36 weeks and counting...

36 weeks... gosh... 4 more weeks to go and i'm carrying this baby to term already.

current state: feeling a bit tired. i'm having pains in my back and in the lower part of my legs. kyle's a bit hyper now. my belly ached a while ago but i doubt if i'm in labor. i don't feel any contractions. i just feel like i have an upset stomach. still assessing what's up with my tummy and back right now.

tummy a bit stiff. hardens for like 5-10 seconds then relaxes again. at the same time my back would ache. tried changing positions to somehow ease the pain on my back. the pillow that i have with me does not help at all. it has been 15 minutes already and the pain is still here... still doubting if this is the real thing. it's too early.

thinking of calling my mom to ask. but i have to wait for aishi to call me first so that he would know what i'm feeling right now. don't want to raise panic and worry here among my officemates. i would really prefer if i would go into labor if aishi and i are both at home.

still monitoring my back pains and tummy aches.

think i have to rest for a while...

next update to follow by tom. =D

Happy Birthday DADA!!

Yey!! It's my dada's Birthday today! And he's 53! Will post his picture so that you'll see that he does NOT look like a 50+ year old guy...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADA!!

no need to buy you a present, we've only got a month or so left before you get to see your first grandson. that would be the best present for you. i think. hehehe

I'm a year old!!

It was never a big deal for me if I reach the 1 year mark working day in and day out. I never gave so much of a thought that staying in a company for a year would be a big deal. I mean I have experienced staying more than a year in my previous job. I stayed a year and 8 months to be exact before I told myself that enough is enough and I'm am not going anywhere with the job that I have. At the age of 22, I felt i hit the wall face first and I'm going nowhere. I had reached a dead end street. A dead end job. I really could not imagine my self slaving year after year taking in calls from cardholders and giving in to all their whims and outrageous requests just because they are the customer. This is where I realized that the saying, "the customer is always right" does not apply at all. One has to draw the line somewhere. And I did. I said enough is enough and I got sick hearing the same profanity from different people everyday and bearing the faults of the other departments and lying to the customer that everything will be alright, when you know it won't.

Thank God i got out early and found a better job. And today I mark my first year working in this company. I enjoyed the job with a few hiccups on the way. Which was partly my fault since I admit to being a procrastinator when I really feel like not working. But once I start, I try to finish the job before i leave for home. One way or the other, I'm glad I get to use the things I learned in College. I'm glad i got to meet new people and establish strong friendships with a few chosen ones. I'm glad i get to manage to live still within my means.

Things that I learned the whole three years that I have been working:
* Admit if it is really your fault. Honesty doesn't hurt at all, it actually earns you respect.
* The boss is not always right. Argue with the boss if you have to, but in a calm tone. He is still the one responsible for your salary.
* There will always be an officemate who wants to compete with you or treats you as a threat. Don't get affected. Take it as a challenge to excel more.
* Always be on your toes when it comes to personal or even work issues. You don't know who your enemy is. being to open can hurt you.
* Never Ever bring your personal issues to work. You'll never get anything done and everything gets affected.
* What happens in the office, stays in the office. And that thing is called WORK. Once you get home, think of your family, yourself. Establish "ME" time at home. It's more relaxing.
* Treat your contacts and clients as friends, you'll never know they might hold the right key to the right door to your future.
* You can't avoid "petiks", just make sure your officemates see you working from time to time. Keep yourself busy sometimes.
* There will always be office gossip. It's ok to talk about it but fabricating or inventing stories about someone which is really not true is below the belt.
* Still on the office gossip note, not being paranoid here or anything but, you are also being talked about and just live with that fact. People always need something to talk about as a past time.

Well so far that's what I learned working and everyday I pick up nuggets of wisdom and lessons from people who have stayed longer than me. So far, I'm still enjoying the perks of my work but I do admit there are times that I feel I should move up and explore more since I still have the time in the world to veture into something that would really make me stay longer. I do hope that in the future I find that job that would make me stay longer, more than 10 years i suppose. Or I hope that job finds me soon. But for now, I'll stay here and in the days that i feel frustrated and tired, then I shall look for that job.

*Happy Anniv to me!! YEHEY!! * ^_^

Father's Day

Spent last Sunday with the two best men in my life...

My Dada

and of course

My Aishi Bear!!

those cuddly cutie beings called babies

i spent the whole weekend at my mother-in-law's place and had the chance to spend some time with my new family. i was also able to spend more time with the new addition to the family. (of course, kyle would be the newest come july) a little baby girl named tanya sophia, nicknamed pia by aishi's grandma. but we all call her "shobe" chinese for little sister. kyle would be called "shoti" chinese for little brother.

my mother in law was gracious enough to give me a liitle responsibility to take care of this yummy smelling bundle of joy to our family. if she's busy taking care of shobe's older sister maan, i look after her making sure when she pees, her diaper gets changed asap. i just love watching her sleep or if she's awake stare at her and talk to her. it's never too early to talk to a newborn baby. it helps establish a bond between the two of you even though this baby did not come from me. i believe there would be a certain level of comfort for the baby once he/she gets to hear your voice at an early age. that's what i plan to do with kyle. actually i've been doing it ever since. i just ask aishi to particiapte more since kyle hears my voice everyday 24/7. it would be better for him to recognize our voice before he comes out.

i just could not understand some people who could not stand seeing babies. i think that babies are the most adorable creatures in the world before they mature into full grown human beings. at such a young age, they already know how to get your affection and manipulate you in their own sweet little way. i just love their powerdery cologne-y scent even if they've just peed or pooped. especially babies who are not yet fed solid food. their poo smells like milk. hehehe

i really just can't wait for my baby kyle to come into this world. 1 more month of waiting.. it's true what they say in the books, during the last trimester of a woman, the more she gets impatient with the arrival of the baby into the family. well in my case it's not only me that's impatient. it's my whole family!! from my dad to my deadpan youngest brother...

getting more and more impatient

i'm officially 33 weeks pregnant, translation: almost 8 months on the way. by the 37th week onwards, well, i could deliver this child anyday, any minute. that makes it 4 more weeks... and i'm getting impatient. aishi's getting impatient. my parents are super excited.

i've been having really vivid dreams about kyle. how he looks like. i dreamt about him with a very round face, rosy chubby cheeks, pointy nose, and cherry red lips. in short, i dreamt him to look like a really cutie pie baby boy.

i'm still working right now. actually i can still manage the workload, it's just that i avoid the client calls and client visits. i just do my work and follow ups through the phone. i'm actually hoping to continue to work until i can't anymore. but then i wouldn't want to be caught in labor here in the office. dyahe naman sa mga officemates di ba? we were actually talking about that over lunch with my good friends, what if nag labor ako dito sa office sino ang bubuhat sa akin? sino ang magdadala sa akin sa hospital? off the bat, naisip ko agad na si jay ang bubuhat sa akin since he's one hell of a big guy and for sure kakayanin naman nya ang weight ko di ba? or the next alternative naman would either be albert or lazslo. hehe and the designated person to drive me daw to the hospital eh ang dakila naming boss (COO) na si kevin. hahaha since practical naman if you think about it kasi his car is the one that is parked nearest sa office. actually, sa basement ng aming building. so si kevin talaga ang best option namin in case that happens.

but then, i would still prefer na sa house ako abutin ng labor pains and this would happen at night. tipong habang masaya kaming nanonood ng telenovela sa channel 2. hahaha i could just imagine my mom, na super natataranta kasabay ni aishi. tapos kaming dalawa ng dada ko eh cool lang. haha ang weird siguro tignan nun. i just wish na si aishi ang mag drive ng car at nde si dada kasi super bagal nito mag drive at baka sa car pa ako managanak ng di oras kahit na ang lourdes eh more or less mga 20-30 mins away lang sa bahay namin.

ngayon ko lang naisip na i have to prepare my bag for the hospital na and i hope i won't forget to include kyle's things din. baka umuwi ng hubad ang anak ko habang ang nanay eh maayos na nakabihis pauwi. hehe ang sama namang thought yun.

When Love met Madness

credit given to Kanto girl and her blog. just reposting a really nice story. visit her blog na rin http://clickmomukhamo.com/kantogirlblues/

WHEN LOVE MET MADNESS
(forwarded email)

This ain’t Neil Gaiman, but it made me chuckle.

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A long time ago, before the world was created and
humans set foot on it for the first time, virtues
and vices wandered bored, not knowing what to do.

One day, they were all gathered and bored more than
ever when Ingenious had an idea: Why don’t we play
hide and seek? And all of them liked the idea, and
immediately the mad Madness shouted: I want to
count, I want to count and since no one else was
crazy to seek for Madness, Madness leaned on a tree
and started to count, 1, 2, 3. And as Madness
counted, the vices and virtues went hiding.

Tenderness hung on the horn of the moon; Treason in
a pile of garbage; Fondness curled up between the
clouds; Lie said he would hide under a stone but he
lied and hid at the bottom of the lake; Passion went
to the center of the earth; Avarice entered a sack
that he ended up breaking….

And Madness continued to count, 79,80, 81,82. All
the vices and virtues were already hidden by then,
except for Love, whom as undecided as he is, did not
know where to hide. And this should not surprise us
because we all know how difficult it is to hide
Love.

And Madness was already at 95, 96,97.and just at the
moment when she arrived at hundred, Love jumped into
a rosebush and there he hid out. And Madness shouted
“I’m coming! I’m coming!” and as she turned, the
first one she saw was Laziness, thrown to her feet
because he didn’t have any energy to hide.

Then she saw Tenderness in the horn of the Moon, and
Lie at the bottom of the lake, and Passion in the
center of the earth… Discovering them one by one,
finding all of them but one. Madness was getting
desperate, unable to find the last missing one,
until Envy, envious for having been discovered,
whispered to Madness: “You are lacking Love, and he
is hiding in the rosebush.”

And Madness took a wooden pitchfork, and stabbed at
the rosebush, and stabbed and stabbed, till a heartbreaking
shout made her stop.

And, after the shout, Love came out covering his
face with his hands, and from between his fingers
run two threads of blood, out of his eyes.

Madness anxious to find Love had took out Love’s
eyes with the pitchfork. What have I done?, what
have I done? - she shouted. I have left you blind!
How can I repair it? And Love answered, you can’t
restore my eyes. But if you want to do something
for me, you could be my guide.

From that day on, Love is blind and is always
accompanied by Madness.


*** so true...

your departure

you left one humid night
your sweat left traces of you
in the pillow that we shared

that sent shivers down my spine
it felt like a thousand caresses
your fingertips tracing every part

you know where i am
what sparks me
you wrap me in intoxication

i could feel your breath
the sound of your sleep
a tender whisper in my ears

it seems you never left at all
you still linger
in every corner of our world

but then
i know
you'll be back


yagiedoodles
6/14/05
yehey office


thinking about my aishi while he's a million miles away down south...

yes!! my muse is still with me. i just have to wake her up to spark some inspiration in my poetic soul.

my aishibear...

he's got the cutest smile ever... i wish our baby kyle gets his smile ^_^

may mumu sa room ko...

i had the weirdest experience last night.

i was able to sleep around 10pm last night. but then aish called me up around 11:30 i think because he forgot to get his credit card form me. so i waited for him to get to my house so that i could give his card already and return to sleep.. i can't even remember what i said, or if i said anything when i gave aish his card.

anyway, on with the story...

i finally made it to my bed to finally catch some sleep. around 10-15 mins into my sleep, i felt that it seems there was someone or something poking my bed. poking not the sides of my bed but it felt like it was poking my bed as if it's floating above me. i just ignored it and just slept. i don't want to scare myself that time coz i really need to sleep.

another experience...

i woke up around 3am, which had been routine for me the past 4 days already. i would either wake up 5 mins before 3 or 10 mins after 3. but anyway, i checked my phone's clock and sure enough it was 3:10 am. so i returned to my usual sleeping position where i wrap myself in my blanket form head to toe and facing my wall. (don't worry, i can breathe properly) as i was about to drift off to sleep i heard my floorboards creaking, as if there was someone walking inside my room. my floorboards are really noisy whenever someone enters my room. i could sometimes even hear it when i'm downstairs. but the sound was very quiet like that "person" was tiptoeing around my room. but the sound was really distinct. but still, i just ignored it and continued to sleep.

i don't really know if i had a ghostly experience. but i think i shold stop reading ghost stories for now. it's getting in my head already....

Hale - The day you said goodnight

* aishi and i loooove this song so much*

THE DAY YOU SAID GOONIGHT by HALE.

Take me as you are
Push me off the road
the sadness,
i need this time to be with you
im freezing in the sun
im burnig in the rain
the silence;
im screaming, calling out your name

and i do reside in your light
put out the fire with me and find
yeah you'll lose the side of the circles
that's what i'll do if we say goodbye

CHORUS:
To be is all i gotta be
and all that i see
and all that i need is time
to me the life you gave me
the day you said goodnight

The calmness in your face
that i see through the night
the warmth of your life is pressing unto us
you didn't ask me why
i never would have known oblivion is falling down
and i do reside in your light
put out the fire with me and find
yeah you'll lose the side of the circles
that's what i'll do the day you said goodnight

(REPEAT CHORUS)

if you could only know me like your prayers at night
Then everything between me and you will be alright

(REPEAT CHORUS)

she's already taken
she's already taken
she's already taken me
she's already taken
she's already taken
she's already taken me
the day you said goodnight.