must be my hormones acting up again

something inside me is stirring and i can't pinpoint what. i feel myself sad, alone, aloof but deep inside i know i shouldn't be. why should i? we may be on unstable financial grounds right now but that's a little problem considering that i have a loving family and kids that are overflowing with unconditional love.

i don't want to dwell on the storm that we had the past few days - kyle and keon getting sick, kyle almost falling victim to pneumonia, all because of the construction in front of our house. it just makes me feel bad remembering those sleepless nights hearing them cough and waking up crying. it's done. and the kids are well and happy.

i guess it's just the hormones acting up.

i'm drowning in a lot of emotions that i really do not want to feel. i just want to be calm and happy. i shouldn't be paranoid about little things, about things not worrying about. no no no. i have been surrounded with a lot of drama lately and i think i deserve to be really happy, inside and out. and i guess not only me but my family as well.

i guess it's just the hormones acting up again and i'm going to have my period soon.

i just hate these days... PMS sucks.