kyle's album

finally uploaded all his pics (click on the title to view his album)

add him na rin sa friendster: bututuy_kyle@yahoo.com

I miss my highschool days in st. scho...

posting what was written in our '98 yearbook

5..7..12.. years. It doesn't feel as if it's enough. Especially the last four. Time passes by too quickly,faster than a New York minute, when you’re having fun. If you try to reach back into the deepest recesses of your mind, the life you've had would only seem like a blur (not unless you’re Will Hunting). Memories on top of each other, idealistic dreams blending with reality. One big choice haze with no beginning nor an end. Except for the radiant stardust we left in the best place we've ever been to - High School...

You and your friends are hanging out in your favorite tambayan, one of the mahogany trees. You were chatting excitedly about your new crush when the bell cuts you in the middle of your sentence. Your pals say "bye-bye" as they run to Troika Hall. And then you realize with a start that your first classroom for today is-gasp! - 311.

Zoom! You run like an Olympic sprint champion up the flights of stairs. You were in such a hurry; you fail to notice that there was still one more step to go. You trip over it and you now have a brand new bruise with five colors (blue, black, violet, red, and green) to add to your collection of school-related injuries. Not to mention the brain damage you got from Physics, Algebra, and Trigonometry.

Rrring! – Part 2. You're late. Again.

Now you stand at the very end of a perpetual line to the CSA's office. Why, you're just outside room 201.

"Anywhere is..."

After finishing your Physics assignment and elective report, you and your equally stressed-out barkada run to the cutlet steak stall - when you realize that the only thing you can eat from that store are pieces of onion and smearing of sauce. Sigh. Next stop, Pumpernickels - still no food that will be able to satisfy your excruciating hunger pangs. You jump from stall to stall, until you find yourself buying the same lunch you’ve had for the past 2 ½ weeks – saba con yelo.

"Anywhere is."

"Get her!"

You scamper away from the hot spot and hide behind a big trash can. The OPLAN:NO SWEAT has been going on for an hour, and so far, you've heard that a girl's been injured before the first 10 minutes were up, a platoon’s been defeated, two platoons have become mortal enemies fighting to the death, and some teachers have been arguing. As silently as you could, you creep towards a girl wearing the enemy's color. You snatch her hanky and show her your badge - 4-star general.

"Anywhere is."

You just can't believe it. Well, who can? It's finally graduation. The day which you were anxious to even dream about. The mass and commencement exercises proper passed you by like a haze. Even with your loyalty medal and diploma, you still feel so. Kulasa. You struggle to keep back the flood of tears because you don't want to ruin your make-up. But you can't, you just can't. You feel as if once you step out of St. Scho, you’d be lost - and gone forever. You break away from the recessional line and run off to hug your best friends. "I'm going to miss you", you cry. "Where will you study?" "Abroad," she answers, crying herself. You want to open your eyes from this nightmare because you will absolutely refuse to believe this is real. She is going so far away... "Goodbye," you choke. Will I ever see you again?

"Anywhere is."

"Go St. Scho!" you yell. "S-S-S-S-S-T-S-C-H-O!" Well, there's nothing like the good old Kulasa voice when cheering for your schoolmate. It's a built-in megaphone and sound system in one.

Suddenly, the game stops. Everyone is staring at you as though you were mad. "What did you say?" a player asks. "I dare you to say it again!" "I was cheering for St. Scho!" you retort. "Now, what's wrong with cheering for your school?" "Because," yells the girl, "you're not in St. Scho anymore!" She throws the ball at you and it hits you square in the face-hard. You are stunned, and you clumsily sprawl backwards on the floor. "Hey, are you okay?" asks the guy beside you. Guy??? But-. We're all girls here aren’t we? You open your eyes and look around. Your team is not the blue-and-white squad you’ve once cheered your lungs out for. Your barkada is not the bunch of friends you used to hang out with in one of the mahogany trees. And there are boys - real ones, not wannabes. Your head spins, your mind feels blank. You are aching all over not only because of the impact, but also because you're so confused. "Are you all right?" asks the guy again. But you can't answer. The sudden jolt back to reality is more painful than the hit.

"I'm lost - I'm anywhere else except St. Scho," you whisper.

"Anywhere is--"

Go!! ST. SCHO!!!

A trip to kyle's pedia

in just a week, kyle aka baby boy bututuy to his daddy, had gained 1 pound!!

from 2 saturdays ago he weighed 12 pounds and this saturday's check up he's now weighing at 13 pounds!!

for a two month old baby, he sure is a heavy one. all the more for me to call him my little piglet. all pink and cuddly and overflowing with cuteness

^_^

a really late blog post

i was supposed to document the last months of my pregnancy until the delivery but i never got to do so since i was really busy and lazy at the same time. but the opportunity came to finally write about it since our email server is busted and i can't do proper work without my email.
so anyway, on with the story...

first week of july

i was still in the office preparing my turnover report and making follow ups with my clients. i still had the energy to go to work since i was sure that i would give birth right on my due date which was on the 29th. i was being brought and fetched by aishi everyday. i was strictly prohibited to commute on my own. but there were unavoidable circumstances that i had to since if aishi had to leave for an out of town thing or he would be coming home late. good thing i have an office mate who lives near our place.

july 12

i was taking one day at a time at work since i had 2 false alarms already. but i was still confident that i would give birth end of july. i already filed my maternity leave as advised by my mom. left work the usual time and went on with the usual routines when i get home. come around 12 midnight, i started to have pains in my lower back and i was waking up to pee. this happened every hour or so. aishi was getting worried but i told him i was ok.

july 13 around 1030am

aishi was still at home with me. i was online chatting with my office mates. called my mom to tell her that i was having pains in my lower back earlier and i was peeing often. she told me that i "might" be in labor. she told me to check everytime i pee if i "showed" already, meaning if i had some pinkish mucous-y discharge. the moment that i felt like peeing, i checked, and there it was, a bloody show. i told aishi that i'm in labor already. called up my mom again. we waited for her to come home before we left for the hospital.

12:30 pm same day

i was already admitted into the hospital. i was being checked for the time being by the attending OB since at that time my OB was attending another delivery. the doctor was amazed at me coz i was really realxed and chatting with them. i was even asked if i was feeling the contractions, i had to say yes even if i really wasn't hehe.

1:30 pm

after an internal exam by my ob to check how far i was dilated, i was then transferred into the labor room. around 15 mins into chatting with the nurses and the interns, i felt that my water bag burst. beleive me when i say that when the water bag bursts, it DOES NOT feel like you just peed. it felt like all the fluids inside me came rushing out. so don't beleive those movies where a girl says her water bag broke and the water comes our trickling... the water RUSHES out!! after that surprising revelation, the pains began. from there i felt the pain. every contraction felt like i was being ripped apart. i had to squeeze one of the attending intern's hand to help ease the pain. i even remembered asking for my mommy and the doctor told me "nde na pwede mommy mo, mommy ka na rin noh" now, i find that really funny.

around 2-2:30 pm

after another IE, i was then transferred into the delivery room. this is it. the moment of truth. i was prepped, shaved down there, and i was asked to push...
i was creaming like hell (think typical pinoy movie where a woman is giving birth, ganun) and after 2-3 pushes...

i woke up in the recovery room around 5pm. hehehe

i totally forgot what happened. i think i passed out from all the pushing and from the delivery of kyle. but i was happy everything was over.

in the delivery room, i was also with another patient. she was there before me. but was already being prepped for a CS delivery. tigas kasi ng ulo ayaw mag push, nagalit tuloy si OB. after 10 mins or so in the recovry room, the same girl i was with was just being wheeled into the room. yan kasi ang kulit eh...

and from all that exciting roller coaster ride into the delivery room, i was able to see my baby boy.

and the bisitas came rushing in... hehehe

A Letter to an Angel..

It was a dreary October night when i met you. You were surprisingly different from the angels that i knew. somehow, in the few minutes that i met you i knew you were different. you were something special. there was this distinct aura in you that i knew would be very hard to miss. i knew we were meant to be together. the minutes passed into hours and you still enchant me with your presence. you were this warm blanket that enveloped me with undeniable comfort. i knew you were sent to me.

time stood still between us. the world around us seems to pass by in a fast blur. it was just me and you. in a blink of an eye, you came.

you caught me unaware. i was a different person before i met you. i thought tangible things are the only entities that existed. i didn't believe in things beyond comprehension co-exists with things that are. i never beleived in instances where the moment you meet that person, everything would totally change. i never knew life would be so much better. it's truly a blessing you came that fateful night. even in the storm, you were my sunshine. you were the sunrise of my life.

you brought out something in me that i didn't know i had. it was like someone opened a secret door. with you. i'm stripped of all the impurities and malice. you reached into the deepest parts of my existence. you filled an empty void.

you were that needle in the haystack.

but then, in a blink of an eye, you were gone. my world came crashing down on me. it was like being in my own funeral.it was like being stuck all alone in the rain. i was left shivering. alone and lonely. i then realized that i could not exist without you. you were the one who completed my soul. you were my sheild. i never realized that being with you was like holding fine sand in my hands. slowly you were slipping away...

i forgot to count the days since you left. i slowly watch the days turn into night over and over again. my heart was bursting with questions i know would never be answered. it makes me feel like i'm a tree slowling losing all my leaves. you took something special from me like a thief in the night. you were there one moment and gone the next even before i could reach out and touch you. even before i could say how happy you've made me.

you were gone. you were gone. vanished. erased from my life maybe forever. everytime i wake up, i always see the sunset. i'm wishing to see the sunset again... wishing to see you.

if you could hear me now, i'm trying to be happy. trying to live my life again, coping without you. but i know this would be a very long journey. you were part of me and now i lost you. there would never be anything the same as you even if they come by the thousands. you were rare. you were special.

was it my fault that i let you go?

maybe in the next lifetime i'll see you again. and from there, we can start over and this time, there's no letting go.

you are my angel and forever will be...

my blog's got a new look!!

changed the look of my blog. got tired of the old template. and i feel so damn proud of myself coz i edited the codes without the help of any techie person.

the power of cut and paste!! teehee!

feel free to comment on the look of my blog.

cheers!

^_^

First day funk... f*ck...

this is just so weird. i'm back at work and it feels like it's the first day of work. technically it is after being on leave for 2 months. but then it's different since a lot of things have changed since i have been gone. i can't relate to some of the jokes and stories. it's seems i have to befriend the people again to solidify the friendship and closeness that we once had when i was gone.

i find that really hard since i have this notion in my head that even if i hibernate for a long time, when i come back things would be the same the way i left it. but then, reality -wise, it's not. i have to adjust and not expect them to adjust for me. i was the one who "left" them for two months.

but really, i don't know where to start. i feel lost. alone and lonely at the same time. i've been so accustomed to the comforts and company that i had at home that being back here at work was a real shock to me. it felt like being doused with ice cold water. a big slap in the face for that.

right now being my first day at work, i don't know where to start. i'm groping in the dark. i don't know how to start my work. i don't know where to begin again. i don't know how to push through with my accounts. i can't monitor how they are moving since right now, someone's still handling my accounts and i'm not yet updated. i've been bored out of my wits for the last 7 hours. i've checked my email, my friendster, my multiply, surfed all the sites that i know, chatted with some people and i still have 2 hours to go before i leave the office.

part of me also wants to go home now and stay with my baby. part of me is thinking of quitting my job and being a full time mom to kyle. i want to spend each and every moment with him and see him grow up. when the time comes, i can go back to the corporate world. part of me also misses the times where i can go out every night and stay out late. things are different now, i can't stay out late as i used to, i can't go to every gimmicks as i used to. i have a son waiting for me to be home and spend time with. now, i have to choose the gimmicks that i go to. gimmicks will not be the same as it used to. i think, i can only go out if there would be a special occasion to attend.

i'm really stuck in the middle now. is it to go left or right? white or black? up or down?

Meet Kyle...

meet the source of all our happiness.. Kyle Xavier Yago Hung!



fresh from the nursery into my arms. ^_^



a month old sleeping baby piglet ^_^ cuteness!!!

for more pics of kyle, visit http://yagie.multiply.com

kung sa friendster may survey, dito rin!

three names you go by:
1. Haze
2. Yags
3. Yagie

three screen names you have had:
1. yagie17
2. yagiedoodles
3. nookie_nips

three physical things you like about yourself:
1. pimple free skin
2. Eyes
3. my boobs (advantages of being pregnant)

three physical things you don't like about yourself:
1. feet
2. height
3. my forehead

three parts of your heritage:
1. Filipino
2. Spanish
3. Chinese

three things that scare you:
1. the dark
2. flying cockroaches
3. heights

three of your everyday essentials:
1. Cell phone
2. planner
3. Wallet

three of your favorite musical artists:
1. incubus
2. the beatles
3. goo goo dolls

three of your favorite songs:
1. goodnight girl - wet wet wet
2. foolish heart - steve perry
3. any incubus song

three things you want in a relationship:
1. love
2. communication
3. trust

three physical things about the opposite sex that appeals to you:
1. eyes
2. lips
3. height

three of your favorite hobbies:
1. Reading books
2. Surfing the net
3. Playing bejeweled

three careers you're considering/you've considered:
1. dentist
2. writer
3. events coordinator

three places you want to go on vacation:
1. Palawan / boracay
2. London
3. Paris

three kid's names you like:
1. Kyle Xavier
2. Isha / Aisha
3. Mckenzie

three things you want to do before you die:
1. go around the world
2. go bungee jumping
3. ride a rollercoaster

three ways that you are stereotypically a boy:
1. I cuss like a sailor
2. I love billiards
3. I love to play with boy's toys

three ways that you are stereotypically a girl:
1. I am such a crybaby
2. I don't like yucky things
3. I can be kikay if i want to

three celeb crushes:
1. Michael J Fox
2. Michael J Fox
3. Michael J Fox

What are 5 things you enjoy doing when there's no one around you?
1. Writing
2. Watching TV
3. Reading
4. Sleeping
5. Eating

Name 5 things that lower your stress/blood pressure/anxiety level?
1. Playing with kyle
2. Billiards
3. 1 stick of cigarette
4. Coffee
5. Good books

the 2 month hibernation

after recovering from a two month hibernation aka my maternity leave, i'm finally back to join the corporate world and face the work that i left behind which piled up immensely. as if the "work" that i did being mommy to kyle isn't tiring... hehe hey, you don't hear me complaining here.

it just feels weird now. i'm back in my old chair, my old pc, my old office, but everything seems new. it feels like i'm the new employee here. after two months, things have changed here in the office. it's time to adjust and catch up...

but honestly, i would rather talk about kyle and how he's grown to be such an adorable little boy.

but that would be a different entry altogether. :)

when yagie met pitoy..

starbucks in december....

ever stared at the sky
surrounded by the explosion of the stars
mixed with your sigh
there,
i learned to touch you
i gave up forever to touch you
and so the song goes
that moment,
i learned to love you
i know you'd be mine
the night never wanted it to end
our moment began
and continued with
the flight of a single star

8/12/2004 3:41pm

i just heard iris play on one of my officemate's speakers and i remembered that december at starbucks with my aishi. how did it happen? i was hearing mass earlier and remembered that i left my wallet with aishi. dying to see him, i texted him that i need my wallet since i don't have any money that day. (take note, nde pa kami nun) the wallet thing was just a way to see him since i was with my parents and they could pay for whatever expense...

anyway, he agreed to bring my wallet to glorietta. i told him to meet me at starbucks (nde pa cya jologs nun). i told him to accompany me na rin since i was going to watch the fireworks display around 8pm. we ordered coffee and got to talk. we were talking about the googoo dolls and how much we love the song iris. the movie city of angels which up to now he never got to finish. then the topic shifted to falling stars. i told him i never saw a shooting star this early in the evening. he assured me i'll see one even if we have to stay longer at starbucks.

after all the conversations and the firework display, we wished to hear iris play either in the speakers of starbucks or in the speakers below... and wishing and waiting to see a shooting star. at that time i asked god for a sign that if he played iris and at the same time i see a shooting star, aishi is the one for me (baduy, pero sweet).

god was really good... after talking about it (iris and the shooting star), iris was played although i'm not sure from what speakers. we just stared at each other and laughed about having a "sixth sense". at the same time, we were just looking up and hoping to see a shooting star, well wouldn't you know it?! there was! and iris was playing...

and you know the rest of the story... :)