ranting

my mind just went blank like that... like staring at the static images on your tv screen.

i know there's so much to do but i'm too burned out today. a much as i want to eliminate delays and other procrastinating. it.just.can't.happen.

my brain just shut down for the day.

lost? tired? i guess so much has been happening in my mind lately that i can't focus properly. no proper direction whatsoever.

rest.. rest? never heard of that. i'm thinking i might die out of exhaustion earlier than expected and planned. (hah! as if death can be planned!)

boo to this friday and the thrusday and the wednesday and tuesday of this week. considering monday was a bit blah, it was much better than these days.

so much to do, doing nothing. what a paradox!

hiding from someone. from everybody. thinking everything is under control when it's not. thinking everything can fall into place, when it can't if i don't do anything.

keeping a huge dark secret. the time is just not right to let it out in the open. people can and definitely will react to this if word gets out. i could feel the judgement already. the talks behind my back. the speculations, the drama and all that shit. well whatever to you...

this week is just not right at all. things have gone wrong in my little space and seems everyone still wants a piece of that. what's left for me then?

*sorry i just felt like ranting and being a drama queen for a day... this is my blog naman eh! :P