dada turns 55 today :)

birthday ni dada ngayon!!! :D

whee!!! 55 na siya pero hindi siya mukhang 55. para lang siyang mag 45. promise! ganun ka pogi ang dada ko! :D

more dada kwento later. coffee and work muna :D

sharing lang

naaliw ako dun sa ale na katabi ko sa jeep papuntang office...

amoy tide siya! parang ginawa niyang pabango ang tide OR madami siya gumamit ng tide sa paglalaba niya. hehehe

the heroes test

Your Score: Peter Petrelli

You scored 54 Idealism, 58 Nonconformity, 25 Nerdiness

Do you ever... get the feeling that you were meant to do something extraordinary?Congratulations, you're Peter Petrelli! You are a compassionate, idealistic person, which is great. You're searching for your identity and purpose in life, and you have a strong desire to be special, and do something great for the world. You're a bit on the emo side, but you have the best of intentions. Your best quality: Empathy Your worst quality: EMO

Link: The Heroes Personality Test written by freedomdegrees on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test

pampakilig lang...

You And Me - Lifehouse

What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
And me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive

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this song just sends shivers down my spine and one day i'll hear this when aishi and i get married in church... hands down this would make me cry my eyes out or literally make me cry like a baby.

AND if this will be my wedding march song... naku!!! goodbye make-up. wa-poise na kung wa-poise. iiyak talaga ako. hehehe

haaay... this wedding planning thing has been put on hold for quite a while. wonder how's my wedding prep blog doing... hehehe :P

*kilig*

thank you kerol

i would have to say i was deeply touched when i read kerol's latest blog. she's one of the few people i could really talk to about being a mom with all the ups and downs. we learn from each other, we share what we know. she understands that being mom does not require one to be perfect and a know it all. it's a constant learning process from yourself and your kids and a few "special" people along the way.

it's rare to find people like kerol and ple and those select people really really close to my heart to really see your value as a person. mahirap talaga makahanap ng taong totoo at hindi natatakot sabihin sa mukha mo kung ano ang totoo masakit man o hindi. and in the process after sabihin sa iyo alam mo it was all in good faith.

on a side note: kerol, so sorry didn't make it on your 25th bday. but i know you had fun. i was there in spirit naman eh. and kung may gig si ken somewhere in makati, i'll do my best to be there. para chika din tayo :)

:D

i've been tagged!

The rules -- list 7 random things about yourself on your blog. At the end of your post, list 7 people you are tagging. Let them know that they are tagged by leaving them a comment in their blogs.So here goes...

Here are the 7 random facts about me:

1. addict ako kay tigger. kahit anong gamit basta andun si tigger gusto ko. :) - kaya kung may bibigay kayo na gamit (ehem ehem) tigger sana.
2. mahilig din ako sa mga gamit na purple. pero hindi ako kumakain ng ube ice cream... eeew!
3. for some weird reason, lagi akong nilalapitan o natatamaan ng bola ng basketball o volleyball. kaya takot akong maglaro ng sports na may bolang involved. exception lang ang billiards. hehe
4. i still sleep with a nightlight. oo, takot ako sa dilim. hindi ako makatulog pag madilim.
5. pag kasama ko si ple for some weird reason eh naglalabasan ang mga lumilipad na ipis. so panic mode kami. takot kami sa lumilipad na ipis. pero pag nasa lupa lang, kayang-kaya silang pataying gamit ang tsinelas.
6. nung highschool ako, napagkakamalan akong tibo dahil sa short hair ko. pero girl po talaga ako!!
7. up to now my bag still looks like a trash can - di ba ple? . pag tinignan mo yung loob, may mga papel, wrapper ng candy, etc. better nang makalat ang bag wag lang ang paligid. :D

i'm tagging: anyone who wants to answer. i'm sure lahat kayo nakagawa na nito eh. hehe

updates sa buhay-buhay

Been quite busy the past few weeks. And I missed my blog and blogging. I just check it while I can to see if there are people visiting my site. Awa naman ng diyos meron naman. (salamat!) anyway, a few updates on what has happened to me and my boys…

 Keon’s finally baptized after so much delay. Last june 9. It was a very simple event, as in close family and friends. One thing that I didn’t like was the fact that we were not informed by the church that we were supposed to bring our own candles. Siyempre assuming kami that as part of the payment for the baptism, we will be supplied with candles. But no… bad trip talaga since nagmukha kaming mga engot kasi wala kaming dalang kandila. Ano ba yun di ba? So, ang nangyari eh, pinahawak na lang kay aishi yung gigantic paschal candle, as representation. Ang saya di ba? Ang isa pang nakakaloka eh, nung bubuhusan na ng tubig si keon, eh itong pari (which is vietnamese by the way – kwento to follow) eh pawang pinaliguan ang anak ko kaya ayun, pati mata, nalagyan ng tubig. Nagpigil na lang ako kasi gusto ko siyang umbagan. Tama ba naman kasing ubusin yung tubig sa bata? Eh dapat “trickle” lang ang ilalagay sa bumbunan. Ayun, kawawang keon, nagwawala…

So yun nga, si paring vietnamese… wala kaming naintindihan sa kanya. Since vietnamese nga, wala kaming naintindihan sa kanya. Ang nakakatawa pa eh ang pag pronounce niya ng Satan eh ganito: SA-TAN. At sino naman si Sa-tan?? Bwahahaha!

After ng mga nakakabaliw ng incident sa simbahan, smooth sailing na. deretso na dencios para kumain. Saktong tanghalian so masaya ang lahat. After kumain at naguwian na ang mga guests, nagstay pa kami ni aishi and the ninongs and ninangs. Yung mga chikiting ko, pinauwi ko na at pinatulog. Kawawa naman eh. Inaantok na. so dun muna sila sa mga inlaws ko. Kami naman nagstay sa dencios until 530 or so. At doon nabuo ang plano na mag outing dahil long weekend. 

 The long weekend getaway… silip na lang kayo sa multiply ko para sa mga pictures.  basta, masaya siya at finally nakahabol sa mga natitirang araw ng summer. At ako’y umitim naman. Yun nga lang ngayon eh nawawala na ang sunburn ko at bumabalik na ako sa dati kong kulay. Kainis!!

 I’m back to working. 3 weeks na ako dito sa company as a marketing officer. Hindi ko pa pwede sabihin kung ano kasi hindi pa siya na-launch. Confidential pa eh. Pero masaya naman ang work. Makukulit ang mga tao tulad sa dati kong work, minus the backbiting nga lang (well… we’ll never know. Mawawala ba yun sa isang trabaho?) siyempre kahit 3 weeks pa lang ako eh babad na rin sa dami ng trabaho. Kaya pa naman ang work, sa totoo lang nageenjoy ako. Bagong challenge eh. At least in the coming days eh may reason nanaman ako para may ma-blog di ba?

 Mukha nanaman akong boy. Short nanaman ang buhok ko. Hehehe. We brought kyle to cuts for tots to have his haircut and nainggit naman kami ni aishi. So nagpagupit din kami. Siyempre feel na feel ko ang short hair ko. As in wash and wear lang kaya tipid din sa shampo. Hehehe imaginin nyo na lang ang itsura dahil hindi ako magpost ng pictures. Hahaha! Unless magkita tayo sa daan. :P

happy sad

i couldn't think of a better title than that. i was, and still am in a rollercoaster of emotions. happy one moment, sad the next. although i try not to dwell on the sad side of what happened to our week. and blogging about it would bring closure, for me.

> kyle had his fair share of yayas in his "lifetime" he hasn't reached two yet but he had been taken care of 6 yayas. the most recent one being the 6th. we found it quite amusing that all his yayas stayed for more or less 6 months with us. para bang nag probi lang sa amin anyway, speaking of yayas. there was this yaya kyle had that stayed with us for about 9 months. initially she was very maasikaso with kyle. we thought she would stay longer. but things took a sudden turn and she showed her true colors. she was the type of yaya that would get mad if she didn't get her way. as in nakasimangot siya the whole day kung bad trip siya sometimes for reasons we don't even know. one vivid memory i had of this attitude was when aishi and i arrived late to pick up kyle from our in laws. imagine the first face you see upon entering the house is that yaya's face all scowls and frowns. sinong hindi maiinis nun di ba? apparently, she was in a foul mood because we came late to fetch them which meant that she has to go to bed much later than her usual time.

basta nainis talaga ako sa kanya nun. after nun, halos everyday na lang siyang galit. then our ever loyal taga laba ang plantsadora, told us that she found kyle's yaya really weird. her moods are more crazy than a pendulum's. one minute she's mad, crying, happy, depressed and very hard to talk to.

but things get more juicy from here. (disclaimer: this is just an account, it does not mean that i believe in such things also) based from one of my in-law's helpers, this yaya admitted that she dabbles in witchcraft. if you want to know more details about this, i'll create another entry entirely about this incident. better explained in tagalog for more emphasis and feelings.

> we've been staying with our in laws for almost a week now. and staying with them wsa quite a torture for me since i miss our tv, our pc, the internet and sleeping much later than usual with kyle. i just don't like the feeling that you're in the same house with your sons but you only get to see them when they're sleeping. i feel so ineffective as a mother when your sons are just within your reach yet other people are taking care of your sons. but then again, i have a valid reason why this happened..

> my lola which i talked about in my previous entry passed away last may 30. after being confined for almost a week. she finally let go. maybe because she didn't want to burden her children anymore. we're happy that she's happy now with her hubby. sad, because we don't have lola honey anymore to visit. no more endless food when we go to her house. no more laing to eat with bread. no more special sopas for me..

i heard the news from my brother who texted me if we're going home that night. he texted me this way: "ate, kakain ba kayo dito? nga pala, wala na si lola, namatay na siya nung 4pm." at that time i just woke up from my nap with keon. i wasn't even done deleting the message when i just broke down. i immediately called my mom and my bestfriend.

while at the wake, the first time i went there i was doing everything i can to delay looking at her in a casket. i had this bitter knotted feeling in my stomach and throat. i was having a hard time dealing with the loss. after much prodding from aishi, before we left for home, i finally looked at her. and broke down. i had a good cry for about 10 mins standing there, talking to her. telling her how i'm going to miss her so much. thanking her that she was able to keep her promise of seeing her first great grandchild, she even saw her second. her face was so peaceful. literally para lang siyang natutulog. even in death she still looked beautiful.

come the next day, i was at the wake again. i approached my mom and told her i dreamt about lola. in my dream she was wearing blue. the last garment i saw her wearing during my uncle's despedida. she was sitting down and she told me: "wag ka na iyakin, happy na ako" she was saying this with a smile. after that, i can't remember the dream anymore. but that part was the most vivid one. after telling my dream to my mom, she mentioned that my cousin, the youngest among the grandkids. i'm the eldest by the way, dreamt about lola too. this time she gave her a kiss and with her was her hubby (when our lolo passed away, i was the only grandchild then) and they were floating upwards and waving at her. it was funny that lola only made her presence felt to me and my youngest cousin. lolo after he passed away when i was 1, also visited me that time. in short, kami lang talaga ang binisita ng lolo at lola namin.

after that dream, i stopped crying for the loss of my lola. i'm now happy she's happy and in a better place. i've got another angel to look after me and my family.

> and i guess this is with my lola's help, i'm back at work. today's m second day as an internet marketing officer. the pay's good, the environment's relaxed and stress free even if there's a lot to do. i'm just thankful i was able to get a job just in time with my self imposed deadline as written in my planner to have a job by june. and here i am. what's more, my office is near our house so i could come home early and see my kids.

> as for keon, he's getting bigger and smarter by the day and every inch as kulit as his kuya kyle. i'm excited for saurday to arrive since we'll be celebrating his baptism, after much delay.

kuya kyle (which i call him now) is still learning new words everyday. he can now say his name after me. he'll repeat it as "kay huuuu" aka kyle hung last night while putting him to sleep, he learned a new word. i taught him his dada's name. when aishi came home last night, imagine his surprise to hear kyle call him dada titoy aka dada pitoy with matching big smile. next would be teaching him to say my name, that would be tonight's assignment.

click moments with kyle

click moments with keon

if the images doesn't load just click on the tab with the view all pictures. something's up with rock you i guess... :)

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dada and his boys :)

papayag ba siya kung hindi mag smile si keon?

kyle and keon

who's who?? :P

ewan ko na lang kung may magkamali pa dito... :P

and the days couldn't get any worse...

a lot has happened the past few days that i cant seem to catch up with myself...

kyle the toddler... entering the terrible twos..

yes, my little boy has turned into a walking tantrum lately. it's either he's crying his eyes out, throwing his toys around the house, refusing to drink his milk like before and even refusing to eat lunch and dinner no matter how tasty i prepared his food. it's been stressful, yes, handling a toddler with spontaneous emotions. one minute he's all sweet and cute and funny, the next he's a little monster on two feet. sometimes i just want to get mad and shout at him but i, knowing full well that it's not his fault. he's just a kid, would it matter to him if i get mad? no, he'll still continue to cry and be more frustrated at something that's bothering him that he can't fully express yet.

so, this is the part where i learned to breathe and let him be. until the tantrums fade. although, i do forget myself and resort to bribery just so he can eat and finish his food and milk.

actually the real struggle between kyle and i are usually during mealtimes. i'm lucky if i get him to sit down and finish his bowl in one sitting minus the crying. right now, i'm doing my research and finding ways to make mealtimes more appealing to him. if it means cooking all day, then fine, i'll do it. if it means making him healthy pizzas and burgers and sandwhiches and pasta and pretend we bought it from jollibee, then GO!!

and i sure hope this phase ends soon... oh, wait... i have to go through it again, with keon! hahaha

blackout / brownout.. who cares? basta walang kuryente!!

last friday, i woke up around 4 to feed keon when poof! it all went dark. nag brownout. i though how will the kids sleep properly now? they'll be swimming in their own sweat in a matter of minutes! i was really fuming and hoping that the power comes back soon. well, the power did come back, at 11am!! so from 4am until the sun was up, i was fanning my two boys like they were liempo on a grill. kyle was sleeping wearing only his diaper and keon was on his crib, shirtless too.

and when we thought it was over, come 730pm, it happened again. aishi and i decided it was time to bring the kids to mandaluyong. it was too much to bear already seeing them sweating and obviously uncomfy. and the next day, kyle was sporting the latest trend for the summer... prickly heat.

sunday morning

we were still in manda that sunday. aishi and i planned to bring kyle to manila zoo to see some animals. and what better time to bring kyle there, after lunch!! hahaha imagine us three walking around and sweating our heads off. yes, we were that excited to go to manila zoo. the afternoon sun was next to nothing, just to see the animals there. and the best part was, kyle didn't care if he was sweating. he got to see pampa (elephant) and as a "treat" he got to see it poop too before leaving. all throughout the car ride home, he says "pampa, poo poo" hahaha

another funny bit: i asked kyle to call out to the monkeys and wake them up. and guess what he said: "DADA!!" hahaha imagine the inis of aishi when he heard that. :)

and on a sad note...

my lola honey has been diagnosed with stage 4 cancer of the colon. it was too late already to treat it. and when i saw her during my uncle's (her 2nd to the youngest) despedida, she had become too frail and thin and was in a wheelchair since she isn't that mobile anymore and she gets tired easily.

anyway, my mom brought her to the hospital last saturday since my lola was found to have a fever and was already too weak to even eat. she couldn't get the food down anymore so they had to insert a feeding tube through her nose.

that sunday, before we left for manila zoo. i got to call my mom and ask how lola honey's been doing. mama said she was weak and couldn't speak anymore, you have to speak a bit louder for her to hear you and she could only reply by moving her eyebrows. i asked my mom if i could talk to her and personally tell lola to get well (lola doesn't know how serious her sickness is, para she won't worry ). when my mom placed the phone to her ear and i greeted her, i was even happy to greet her. but the reply i got was the whrrr of the feeding tube. right then and there i crumbled and cried my eyes out. half of me was falling to pieces because i know we got a few moments left before lola leaves us for good and just the thought of that has made me cry so hard. io couldn't even get my words straight. lola was actually hearing me cry while talking to her. i actually told her "wag mo muna ako iiwan, hindi ko kaya lola. wag muna please" i could hear her trying to speak but it made it more worse for me and i cried harder. i realized that i could not bear the thought of losing someone. i won't be able to cope with it at all. not this time.

another half of me was silently praying to god to take care of lola honey and not prolong her pain and suffering anymore. i'm happy she was able to see her 2 great grand kids. i could not even describe the glow of happiness in her eyes when she saw kyle and keon. deep down i know she was happy and proud of me and mama.

mama actually accepted the fact that she can go anytime, they actually given lola her last rites already. i just hope that if she does decide to go, she'll be asleep and peaceful.

right now, as i'm typing, the tears had started to flow again. it's just painful to see someone you love so much suffer andyou know that they can go anytime. seriously, i really don't know how i'll be on that day. i might not be able to look after my kids. i just want to stay in my room and cry my eyes out.

please include my lola honey in your prayers that if it's her time to go, let it be peaceful and that god will receive her with open arms beside my lolo....

keon at 3 months

my little bunso at three months old.. :)

shhh... wag maingay... tulog si bossing. :)

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In the motherhood

i was watching ellen last week and her guest was leah remini (king of queens) and she mentioned about this site. www.inthemotherhood.com and it was a great site for mothers to share anything about being a mom and raising kids. i think this site was just recently put up and seems new. but it's great going over the site. if you have friends who are mothers too, share with them the site. maybe one day we mothers here in the philippines will be recognized as being part of this site.

and i'm doing my part too.

isn't motherhood great?

just a short one...

i'm hoping that by the time july rolls by and kyle turns two, i'm already working and helping out my hubby with the expenses. i tried out to be a housewife and i'm enjoying every day with my two kids but deep inside, the call to work is hard to miss.

and i sure hope, i get one of those calls soon. :)

then i can start planning our future properly...

more keon!!

finally!

after days of unbearable heat and being sticky after just taking a shower, it finally rained!! at least ngayon kahit paano eh masarap ang simoy ng hangin. and finally, kyle and keon can sleep longer during the afternoon.

this is the time that i can say i love the rain...

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my mom bought a weighing scale for reasons i don't know. but we have been weighing ourselves like crazy. although we don't get fazed with what the scale tells us. we have tried to weigh ourselves carrying kyle, keon, and some random object at home. now that's crazy. :)

but just to share, i'm weighing 120lbs now. i'm hoping to lower it to 115, but that would be impossible since all i do here at home is eat and sleep. literally buhay baboy, so how can that happen? hahaha masarap kumain at matulog eh!

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welcome back ple from singapore!! congrats and you somehow conquered your fear of flying :) next time naman try mo papuntang europe or sa US, mas matagal ang flight dun. i'm sure kaya mo na un.

hugs to you!! na miss din kita ha!! mabubuhay na ang drama sessions natin!!

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kung may nagbabasa pa ng blog ko, isama nyo naman ako sa mga prayers nyo na sana masagot tong hiling ko. salamat!!

keon at 2 months!

how time flies and my little bunso is 2 months old already, and he's grown into a chubby litle boy.

keon at 2 months old:

he has finally learned to smile when we make our silly faces at him.

and of course, kuya kyle when he was 2 months old:

do they look alike? :)