i decided..

after all the things that i have discovered last saturday, i decided to keep silent and pray instead that this will pass and hopefully i was just paranoid. the first few hours, i was nursing a bad mood and a semi-broken heart. but i thought about it and prayed that this was nothing for me to worry about at all and this person will not and can not ruin what we have built and established.

i admit i was really hurt when i saw the messages, but in perspective, it seems this person was the only one trying to make a connection or even insisting that there's something going on. i have full trust. i know he isn't doing anything to hurt me even if i try to drop subtle hints. with the assurance i got. i am calm but not contented. yet.

but if ever i see this again, i will resort to what miss yosi girl did... i too can ruin someone's life too if i want to. just don't mess with me and my family. i did it before, but with all the denying and the exchange of words, but i'm ready to do it again if this thing keeps at it. seriously.

yes ple, i decided to keep mum about it. martyr siguro ako, o talagang mahal ko siya. bahala na. we'll see where this patience will get me. andyan ka naman and our drama sessions eh...

the only comfort i have now are my kids who as innocent as they are right now, don't know how much they make me happy when they smile, hug and just look at me at times when i'm at my lowest.

my little boys, you don't know how much you make me happy when i go home to you two. you always make things better every single day. and i couldn't be more proud of you guys.