not a good day today

i really don't want to go into the details of what happened last night. i'll leave that to those whom i really trust. i don't want to turn this into a big drama and focus all the attention to myself, because it's not about me. it's about us.

i'm just trying to get through the day and hopefully not break down. i really don't want to go back to that sad place called depression. i'm over that. i've moved on. i've learned not to be depressed and stay all cooped up in my own world. thankfully the people i wanted to talk to were there and kept me sane. i'm done crying, i've learned that crying does not help in getting things done. it just prolongs the pain and makes the wounds deeper. it's not even a band-aid solution.

yes, we will get through this, in time and i hope soon. i don't want to think about it anymore considering that it will be kyle's birthday next week. by the time the new week rolls in, it's good vibes once again.

so much for kicking the habit, but this incidnet really calls for a yosi break. seriously.

physically we're ok. but mentally, we're drained and traumatized...

and for that, this will be the only entry for today.