn't be surprised if a lot of chinese couples would get married on that date. unless they feel like getting married on a thursday. hehe

yup i think 8 is a lucky number and a sexy one at that! haha

08.08.08 much like seeing a lot of infinity symbols right?

*let's just cross our fingers we can get married next year. even if it doens't fall on 08.08.08, as long as it's in 2008. *

gets mo?

made by yours truly when we were in bagaberde. i forgot when... hehe. i didn't take a picture of attempt number 2 though. 2 knots in one night. *wink* is still have it here in my wallet for aishi's safekeeping. nabilib eh.

totoo kaya yung kasabihan na yan? :P

update on separation anxiety...

thanks to those who sent their love after i posted this entry. anyway, just to update you guys...

aishi and i talked last night and there were a few changes, he'll no longer handle all the areas up north but the farthest he'll go will be in pangasinan. yey to me and to us! and the longest time he would stay there would be a week or two. but he said he could go home every weekend to spend time with his boys. no objections there as long as he's home with us. yey yey yey!!

quite happy with the way things turned out. god does listen to prayers and little wishes. :)

much love to you guys who were there for me. you know who you are :D big big hugs to you!!!

separation anxiety

not by kyle or keon but by me. separation anxiety from aishi and the thought that i won't be able to see him everyday before the month ends.

now now before some of you might think that we're going our separate ways, well no. not that kind but we'll definitely be separated because of his work. he'll be assigned up north and we'll only get to see him 4 days in a month. worse case 4 days in a quarter. which i'm hoping that would never ever happen. actually him being thrown up north is the one i'm hoping that would never ever happen. but i guess it's inevitable since, he wouldn't be a Regional Sales Manager if he won't experience being in the other regions.

but still, i'm dreading that moment. so right now, since he doesn't have his schedule planned yet, we're looking into other options. i.e looking for a new job that would base him here in manila. admittedly, he too hates the fact that he'll leave us all behind.

i've already voiced out my feelings to colby thru email (have you read it na ple?) and i told her that seriously i don't know how to cope with the separation. after so long, this would be the first time aishi would be away from me and the kids. this would be the first time i won't wait for him to get home. this would be the first time i'll be eating dinner alone and maybe going home alone before i pick up the kids from my in laws. and on aishi's part, we'll this would be his first time sleeping all alone all over again. he's the type that can't sleep alone in a room. he grew up sleeping in one room with his brothers, then with me after we got married. and then this. he's sure going to have a lot of sleepless nights.

i really hope and pray this does not push through until a company calls him for a new job offer. the thought of not seeing him everyday just breaks my heart and seriously, i'm controlling myself not to break down.

i may sound like a baby, but yeah, that's how i feel.

please, please help me pray this doesn't push through... i don't want to be sad every single day he's away...

aww snap...

we weren't able to reserve for harry potter in imax because all good dates and seats were sold out. we were hoping to watch either thursday or sunday but well... too bad. so we just reserved our seats in greenbelt 3 on sunday. so much for the imax experience. i guess that would be for the next movie.

at least we still get to watch harry potter!! yipee!! :)

thank god for sureseats!!

i hate...

1. Food you hate – I’m willing to try anything once except if it involves insects.
2. Fruits you hate – none!
3. Veggies that you hate – ampalaya and okra
4. Celebrities or people that you hate – know it alls, plastic people and those who think they are above other people regardless if it’s status, knowledge or education. and those moms who think that their kids are better than others...tsk.
5. Event/Incident/Situation that you hate – when people don’t come on time
6. TV shows or movies that you hate – I really can’t stand watching bollywood movies.
7. Type of music that you hate – country and baduy pinoy pop. If it’s made by lito camo, I will never listen to it.
8. Household chore that you hate – Ironing
9. Things you hate about the world – humans being abused, maltreated, and used for porn. Drugs, lies, corruption.
10. Things you hate about yourself – procrastinating, moody, easily cries when mad or frustrated, and I still tend to keep my feelings all bottled up.

goodnight moon

kyle and i have this ritual before he goes to bed and if i'm not putting keon to bed. usually it's his yaya that puts him to bed since i can't put the two boys to sleep at the same time. kyle and i read a book. he's bedtime book is goodnight moon. and for the past few weeks, we can't seem to find this book, it's gone missing somewhere in our room...

i feel bad because kyle usually looks for this and would sometimes resort to just finishing his milk without even reading the book.

haay, i sure hope we find this book soon so that we can get back to regular sleeping programming...

kyle's first gift for his 2nd birthday

since it's kyle's birthday this friday - yup. friday the 13th pa! we took him out last sunday for a quick bonding time and buy him his gift. actually it was my mom who bought him his gift. here's the kwento by the way..

3 weeks ago, while we were at home and watching tv. kyle approached my mom and out of the blue told her: mama, buy shoes! my mom was a bit surprised with what kyle did but found it absolutely adorable (disclaimer: promise hindi namin tinuruan si kyle na sabihin yun kay mama. i was actually telling him to say that to aishi hehe) so i thought wala lang kay mama yun. after that statement, i heard her say, sige pag malapit na birthday mo, we'll buy you shoes

so come sunday (yesterday) we went to sm to look for shoes. mama and i were looking for cheap but sturdy shoes for kyle. little did we know my little boy has a hidden agenda. we stopped in front of the converse stall and i checked out if they have sizes na for kyle. i looked at the white hi-cut pair and showed it compared it with his feet. hoping lang naman if it would fit him. surprisingly, it was "swak" for his feet with a little allowance. smallest size was size 8. so out of curiosity, i took off kyle's shoes and checkd if it did fit him. and it did.

so i thought ok na. when i told kyle to take it off na since we're going to look for other shoes pa, it happened. he didn't want to take it off anymore! he was literally on the verge of throwing a tantrum and maglulupasay na sa floor. he kept on walking around the area and even skipped and ran! then he went to the nearest mirror and even looked at his new shoes! you could see that he was really happy. it actually looked like his other shoe which we bought at big and small co.

i told mama it was a bit expensive. i thought she won't pay for it. but then she told the sales lady that she'll take it and just change kyle's shoes. after telling him that we're just going to pay for it, he still would not have any of it. he kept on saying shoes! shoes! mine! so ok, we asked the lady in the counter if he can wear it already since he's getting tantrum-y. after seeing that mama paid for his shoes already, he ran wearing his new shoes and aishi running after him.

after running after him, he approached me and asked to be carried. (siguro napagod na sa kakatakbo). while carrying him, he showed me the biggest smile ever. then he said: momi, babob bag - translation: momi, spongebob bag! aba! humirit pa ng spongebob daw na bag! so i told him, i'll buy him the bag on his birthday since i don't have enough money with me that time. good thing he didn't get mad. hehehe i guess he's happy with his new shoes.

he was a happy little kulit boy. excited na siya for his birthday! master na niya ang pagblow ng candle!

anyway, here's the picture of his new shoes: ang laki ng paa ni kyle noh? hahaha
buti pa ang anak ko may chuck taylor na... hehehe hirap kasi maghanap ng purple na chucks eh... :P

personality assessment from brainbench

PERSONALITY EVALUATION:

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Trait <------------ Range -------------> Trait
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Introverted ..............................X......... Extraverted
Candid ......................................X. Considerate
Impulsive ..........X............................. Cautious
Excitable ..................X..................... Relaxed
Practical ..............X......................... Imaginative
Concrete ......................................X. Abstract
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<------------ Range ------------->
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Your Social Boldness: Introverted VS Extraverted
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You are moderately extraverted. Everyone wants to be your
friend! You tend to be a happy, lively, uninhibited,
enthusiastic person who is fun to be around. Your
leadership and public speaking skills shine when you are in
a group of people. Your friendly nature exudes warmth and
allows you to be welcomed by all types of people. You know
the person who says "hi" to everyone first? Well, that
person is usually you, since you like to show positive
feelings towards others. Your take-charge personality is
well received, because others can sense your genuine
intentions. Given the choice of a relaxing night at home or
a night out with your friends, you usually go with the more
exciting of the two. Thrills are right up your alley, and
without high levels of stimulation you may grow bored. But
with your sense of adventure, that is unlikely to happen.

Your Agreeableness: Candid VS Considerate
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You are very considerate. You are a popular person, aren't
you? Of course you are. You truly value harmony in dealing
with others. People recognize your friendly, generous, and
helpful personality. Your easy-going, agreeable nature
makes you such a joy to be around. This is especially true
in meetings or general conversations. The topic may become
heated, but you are considerate of other's feelings and you
will find a happy medium in order to placate those around
you. This is because you have an optimistic view of human
nature and you realize that if you trust people with their
decisions that they are not trying to hurt you or take
advantage of you. This special and rare quality is also
seen in your altruism. You enjoy helping others. To you it
is not a sacrifice; to you it is fulfilling to help others
in need.

Your Self-Control: Impulsive VS Cautious
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You are moderately impulsive. At times you can be
impulsive, but not to the point where you are jeopardizing
work or relationships. You know when to follow rules, but
you also know when to bend rules that are not set in stone.
If your home or work space gets a little messy, you do not
get upset or feel compelled to tidy up. You do not have to
have perfect order in your life to feel good about yourself
or your environment. You tend to be more on the fun side of
spontaneity, and enjoy being flexible with your plans and
your life. In general, you prefer to make short-term goals
rather than long-term goals.

Your Anxiety Level: Excitable VS Relaxed
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You are slightly excitable. You have the ability to cope
just fine in stressful situations. You feel the stress and
frustration in pressure-filled situations, but you are able
to overcome any negative feelings. You tend to worry
slightly, but not enough to interfere with your activities.
If you are experiencing a tough time in your life, you are
able to stave off feelings of depression. You are able to
think clearly and realistically in difficult circumstances,
so that you can devise a sensible solution. Sometimes you
can be impatient, other times you can be relaxed - it just
depends on the circumstance and how much you can control
it. People are not afraid that you will lose your temper.
You are able to manage your emotions when necessary. When
you do become angry, it is only because something is out of
your power.

Your Openness to Change: Practical VS Imaginative
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You are moderately practical. You tend to be more
comfortable when your daily activities are familiar and
unchanging, rather than constantly in a state of flux. You
prefer to deal with facts and not ideas. You prefer to be
more practical and pragmatic, but you are able to be
creative when the situation calls for it. You prefer the
conversation or situation to be more straightforward.
Emotionally, you are more conservative and tend not to
express your feelings openly. You have a proper demeanor,
which summons respect from those around you.

The way you Think/Reason: Concrete VS Abstract
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You are very abstract in your thinking. You tend to be
quick to grasp ideas, are a fast learner and intelligent.
You possess a hallmark of intelligence that potentially
separates human beings from earlier life forms, the ability
to think about future consequences before acting on an
impulse. Your reasoning activity involves contemplation of
long-range goals, organizing and planning routes to these
goals, and persisting toward one's goals in the face of
short-lived impulses to the contrary. You also have keen
interests in intellectual matters and love to play with
ideas and think theoretically. You tend to be open-minded
to new and unusual ideas, and like to debate intellectual
issues. You often enjoy riddles, puzzles, and brainteasers.




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the frequency or intensity of a person's feelings,
thoughts, or behaviors. Possession of a trait is therefore
a matter of degree. We might describe two individuals as
extraverts, but still see one as more extraverted than the
other. This report uses expressions such as "extravert" or
"high in extraversion" to describe someone who is likely to
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rest in pieces - saliva

Look at me, my depth perception must be off again,
Coz' this hurts deeper than I thought it did,
It has not healed with time...
It just shot down my spine.
You look so beautiful tonight,
Remind me how you laid us down,
And gently smiled,
Before you destroyed my life...

Would you find it in your heart,
To make this go away,
And let me rest in pieces?
(Let me rest in pieces)
Would you find it in your heart,
To make this go away,
And let me rest in pieces?
(Let me rest in pieces)

Look at me, my depth perception must be off again,
You got much closer than I thought you did,
I'm in your reach,You held me in your hands...

But could you find it in your heart,
To make this go away,
And let me rest in pieces?
(Let me rest in pieces)
Would you find it in your heart,
To make this go away,
And let me rest in pieces?
(Let me rest in pieces)

Could you find, could you find in your heart?
(Could you find, could you let me rest in pieces)
Could you find, could you find in your heart?
(Could you find, could you let me rest in pieces)

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wala lang. current song on repeat mode. medyo sad ang dating pero ang ganda ng song di ba?

not a good day today

i really don't want to go into the details of what happened last night. i'll leave that to those whom i really trust. i don't want to turn this into a big drama and focus all the attention to myself, because it's not about me. it's about us.

i'm just trying to get through the day and hopefully not break down. i really don't want to go back to that sad place called depression. i'm over that. i've moved on. i've learned not to be depressed and stay all cooped up in my own world. thankfully the people i wanted to talk to were there and kept me sane. i'm done crying, i've learned that crying does not help in getting things done. it just prolongs the pain and makes the wounds deeper. it's not even a band-aid solution.

yes, we will get through this, in time and i hope soon. i don't want to think about it anymore considering that it will be kyle's birthday next week. by the time the new week rolls in, it's good vibes once again.

so much for kicking the habit, but this incidnet really calls for a yosi break. seriously.

physically we're ok. but mentally, we're drained and traumatized...

and for that, this will be the only entry for today.

if you love neil gaiman...

i'm sure you can't wait too... :D taas ang kamay ng mga fans at excited nang mapanood tong movie!!!

keon does a close open

click! click!

too lazy to blog for now so pictures na lang muna from last night and having fun with my boys

namamahay...

i definitely have the tummy aches now since namamahay ang aking tummy. i don't go number 2 that easily as other people do. try as i might the only place i can go is at home. and it's been hell today for me. iu should have gone before coming to work, but i woke up late. so there...

i hope it's 7 pm so that i can go home and sit and read some magazines... then. success!!

hahaha

why am i blogging about this?? hahaha i'm so bored. done with the tasks for the day...

and yeah. monday sucks!!

PG??

PG?? just beacuse of the word... breast. ayos!!

yep it's monday again

seriously, it's hard to work on a monday. i'm too sleepy and a bit lazy to start working. but i have to. what more now since aishi has the day off because it's pasig day. unfortunately for me, i have to go to work since i no longer work in pasig. haaay... i miss podium and ortigas (di ba ple?)

it's 1158am and still haven't accomplished anything. i'm still not in the mood. my eyes are actually half closed and i'm trying my best to wake up. the coffee i drank this morning didn't work at all. my brain hasn't functioned that properly to come up with content on the website we're working on and probably planning to launch in august.

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ple sent me this mms yesterday as she was on her way to greenbelt. of course natuwa naman ako. may ganung taxi pala. hehe

o di ba ang ganda?? hehe

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we brought kyle to greenbelt last night after hearing mass and eating at jollibee. siympre i had to meet up with his ninangs (ple, roscel and dra. dolly ) after so long. while catching up with the ninangs, asihi took kyle to powerbooks. after a while they came back. i thought pagod na si kyle. yun pala nag poopoo so we had to go home na since i didn't bring any nappies and extra stuff for kyle. and so the "tambay" was cut short. but i'm sure mauulit yan, soon! di ba mga girls? hehehe

at least nag enjoy naman si kyle with his day-off. next time kasama na si keon when he's bigger na and most probably would enjoy the crowd. medyo antukin kasi yung bunso ko eh. dede and meme pa lang ang gusto gawin sa buhay unlike his kuya.

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naku, si kuya kyle, bata pa lang matinik na sa chiks! nung nagsisimba kami. may little girl sa likod namin. so nakikipaglaro siya (peek a boo). aba maya-maya nakita ko eh hawak na ang kamay! aba! nilayo ko nga agad. hehehe bata pa lang eh nagpapa-cute na sa mga babae. hahaha buti nalang after nun eh hindi na niya pinansin yung bata. yun nga lang, malikot habang nasa mass. hehe

more than meets the eye talaga!

panalo!! i'm going to watch it again... sino gusto sumama?? :)

grabe the whole time aishi and i were watching i had goosebumps. lalo na nung sinabi ni Optimus Prime na "autobots, roll out!" ay!! kilabutan ka parang kang na-jebs! hahaha

ang pogi talaga ni Optimus Prime!!! I heart you talaga!! ahihihi
nood tayo uli!!

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