I would like to make a confession...
i am a die hard harry potter fan. the books and the movie.
i was able (finally) to watch the movie with my hubby and our best friends last thursday at greenbelt 3. it's really fun to watch good movies with good friends, makes the whole movie watching experience better.
i'm not going to delve into the whole movie review kind of thing because it's going to be a one big biased movie review. so what's the point right?
so anyway, as i said it was a fun experience with good friends and my hubby who, by the way, never read the book, but watched all the movies. funny thing was, i arranged him to be seated next to cj so that if he ever gets confused on what's happening and if he ever asks, i'm sure cj would be more than glad to explain it to him. at first, he was asking cj and cj was explaining and providing a little background to the new characters in the movie. but as the movie progressed, aishi was asking me already! but nonetheless, i was able to answer his questions. in between the movie, there was this funny bit in the movie where there was this kid who laughed out loud after everybody had finished laughing, which resulted in colby and i laughing harder and louder. i had a feeling that we were the ones who laughed the loudest. cute kid! whoever he/she is. after the movie ended, i saw that aishi enjoyed himself. but convincing him to read the book still ended in vain... unless the book had pictures, for sure he'll read it. hehe sorry aishi!
on a side note, before the movie started, there are previews right? and there's this absolutely funny cartoon that i'm dying to watch again with my good friends. i forgot the title but it sure did involve a lot of penguins! aishi and i sure had a lot of laughs watching the preview. one laugh trip movie to look forward to!! (if someone would depict on what would penguins look like if they're high, then this is it! )
*** i have a feeling the actor who played cedric looks a bit gay to me.
*** i never imagined cho chang to have a very different and weird accent. i never heard someone with a british/scottish/irish accent say "sorry" so much for dialogues huh? actually it sounded like "sourrey". you get the picture...
*** everybody looked sooo grown up!
*** miranda richardson played a good rita skeeter, sad though they didn't include in the movie how they turned her into a bug/insect. i still imagine her as queen mab in merlin though... such a great acttress! bravo!!
*** rey fiennes (sp) played a great lord voldemort. bald and noseless and all,he still looks hot hot hot! hehe but he sure did scare me...
*** can't wait for the next movie!!!
Motherhood, Parenting and Everything in between
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
who me?
My name is: haze
I may seem: mataray at first, but once you get to know me, you're in for a fun ride!
People who know me think: that i'm their second mommy
If you knew me you’d probably: spend the whole day with me drinking coffee, reading a good book and sharing some ciggies
Sometimes I feel: like i need to get out
My days are pretty: and extremely fun when i'm with kyle
Yesterday: i spent quality time with my grandma
In the morning I: have a hard time waking up early
I like to sleep: with my 4 pillows and covered by my blanket
If I could be doing anything right now I would be: playing with kyle the whole day and making him laugh out loud
Money: i need more money! hehe
One thing I don’t have that I wish I did is: an ipod nano!!
One thing I have that I wish I didn’t is: procrastinating
All you need is: love (cheesy pero totoo di ba?)
All I need is: more time with my family
If I had one wish it would be: a better high paying job and a good business
Love is: kyle and my aishi
If I could see one person right now it would be: my lola darling
Something I want but I don’t really need is: more shoes, bags and clothes
I live for: everyday being with kyle
I am afraid of: the dark and losing my loved ones
It makes me angry when: people don't come on time
I dream about: a good and comfortable life for my family
I daydream about: anything and everything
Friday, November 25, 2005
Kyle is really his father's son...
i was bored one day here in the office and decided to experiment on some of the pictures that i have of aishi and kyle. and here is the result...
had this as my ym avatar for more than two weeks. hehe
funny and endearing at the same time.
i love my boys.. =D
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
one toffee nut latte to go please....
i texted my bestfriend a while ago about some pressing issues on what is going on in my life now. right now, she's the only one i could trust. she's the only one that understands and gives the perspective that i need. in this ever turbulent world that i am in, she's my anchor. she was always there. even if we don't see each other on a regualar basis and she's just 4 floors down. i know she's there.
i know when i am with her. i am myself and she accepts who i am. i don't need to pretend that i am a different person so that she could accept me. she knows when's the right time to listen and when to share what she feels. hell, we're actually on the same boat.
i told her that i felt like a ghost. i felt like that lone leaf flying away in the breeze, no one notices it until they look at it closely. i feel microscopic. unnoticed. not that i am craving attention, now that is different. how am i going to put it nicely yet mysterious so as not to step on anyones feelings? it's just that the feeling of being left out is so overwhelming. it feels like the one typecasted as a nobody still gets attention because everybody knows that he/she is a nobody. i'm way beyond that. i'm like a nobody's nobody. ask the nobody and he/she wouldn't know that i exist. i don't belong.
how would you feel if everybody's planning this grand shebang and planning it infront of your face and wouldn't even have the decency to even acknowledge you. tp put it more bluntly, dinadaandaanan lang ako. i have ears too you know. i was gifted with the sense of hearing just like everybody else. sometimes people can be proud that having their noses all up in the air, they can't see where they are going and who they are stepping on. what pride does to the normal human being... baffling really.
i really don't want to vent out tonight when i know that aishi is up there in baguio and there's no one to come home to and receive a nice warm hug that says "it's gonna be alright" and i'm sure my son senses that his mommy is not having the best time of her life either...
aishi come home na... i miss you so much...
what's in my playlist on repeat mode...
Bonnie Bailey
V.1
PURELY INETENSE AMAZING
EXQUISITELY DEVASTATING
I'M IN A DAZE AND I'M
DRENCHED IN OUR MOMENT
SUDDENLY LIFE IS SPECTACULAR
A DECADE FULL CIRCLE BROUGHT ME BACK TO YOU
ALWAYS THE BOY WITH THE YELLOW ROSE
I JUST COULD NOT FORGET
CHORUS:
AND I FEEL SAFE NOW
THATS WHERE I WANT TO BE I
CAN BREATHE IN THIS SERENITY I
WILL CHASE DOWN BOTH ARE ARMIES
NO MORE HISTORICAL CALAMITY HERE
NO MORE HISTORICAL CALAMITY HERE
V.2
YOU INSPIRE ME FIERCELY
RECONCILE NEGATIVETY
MY FEAR I PLACED BEFORE THE UNION OF TWO
RELENTLESS IN YOUR CHIVALORY
LOVE TO LICK YOUR LIPS SO THANKFULLY
ALWAYS THE BOY WITH YELLOW ROSE
PEACOCK FEATHER AND BABIES BREATH
CHORUS
V.3
MY VISION IS TO FOLLOW THROUGH
I PATIENTLY WAITED THIS LONG FOR YOU
SO COMPLETELY CONSUMED
GOD YOURE BEAUTIFUL
THE WHOLE WORLD FADES IN A CROWDED ROOM
A DECADE FULL CIRCLE BROUGHT ME BACK TO YOU
ALWAYS THE BOY WITH THE YELLOW ROSE
I JUST COULD NOT FORGET
Monday, November 21, 2005
100 things about Haze..
1. i'm a coffee addict. i can't live without coffee
2. i can stay in my room the whole day just reading
3. i can finish a book in one sitting as long as the story's good
4. i tend to forget eating if i'm really engaged in the book that i'm reading
5. i'm a big crybaby
6. i'm a big daddy's girl
7. i love eating champorado with cheese!
8. i'm absolutely terrified of flying cockroaches. (mas madali silang patayin gamit ang slippers pag gumagapang lang sila)
9. i never rode a rollercoaster in my life.
10. because i'm terrified of riding one. but i plan to face my fear one of these days
11. i hate cleaning bathrooms
12. i love to learn to cook but the skill doesn't like me hehe
13. i am not skilled in domestic chores
14. i love eating potato chips and make that cheese and sour crream please!
15. i can be a couch potato if i want to
16. i am currently addicted in buying baby clothes and things for kyle
17. i can't watch tv sitting, i prefer watching lying down
18. i'm a frustrated writer
19. i have tons of notebooks lying around in my room which i used as my journals when i was younger
20. i'm planning to take up my mba next year. hopefully!!
21. i'm a big scaredy cat
22. i get really pissed off when people cut in line
23. i have road rage... and i don't know how to drive yet..
24. i am obsessed with my KYLE and KEON
25. i can't sleep if aishi's not yet home
26. i am one big jealous wife
27. i was once mistaken as a tomboy freshman year in highschool.
28. i have more guy friends than girls
29. i am more comfortable being with guys than girls
30. i love the color purple and anything with purple
31. but i hate eating ube ice cream, ube macapuno to be exact
32. sometimes i love to procrastinate
33. i have prescription glasses but i don't wear them at all
34. when i was i kid, i loved having my picture taken, i have 4 albums to prove it
35. i can easily memorize songs. i just have to hear it 3-4 times
36. i can't poo without smoking
27. i really laugh out loud and non stop
38. it's so easy to make me laugh
39. i'm one bad manlalait na tao.
40. i had this tradition before that i grow my hair long just in time for graduation then chop if all off after.
41. i'm really scared of the dark
42. at 25 years old i still sleep with a night light on
43. i sleep with the blanket covering me from head to foot. (imagine a human lumpia! )
44. i have a secret hiding spot for the chips that i bring in my room which i don't share
45. i don't keep my shoes inside their respective boxes
46. i love mayonnaise on almost anything
47. i have low tolerance for beer
48. the record that i have for tequila shots is 7 and i'm just sober
49. i love writing with a fine tipped pen
50. aishi tells me that i'm pikon
51. i have this ability to save money (which right now is on hold due to increasing expenses and stagnant salary)
52. i have my OC tendencies and moments
53. i'm learning photoshop and flash in the hopes of getting a racket which would be a great source of income!
54. i have a hard time shopping for shoes. i have to find that perfect pair
55. i usually buy shoes that are square toed
56. i am t-shirt and jeans type of girl
57. but i do own a few kikay girly clothes
58. i love the beach and basking in the sun with of course a good book
59. i'm a ym addict. i love chatting with friends
60. i went through the boy band phase in highschool.
61. i love collecting magazines
62. i hate it when people arrive late even when there's an agreed time.
63. i hate waiting for people
64. i hate being late and avoid (try as i might) to come early for work
65. i can stay the whole day in starbucks with coffee and a good book
66. i stayed in powerbooks the whole day and finished a book without buying it
67. my handwriting depends on my mood
68. i can't sleep without my 4 pillows
69. i miss sleeping beside aishi (that would be a different blog entry)
70. i hate it when people send sms with abbreviated words. i have a hard time reading and decoding it
71. the bed that i slept on when i was single was my grandma's bed, including the matress
72. when i cry, i can't breathe
73. i prefer to spend my luch breaks with my bestfriend
74. nail polish does not last long on my nails.
75. i love watching horror movies... as long as it's in the morning. haha
76. you would never see me wear a dress unless it's someone's wedding
77. i love to blog hop and read other people's thoughts
78. i had this thing before of making little kids cry
79. my relationship with my mom is better now.
80. i plan to continue my jewelry crafts thing and turn it into a business
81. i don't lend my books to people i know would put creases on the book spine. i want my books to look brand new always
82. i have this thing when i'm in other people's houses, i clean up, but when i'm at home... well..
83. i hate confrontations
84. i hate fights/quarreling with other people
85. i love to window shop and just look around
86. i can't think without music
87. music is part of my life
88. i have so much baby pictures that are too embarassing to share
89. i want to learn to play the drums and the guitar
90. i don't like rice that is "buhaghag". i love the malata kind
91. i love kare-kare, sinigang, adobo, mechado and anything with sarsa to go with my malata rice
92. i have a hard time buying the right bra for my bust size
93. i'm not much of a vitamin drinker. but in the state and age that i am in, i should.
94. my bag is full of candy wrappers and pieces of paper. at least i don't litter anywhere
95. if i'm not in the mood, i'm not in the mood. it shows in my face
96. i want to go back to baguio. the last time i went there was when i was in 2nd grade.
97. rumor has it that our batch in college won't get our yearbook anymore... BOO!
98. i miss my highschool life where everything was plain and simple. no drama at all.
99. i'm learning so much about being a parent and my mom says i'm doing a good job at it.
100. 7 stickers to go and i've got the Starbuck's 2006 planner!! wheee!!!
and there you go, 100 things about me... whew! that was a lot to think about! if you want to do a 100 things about you go ahead! have fun!
which neil gaiman book are you?
You are Coraline! You are quirky, strange, and
charming. Some people may find you a little
alarming and not always get you... But they can
piss off, right? You are the kind of person who
always needs to be entertained, otherwise you
get uncomfortable. You probably still enjoy
everything you did when you were little, such
as childrens books and Disney movies. Youre fun
to be around and are usually the life of the
party.
* freaky shit. this is sooo true! i love to dwell on the good ol days when we were innocent and care free. how much i miss my childhood days. i vowed to myself that i will never forget these memories. after all, these are the things that molded me into who i am now. i may think about what others think about me but at the end of the day, it's usually, i-don't-give-a-shit-what-you-think-this-is-my-life-piss-off thing.
this is truly amazing!!
by the way, coraline is a good read too. not your regular bedtime story kind of book. might scare the daylights out of little kids. if you have great imagination, this would be the fuel for your imaginative engine!
cheerie-o!
if i were a book...
this would definitely be the review...
"A scary, strange, and hallucinogenic road-trip story wrapped around a deep examination of the spirit."
yeah, that would be damn cool... describes a bit of what's going on in my life now...
some road trip, and i don't know the destination and where the road will end.
tsch.
Being Single Top Tens by CJ
Posting a journal entry made by CJ. To all the single people out there, i'm sure you can relate to this. For more interesting entries, visit his zorpia site http://www.zorpia.com/cajut
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posted: nov. 9, 2005
I've been single for a while now and I'm just beginning to appreciate the nice things about not having "that special someone." And after more than 5 years in and out of different relationships here are my top ten things I like about being single.
10) "License to look" – Finally free to blatantly mentally undress any girl who passes my way without guilt, remorse or someone pinching my side and throwing a fit. And girls, don't be offended. It's just looking.
9) "B-movie madness" – I don't care if it stars Steven Segal and DMX. Once in awhile I want to watch stupid movies and enjoy nothing but insanely impossible action stunts of absurdly green humor.
8) "The fastest way around a mall is a straight line" – No more side trips to look at the cutsie puppies at the window. No more sitting at the infamous "guys sofa" in girlie boutiques. No more trying on stuff you ain’t gonna buy anyway. It's just go in, buy it, get out!
7) "The TV remote is not a two player device" – Soap operas can go down the drain and the lifestyle channel can croak! Finally shameless patronage of WWE and The Manshow. And I can enjoy my favorite NBA game without explaining the rules 90% of the time.
6) "Why is my cell phone bill so small?" - no more 20 minute arguments over the cell. No more peeking whenever I get a text message. And more importantly, no more explaining the fact: "Just because I didn't text you doesn't mean I don't love you!"
5) "My brain can only remember so details" - Anniversaries, Monthsaries, her friends birthdays, anniversaries and monthasires. Place we first met, place we first kissed, place where I proposed, place where she wants to get married. Favorite color, favorite song, favorite food, favorite church, favorite movie, favorite aunt. Shoe size, cup size, dress size, serving size….my head hurts…no longer.
4) "My only monthly visitor is my insurance agent." – I can finally have my own mood swings and tantrums. PMS no longer constitutes a reason to be bitched upon. And when a girl tells me "I have." I immediately think of drugs.
3) "Movie sideshow appreciation" – I can finally snicker at other couples trying to make out in movie house, because I’m not doing it myself. Its fun really, especially if you catch the guy with his zipper open after the movie or the girls blouse not buttoned up properly.
2) "Who are you with? What time are you going home?" – I already have one mother. Don't need another one breathing down my neck every time I go out without her. No more "reporting to commander" coz I’ve gone AWOL.
1) "Thou shalt not bear false witness against thy girlfriend." – I'm a better Christian now. Don't have to lie to questions like: "Am I fat?" "Do you like my hair?" "What do you think about Orlando Bloom?" "Does this dress make me look cheap?" "When do you want to get married?" "Am I the love of your life?"
So there. I'm sure any girl who reads this can easily make their own version of the girls single top ten things. But this is my personalized list. To y'all couples. Enjoy it. But rest assured that the single life isn't that bad either.
Friday, November 18, 2005
that big elephant in the middle of the room
try as you might to ignore it and think that everything would be better in a blink of an eye, it's hard when there's this big grey elephant in the middle of the room. i guess for you moving on from what happened yesterday was easy as taking a piss.
it's not for me. i was the one who got hurt.
you can't expect me to say everything is ok when i know it's not. i need time to recover and figure out what happened. let the others say it was just a practical joke.
i don't see anyone laughing. i don't feel like laughing.
i've shed so much tears yesterday. some poeple might have seen me. but i don't care. i was in my own little world. i was left vulnerable and alone. for that brief moment i was alone. it reached to the very core of my being.
i could not describe the pain and the hurt i felt when i saw it. in an instant it felt like the whole world came crashing down on me and no one was there to save me. it was as if they were only watching me drown and sink slowly to the bottom.
i've been telling myself that i know it wasn't your fault but it's hard to erase the fact that i was the one who got hurt from a not so innocent prank. this has happened before but i let those incidents pass. but why is it now when you were not the one to blame, i got hurt the more?
i'm not blaming you for being too kind and friendly with everybody else. but you should know that you can't treat everybody equally with your friendliness. i've warned you so many times, some people can and will misinterpret your kindness and friendliness differently from the way you treat them.
i apologize if i've been cold towards you today, but just give me time to heal and sort things out on my own and i'll assure you everything would be better soon. but i can't promise it will be the same just like before in the following weeks. i've learned to keep my guard up and protect myself from being hurt again.
i just hope you do your share...
Thursday, November 17, 2005
my ym status
umagang umaga eto ang mababasa ko... sana mamatay na ang mga malalanding tao sa mundo...
long story.
will post why soon..
coffee moments with my ple
thank god for my bestfriend, her hugs and good ol coffeee... i feel a bit better today.
will make kwento what happened once i get to iron things out by tonight.
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
something to look forward to...
this is just so exciting!! this would be the third year i'm going to collect those precious stickers from starbucks to get the much awaited 2006 planner. before any of you would jump to the conclusion that i'm willing to spend around 3k+ worth of coffee just to get a planner that i can also get from the nearest bookstore... well it's beyond that.
getting this planner is more than just drinking coffee and spending a hundred pesos more than the 3 in one kind. it's more than that. aside from waiting all year to get this planner, i also get to make someone's christmas happy. it's not all about the material possession after the completion of the 21 stickers/coffee purchases, it's about bringing joy to someone this christmas. if i had more money to spend i would also buy that great big mug from starbucks, it's also part of their charity thing for christmas.
i still have 17 sticker to go... but i'm sure before december ends, i'm going to have that planner!! hehehehe
coffee=planner=good ol christmas cheer!
it works!
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
hooked and addicted
last saturday, aishi and i spent the weekend at my in-laws (his parents)in mandaluyong with our baby boy kyle. we went there so that kyle would spend some quality time with his grandparents and cousins. and hopefully for aishi and me to relax, more empahsis on me relaxing. hehehe
so anyway, out of the blue, aishi asked me if i would be interested to have a massage somewhere near their place. (there was this semi posh spa/massage place in shaw, which up to now i can't remember the name but once i see it, i know that's the place). i agreed knowing this would be a new experience for me.
never in my life did i experience getting a massage, except of course the one i got from a "hilot" after i gave birth. i was a bit hesitant in getting a massage because for one, i'm a very ticklish person.
so i braced myself for this experience and prepared for the "worst" hehehe.
i was proven wrong. in the hour that aishi and i were having our massage, (we were in a couple's room) i was in massage heaven!! the experience was soooo good it was indescribeable!! truly amazing! the oils that were used on my body was truly divine! minty and refreshing. one hour was truly bitin! this is just a body massage, what more if it would include those facials and scrubs! i might opt not to leave that place!
after the session... my back felt lighter, the tension at the base of my neck gone and i feel rejuvenated! and the whole experience made me really sleepy. actully during the session, i've been dozing on and off.
i'm sure going back to that place for more massages!! maybe this would be a monthly thing for me and aishi. and a great bonding experience even if we weren;t talking the whole time coz we were enjoying it. hahaha
i'm sooo addicted and hooked on getting a massage. it's better than a foot spa! hahaha
*mad props also to my "masahista". she's really great with her hands and i forgot to mention that she's pregnant! whoa! ang galing nya talaga! that's why i left a hefty amount of tip for her for all the efforts. she really deserves it. :)
i have to start planning when i'm coming back for that massage, maybe i'll get a facial too ^_^
