nard and kristine's ting hun (chinese engagement) party | Sept. 23, 2007 | weddding will be in Sept 2008 (i'm not sure of the date)
and the first time i wore a dress, in a long time. haha
everyone looked so nice! the ones missing are jago, jackie, franco and trisha. we'll see you guys in december! :D
aishi looks so gwapo, although he's so thin in that picture. my stressed-out hubby..
because i have been out of touch with people. my line got cut, totally forgot to pay the bills - my bad actually. and this is what i get. but i had my reasons really, pay the phone bills or the kids won't have their medicines. i chose the latter, of course. it's more important.
i just miss texting people.
and it's too dyahe to borrow someone's phone so that i could text aishi for whatever.
and my prepaid ran out of load, so there. and i'm too lazy to look for those reloading stations.
i miss my line!!!
on the upside, i'll be paying my phone bills hopefully this saturday - if i have the time
apparently yahoo! had acquired mybloglog and now merges your yahoo account to this. got quite stumped for a while then got the hang of it. got a bit scared too that maybe the communities i'm in got lost. but thank god it didn't.
funny how yahoo and google are competing against each other in acquiring a lot of independent sites and applications and make it their own or part of their services. amazing!
imagine the money that was shelled out to get them?
now if that happens to our site in the future, which our boss has been praying for - he's wishing/praying to be the next youtube. imagine the possibilities and one of my dreams coming true!!
wish wish wish!!
I called home to check up on how the boys are doing and I asked kyle’s nanny if I could talk to him, our conversation goes like this:
Me: hi kyle! What are you doing?
Kyle: mommy! Mommy!
Me: what are you doing? Where’s keon?
Kyle: gibberish. Keon iping (sleeping) gibberish again
Me: keon’s sleeping? Are you looking after him?
Kyle: mommy mommy uh-uh. Gibberish again. Keon dede
Me: so keon drank his milk na. how about you?
Kyle: no no
Me: why? Don’t you like your milk?
Kyle: gibberish. No dede
Me: ok no dede for you. Eat your dinner later ok?
And then I realized I was talking to his nanny already.
I guess he got bored talking to me because I was asking him a lot of questions.
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We’re still struggling with project potty training. And my little boy is still scared when he sees the toilet bowl and even those kiddie potty seats. So I guess we’ll have to endure a few months and days of diapers and wet beds.
He’s not yet ready. Haaay…
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Last night we were watching Hannibal rising when I told kyle that he has to go to bed already considering he was cranky already and crying for no reason at all. I asked his nanny if she could put him to sleep while I finish the big mac I was eating. But since kyle was bratty already. He chose to sit beside me while I prepared to eat the burger. I was telling him he has to go to bed now and to stop moving around and disturbing his uncle. Out of anger I guess, because I was telling him to stop, he grabbed half of the burger and almost threw it at me! Good thing his hands got covered in the mayo and the relish that all he could do was drew back his hand and utter: eeew.
I was half mad half stifling my laughter for what he did. I really couldn’t stay mad at my little boy. It was too cute to watch.
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i've been quite stressed out lately that it feels like i didn't get to spend my usual time with my kids. blame work, issues whatever, it still boils down to the fact that my kids missed me and i missed them. and in the past weeks that i was going home late and seeing them sleeping peacefully makes me sad.
yeah it's hard raising and taking care of two kids and their nannies while worrying about work too.
i'm still not over the fact that kyle's 2 and keon's going to celebrate his first birthday in a few months! it still feels like i just gave birth two months ago to these boys. the way they're growing up it seems i should cut down on their vitamins (joke)
i seem to be neglecting their milestones which i should've blogged about. but what did i blog about? anything besides them. so sad. :( so here we go...
kyle's been really expressive now with a few sprinkles of his own language which i try to decipher and pretend to know. when he speaks i have to process it for a few minutes then try to find the nearest sounding word. he's quite the chatterbox now, which my mom reminds me that he was like me when i was two, just a few notches higher. he's forming sentences now like: mommy, open please or daddy, wake up dede please or he'll get my dad's hands and order him to go up the stairs with him. and yes, my little boy of two has manners. he now knows how to say please and thank you. and he prays at night too, with matching goobye wave and flying kiss to jesus. he now knows how to count from 1-10 and he's abc's are a bit improving, but i'm not pressuring him. he knows a few nursery rhymes, can give the equivalent animal sounds of cats, birds, frogs, elephants, lions, tigers, dragons(yes, dragons), ducks, cows etc. he calls penguins happy feet - much easier for kids his age to pronounce, yes? or he has watched happy feet a million times next to cars.
and he's quite the little malambing boy i have ever met - or maybe he's just clingy and a momma's boy. but hey, i'm not complaining. he still loves sleeping on top of me, even if i have a hard time breathing, but if it makes him sleep, all the better. and did i mention that he stills smells like a baby? all sweaty and dirty, he still smells like a baby.
now my little chuchi bear keon, at 7 months, he's quite the happy baby. quite the opposite of his kuya kyle. when he wakes up, he's all smiles and laughter compared to kyle who's enemies with everybody with the scowls and sour face and kunot-noo (mana kay mommy sa umaga haha). he loves seeing people fawning over him and he's happy to give a few happy jumps and squeals. oh, his squeals are the cutest ever! i love making him laugh by kissing the part under his chin and the look of contentment in his face when i do that. i love it!! he now waves bye bye when we tell him to. he's now learning to sit on his own and he's quite the crawler now, just show him the remote and he'll get it-fast. and we have just demoted him to the bottom part of his crib, he's too heavy for the basinette to hold.
looking at my two kids, they're polar opposites. kyle looks like me when i was a baby, especially if i tie his hair and keon looks like his dad when he was a baby, only whiter. i have to scan our pics as proof.
well then, time to go home to my babies and spend quality time with them. :)
is this another week of let's piss off yagie? it's monday and i'm not having the grandest time ever.
i guess and i HOPE it's only for today. everything's so messed up and i don't know why. punyeta talaga. i was hoping for a good week.
to think my freakin' birthday is just around the corner. i can see the number 26 peeking. no!!! i'm not ready to be under the 26-30 category. not now!! not yet.
but then, i've imposed a i'm-gonna-be-25-forever thing. ask my age every year and i'll answer 25. always.
no, i'm not afraid to grow old. i just don't like the feeling like you're being counted for how many years you've existed. it's like bad juju for me. and it's like when you're 25 you can still be a drama queen, feels like when you hit 26, para bang, you have no right to create drama and start acting like a true blue adult.
for crying out loud, i still play with my kid's toys!
i'll be a 25 year old kid forever.
yeah so my birthday's coming, and this monday's not a good day... i hope tomorrow's better until sunday.
coffee shop (fiction)
The aircon gives off a steady hum to the usual quiet of the room. She lay quietly on her bed which she had left unmade for the past two days. A half empty mug of coffee on her bedside table, leftovers from last night’s dinner have been her late brunch. A sole tricycle passed by her bedroom window. She stared up at her ceiling and mumbled:
What’s left for me? What am I to do now?
She was remembering the things she had dear to her. She tried to cry but the tears had dried out from two days’ worth of crying and staying in her room. It was still a fresh wound…
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This was the first place they met, this was where he approached her and asked if he could borrow her lighter, and from there, everything blossomed into something beautiful. This was where they stayed until the shop closed talking about anything and everything. This was their coffee shop. Their little piece of heaven.
He was something special. He treated her like a queen even if she didn’t ask for it. She didn’t have to ask for anything, he gave her what she wanted as long as he can provide. Everyday spent with him was bliss. There was never a rainy day in their perfect weather. It was always warm and fuzzy, like a comforting sip of hot chocolate. That was what he was, her comfort. When she needed company in her unit, he was there without question. He would just hug her until she fell asleep in his arms and wake up to his morning kisses and tickles.
Those were the memories of 2 years being with him. All of a sudden, something’s changed. They were picking fights here and there, from the littlest things like how she keeps the candy wrappers in her bag instead of throwing it. How he would not wash the dishes after, those little things. He wouldn’t sleep over anymore. The movies, the dates, the coffee sessions, the moments of just sitting beside each other in that coffee shop became more of a ritual than of a habit which one of them became tired of.
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Flashback to two nights ago… they were in their usual spot in their favorite coffee shop not to far from her condo unit.
We need to talk .. he said with a face she can’t decipher. This doesn’t look good, she thought.
Why what’s wrong? Is this about us? Did I do something to make you feel this way? She was fighting back the tears, she knew where this was leading to. It’s over. She thought sadly.
I’ve been meaning to tell it to you but I jut don’t know where to start. He held her hand and continued I made a mistake, and I didn’t mean to hurt you.
What? What mistake? She was confused. Where is this leading to? She wondered.
He looked into her eyes, tears were starting to fall from his. I got someone pregnant. It was one drunken night of mistakes and I don’t know… he couldn’t continue. She was crying her eyes out. Suddenly the floodgates had opened. How can you do this to me? Why? Why did you have to ruin what we have? Didn’t we have something special? You told me that! She didn’t know whether to hit him, slap him or just run away and hope this was all a bad dream.
I’m so sorry… her family wants us to get married. I don’t love her, I don’t. but they want us to get married. if only i could say no...
Why can’t you do anything about it? Just like that it’s over? And I’m supposed to accept that fact?
I have no choice. I’d still choose you. You’re the one I want to marry. Even if we were fighting, it doesn’t mean that I don’t love you anymore.
But that won’t happen. You’ve hurt me. We can’t do this anymore. I don’t want to see you…
She stood up and left the coffee shop for good. Pieces of her broken heart will remain in that coffee shop forever. She didn’t look back even if she could still hear him calling after her.
She went back to her pad and locked herself in her room. She didn’t have the energy to even call her bestfriend. She wanted to be alone.
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Back to the present day…
She lay quietly on her bed which she had left unmade for the past two days. A half empty mug of coffee on her bedside table, leftovers from last night’s dinner have been her late brunch. A sole tricycle passed by her bedroom window. She stared up at her ceiling and mumbled:
What am I to do now? How will I tell him I’m carrying his child too?
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i have found a new love...
i'm now a facebook addict. it's so fun! you gus should try it out too and add me up. :)
i did one sometime may 2007, but i made a few changes but the over-all assessment, it's still the same and spot on with my personality.
and added a few wishes too
since my birthday's 11 days from now and xmas is just around the corner, might as well make public my wishlist. it would be great if i could get this from people who love me (hint hint hehe) or one of these days i'll be able to purchase them with my own money.
i just love what this song means :)
Flat Tire
So tough
I didn't even wanna chew
Your lies were the best I ever knew
New car new clothes
New attitude
You were always in the headlines weren't you
You better slow down
They're draggin' your name all over this town
No luck
Always in second place
A flat tire on the road to a better place
And you know
There's some things that you can't deny
That you were always on the run with some other guy
You better slow down
They're draggin' your name all over this town
What comes around goes around
The truth is gonna come out
And I'll be the first to open my mouth
But who is gonna treat you right?
You better know tonight
The truth is gonna take place
And I'll be the first one savin' my face
But who is gonna love you more?
No one ever knows for sure
Who
inspiring :) makes you want to come home to your kids and say these right now.
NINETEEN SOMETHINGS TO SAY TO CHILDREN
1. I love you! There is nothing that will make me stop loving you. Nothing you could do or say or think will ever change that.
2. You are amazing! I look at you with wonder! Not just at what you can do,but who you are. There is no one like you. No one!
3. It's all right to cry. People cry for all kinds of reasons: when they are hurt, sad, glad, or worried; when they are angry, afraid, or lonely. Big people cry too. I do.
4. You've made a mistake. That was wrong. People make mistakes. I do. Is it something we can fix? What can we do? It's all over. You can start fresh. I know you are sorry. I forgive you.
5. You did the right thing. That was scary or hard. Even though it wasn't easy, you did it. I am proud of you; you should be too.
6. I'm sorry. Forgive me. I made a mistake.
7. You can change your mind. It's good to decide,but it is also fine to change.
8. What a great idea! You were really thinking!How did you come up with that? Tell me more. Your mind is clever!
9. That was kind. You did something helpful and thoughtful for that person.That must make you feel good inside. Thank you!
10. I have a surprise for you. It's not your birthday. It's for no reason at all. Just a surprise, a little one, but a surprise.
11. I can wait. We have time. You don't have to hurry this time.
12. What would you like to do? It's your turn to pick. You have great ideas. It's important to follow your special interests.
13. Tell me about it. I'd like to hear more. And then what happened?I'll listen.
14. I'm right here. I won't leave without saying good-bye. I am watching you. I am listening to you.
15. Please and Thank You. These are important words. If I forget to use them, will you remind me?
16. I missed you. I think about you when we are not together!
17. Just try. A little bit. One taste, one step.You might like it.Let's see. I'll help you if you need it. I think you can do it.
18. I'll help you. I heard you call me, here Iam. How can I help you?If we both work together, we can get this done. I know you can do it by yourself,but I'm glad to help since you asked.
19. What do you wish for? Even if it's not yet time for birthday candles and we don't have a wishbone, it's still fun to hear about what you wish for, hope for, and dream about
-- Author Unknown
The Bottom Line
Spend a little time on friends -- and a little money on yourself! You'll be glad.
In Detail
The strict regimen you've been on lately may have yielded some impressive results in business or school work, but it's also left you with a lot less time to just relax and be you. So today, give yourself a bit of a break to slow down and enjoy the benefits of all your hard work. Spend a little time on friends -- and a little money on yourself! Isn't there something you've been wanting to do but haven't had the time? Make the time today. You will be glad you did.
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sure, i got lots of friends... and i do get to spend time with them it's the money i'm worried about! haha and my birthday's coming.
what to do? what to do?
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i guess i'll have to create a birthday wishlist. in the hopes that even one of those things on the list will be given to me. :)
i found the perfect getaway for aishi and i on our anniverasry!! yipee!!
and i'm not telling after it happens. sayang naman ang semi-secret di ba?
:D
i'm thinking of coloring my hair red.... no that firey red though, just red-ish? basta when the sunlight hits my hair you'll see it damn red! (haha may damn pa eh no?) will it look ok on me? :) honestly. or else, i might go purple kung malakas ang trip ko. hahaha joke!
i haven't been religious in using my olay total effects and, my skin has dried up! i'm so sorry skin! will not miss our olay sessions again. :) now for that perfect eye cream..
i'm sooo tempted to try out that skin care line by belo. in fairness nadala ako sa advertising strategy, feeling ko tuloy i'm going to look like zhazha hahaha you wish yagie!! haha :P
it’s hard to build a community around mundane and mediocre crap no matter how hard you try.
- Guy Kawasaki
things you learn about social media and social networking, in general, this works for anything and everything: from people to products. the question is, will they get it?
sorry just ranting about work related stuff... research has gotten into me. :) just doing some mental blabbing...
DISCLAIMER: do not take things too literally... these are ramblings. period.
since kyle's in the terrible/terrific twos now, he's been quite vocal about what he wants and feels. although there are times when he stills loses focus in letting out his emotions. can't blame him, he's still young and learning the ropes of life on his on and with me. so anyway, i've been reprimanding him for bad behavior like pushing his cousin when he wants to get a certain toy or forgets to share. there was this one time where i called his attention and in the middle of my reprimand, he faced me and said: "stop" "enough" with matching finger pointing, the way i do it when i call his attention. i didn't know what to to. i was stumped. i was caught in the middle of laughing or getting more angry for what he did. being the mom, and not wanting to show that i was pahiya, i just told him that only mommy can do that if he does something wrong. (i was left with nothing to say anymore!) good thing though he did stop from being naughty. marunong na lumaban anak ko... but it still makes me so proud, it makes my heart burst. what more when he knows more words and can communicate properly? the endless conversations and arguments we could share.
sudden change of events. somehow, it became calm and peaceful after getting a good night's sleep minus hubby's hugs and my not-so subtle hints for some cuddling. but i let it pass. we went through a tornado the past weeks. and now i guess the storm has passed and logically, things will be peaceful - i hope.
and borrowing kerol's ym status yesterday, i need to align my chi.
and i can't wait to meet up with her and ple for some affirmation and maybe a little deliberation on the things that happened the past week. for some weird reason, everybody i know was having a messed-up week. and spirits were a bit low. hopefully the wheel has turned and we can return to our happy, normal selves again. and take the days one at a time.
it sure was hell. and i pray it will never happen again.
it's hard to pick up pieces of myself then have it blown away again.
and thank god for chocolates - my happy food.
to those who sent some love even if i didn't give out any clues as to what really happened, thank you for understanding and for not trying to fish it out of me. your cyber hugs helped a lot.
back to regular programming then? :)
i feel bad and i just don't want to talk about it because it has been haunting me since last night...
and it still gives me the shivers
and scares me like hell
and makes me feel that what i did wasn't good enough even if i raked my brain for what if ad what could have beens...
i'm just sad today and i don't know when i will feel better.
i don't want to think that i'm a failure, at everything.
:(
celebrated her birthday @ texas steakhouse in bonifacio high street. the place is soooo posh!!
the sad part though was i didn't get to go to fully booked. but there will be a next time :D
for pictures, hop on over to cj's multiply :)
something inside me is stirring and i can't pinpoint what. i feel myself sad, alone, aloof but deep inside i know i shouldn't be. why should i? we may be on unstable financial grounds right now but that's a little problem considering that i have a loving family and kids that are overflowing with unconditional love.
i don't want to dwell on the storm that we had the past few days - kyle and keon getting sick, kyle almost falling victim to pneumonia, all because of the construction in front of our house. it just makes me feel bad remembering those sleepless nights hearing them cough and waking up crying. it's done. and the kids are well and happy.
i guess it's just the hormones acting up.
i'm drowning in a lot of emotions that i really do not want to feel. i just want to be calm and happy. i shouldn't be paranoid about little things, about things not worrying about. no no no. i have been surrounded with a lot of drama lately and i think i deserve to be really happy, inside and out. and i guess not only me but my family as well.
i guess it's just the hormones acting up again and i'm going to have my period soon.
i just hate these days... PMS sucks.
i'm just pissed today.
i should've handled it myself than let this sss loan thing ROT in our HR/Accounting. if i didn't follow up, i wouldn't be informed that I SHOULD be the one to handle my loan. if i was INFORMED earlier then i should've gotten the money 2 weeks earlier than let a month roll by without anything...
nakakabad trip kayo eh!! i need that money. it's not for me, it's for the kids!!
sheesh!!!!!
incompetent little ____ ...
funny, this fate thing..
Libra (Sep 23 - Oct 22)[?]
The Bottom Line
Your routine will get severely disrupted today, but just try to go with the flow.
In Detail
Your routine will get disrupted today, which will get on your nerves more than it probably should. You've been on such a nice roll for so long that this new turn of events is disrupting your flow and making you cranky. The best approach for this level of frustration is to not try to get things back the way you want them. It's too late for that. No, the best approach is to take a deep breath and just go with the flow. An adventure is right around the corner.
~
yup did that.
kerol!! this horoscope thing is really freaky man! hahahaha
to kerol, daiz, may and miss yosi girl - thank you for sendin your love. i know we have been in the same boat one way or another. and up, we did get our hearts hurt, but we emerged stronger and in all honesty, we were more bitchy in a good way.
at least there's something we learned- walang mapapala ang mga umaasang kumabit sa mga asawa natin. hahaha belat sila.
hugs to you guys! and to those who will send more love.
thank you!! <3
to this girl:
alam mo, mabait kasi ang asawa ko sa lahat. wag mong isipin na special ka sa kanya, maasikaso talaga ang asawa ko hindi ka ba nagugulat na pag magtext ka eh hindi ka niya sinasagot? get the hint naman, unless slow ka lang talaga... ang dami namang lalaki dyan na single, bakit aasa ka pa na magkaka-feelings sa iyo ang asawa ko? physically, you're not even pretty. no chance at all my dear. live with it. unless gusto mo maulit yung ginawa ko dati... i still know your number...
after all the things that i have discovered last saturday, i decided to keep silent and pray instead that this will pass and hopefully i was just paranoid. the first few hours, i was nursing a bad mood and a semi-broken heart. but i thought about it and prayed that this was nothing for me to worry about at all and this person will not and can not ruin what we have built and established.
i admit i was really hurt when i saw the messages, but in perspective, it seems this person was the only one trying to make a connection or even insisting that there's something going on. i have full trust. i know he isn't doing anything to hurt me even if i try to drop subtle hints. with the assurance i got. i am calm but not contented. yet.
but if ever i see this again, i will resort to what miss yosi girl did... i too can ruin someone's life too if i want to. just don't mess with me and my family. i did it before, but with all the denying and the exchange of words, but i'm ready to do it again if this thing keeps at it. seriously.
yes ple, i decided to keep mum about it. martyr siguro ako, o talagang mahal ko siya. bahala na. we'll see where this patience will get me. andyan ka naman and our drama sessions eh...
the only comfort i have now are my kids who as innocent as they are right now, don't know how much they make me happy when they smile, hug and just look at me at times when i'm at my lowest.
my little boys, you don't know how much you make me happy when i go home to you two. you always make things better every single day. and i couldn't be more proud of you guys.
i'm sure you know the song in the sony ericsson commercial, where this couple were in a park bench celebrating their anniversary?
well, here's the song:
want you to know
enjoy!!
